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Quantum Creation, part 9

Quantum Creation, part 9

I have had another shift in my understanding or perhaps association with the Now.  I spoke in part 8 about the closer you are to being in the experience of the Now, the closer you get to instant manifestation.  This ties in to my understanding of what Today means and it has been percolating for about a week.

I didn’t understand at first why I was being directed to claim my Today every morning, noon and night for the past week.  Isn’t Today a step away from the energy of Now?  Isn’t it a broad term for a slice of Time?  Apparently not!  Today is the Living of the Now as a physical interaction.  It starts out with that simple understanding that we have all heard “Tomorrow never comes.”  So true!  Even when the clock rolls over to tomorrow, it automatically becomes Today.

So how does that change your view of yourself, your creations, and your life?  It took me a few days but then lightning struck today and I could see what occurs.  Do you remember how I said that everything is available in the Now?  Well, Today is where it all plays out.  Today is where your physical life mirrors the Now.  It is the condensation of your Now choices into a physical life that you move through, interact with and literally live in.  When you realize that Today is not only The Day, but is The Day EVERYDAY, then you automatically erase not only the past but the future as well.  And I mean literally erase your concept of them.  When you are remembering something from the past, you are literally placing it into your Today or trying to take yourself out of Today, which is impossible.  When you are planning something for the future, you are literally placing it onto the Today that you choose to experience it.  You are literally taking it out of your Today and placing it into the future, which never will exist.

Let me have you feel into that planning energy.  Imagine your calendar in front of you and you are noting something down for two weeks from now.  There is a stretch to that energy, and in some cases a feeling of energetic disconnect.  This is because you can only experience that energy Today.  You are artificially placing that energy into a Today of your choosing.  I am not saying that we all have to stop planning.  What I hope to get across is that you recognize the artificiality of removing that energy from your immediate physical experience.  That is NOT where the energy lies.  There is no possible way for it to exist, except in your Now.

Imagine something of joy that you are looking forward to doing.  There is anticipation to it, but that anticipation is the joy of the experience stretched out of your Today.  It has the underlying feeling of having a bit of stress or tension to it because of that artificial shift into the future, which doesn’t exist.  Now remember an experience in your past that you hope you never have to experience again.  This time there is a dread or sorrow that arises as you think about it.  This is the emotional reaction to placing yourself in either a yesterday, which doesn’t exist any longer, or bringing that yesterday experience into Today, which doesn’t resonate.

When you start living in Today, the rest of time feels completely smudged off your brain. You also will need lots of reminder notes!  We have planned so many things to facilitate our interaction with this world and WE are the ones who have invented past, present and future.  It was all about creating as many experiences as possible.  But if all those experiences want to be recognized as happening Today, where will that take us as a society, as a species and as individuals?  When everything is available Now and is ready to be expressed in our physical life Today, how can that NOT be instant manifestation?  It is very literally our Here and Now!

Quantum Creation, part 8

Quantum Creation, part 8

Hello friends, in part 7 of this series, I did my best to find the words to describe the Now.  I explained how I have come to understand the Quantum paradox of the Now.  The next step is to understand that the Quantum in general is always in the Now.  How is this explained?  To start off with the Quantum only exists as a creational force for the physical state of Being.  The Quantum is the paradox, consisting of the Everything and the Nothing, which was created to create a paradoxical physical world of both separation and unity.  That physical world only exists and is interactive in the paradox of the Now.

The closer you get to your awareness of the Now, the closer you get to instant manifestation.  It doesn’t take much to feel your way into the Quantum of the Now.  Are you sitting in a chair?  Are you breathing?  Do you see a tree outside the window?  Are you in love with life?  Just feel into yourself and the Knowing that you Created it all and that you are in the Creation.  Become aware of yourself and your abilities.  And since you are aware, lets look at how You and your Abilities affect Everything Else.

Remember those Vectors that we talked about in part 6?  The Vectors connect separated physical expressions to provide stability and cohesive understanding in a created world of separation.  Vectors are conscious and unconscious energetic magnetic alignments that are built or created between all things.   The Vectors are aligned with your ability to manifest.  Manifestation is the release of a conscious creation into the physical of the Now.  Vectors are aligned with this because the very nature of providing stability and support in a world of separation has created the framework for a biased energetic approach to responding magnetic attraction.  This means that when you become a frequency, you attract that frequency in all things, simply because you are the Creator and you are living in your Creation.  So what do the Vectors have to do with the Now?

The Vectors are the relay system that creates growth, opportunities and system rewrites for large energetic partnerships instantaneously.  Vectors are not just between groups of people or any of the other human to non-human examples that I gave you in part 6. There are also Vectors that connect us to things like the Economy, Art, Technology, Agriculture, Health, Education, Life Expectancy, and all other aspects of human community life.

Another aspect of a Vector is that it is set up and functions as a translator.  This means that the release of one individual from a thought pattern or system creates the ability, through all their connected vectors (of which there are MANY), to make that choice available to all other individual participants in those vectors.  And because of the Vectors function as a translator, non-human participants like the economy or soil or art or gravity are given instant options of what that means for their expression of self.

For example, the more that your knowledge of self grows, the more the Vector of Self Awareness resonates like a pebble hitting the surface of a pond, with your new knowledge.  The more other individual participants in that same Vector choose to explore that knowledge of self, the more that all the other Vectors attached to all the active participants begin to resonate as well with their own translation of that knowledge.  Your one change in yourself affects Everything;  no energy system stands alone.  This is all happening without conscious awareness or understanding by humanity or any of the human systems involved.  It is a built in transfer of magnetic energy.

However, when you are aware of your Now and understand your Abilities in the Now, when you shift an understanding of self, you are like a Boulder hitting the surface of that pond.  The impact on the Vector is instant, cumulative and seismic.  It is no longer that you are creating a new option for the participants of the Vector in question, but you create a fundamental shift in the foundation of immediate creation for all participants, whether they are aware of it or not.  It is a new way of doing business and it is instituted immediately.  This is why the Now is so powerful.

Quantum Creation, part 7 (The Now)

Quantum Creation, part 7 (The Now)

Hello Everyone!  This is a continuation of the Quantum Series, only we are going Beyond Quantum from this point onward.  This means we are taking what we know of the energetic understanding and bringing it into the physical realm that you and I actively live in, in a very physical way.  It all starts with the Now.   You, Me and Everyone’s Mother and Great Uncle have been talking about the Now for literally Ages and Ages.  For me it was always a centering into my physical body, a conscious attention to the breath entering and leaving, a deliberate step away from the emotional and mental thoughts of the past and the future.  And let me say, this is a brilliant place for us all to start.  But a week ago my understanding deepened into something so much more.  This is where words become limitations; but it is so important that I try to explain my New Now.

The Now is not a moment; it is a Beingness.  It is a Self-AWARENESS.  The NOW is physical.  It is where you interact with the world around you.  You don’t interact with the future and you don’t interact with the past.  You interact with Everything Now.  When you know yourself enough to KNOW that you are a Creator, then you become AWARE that the NOW is the Creation.  When you understand and KNOW that NOW is the Creation, then everything that you have created becomes available to you immediately in the physical.  The NOW shows you the Quantum Paradox that Time is, a realization that the spiral of time is all happening at once and happening all throughout time.  As a Creator when you are aware of your Now, you basically collapse all Time and feel the physicality of Everything.  Even if you don’t see it, you feel the certainty of all your creations, despite the seeming contrary evidence around you.  For me, it is literally a physical sensation in the center of my chest, a knowing that it is here Now and available right Now.

In the Now the Creation (YOU) and the Creator (YOU) become ONE.  YOUR awareness begins first with your physical body, the feel of your chest rising and falling, the sounds you hear, the feel of your feet on the floor or the chair under your bum, the sights that your eyes see, the taste of food and drink in your mouth, the smell of life and living around you.  These are all interactions of a living being in a living world.  Do you doubt that these are all real?  Do you wish to separate yourself from the physicality of living a physical life?  Because that rather defeats the purpose of choosing to become physical in the first place, otherwise you would have remained in another energetic understanding of Self.  Instead think of it as a physical being realizing that they are not just physical and then taking everything they have learned back into physical life to enhance and evolve the physical experience.

This body is your creation of Self.  It is your manifestation of Life and very much worth living for all its worth.  And all the other things you see, hear, touch, taste and smell are your Creations as well.  How can you not have access to MORE when you have already created an incredible physical body and a world to live in?  That is where the NOW comes into play.  The NOW is Alive with energy.  The Now is the point of contact with the physical.  The NOW is a Quantum experience in your physical existence.  The Quantum Now is not something to step into.  It is simply you being aware of yourself as the Creator, Being in the Creation.

Quantum Creation, part 5

Quantum Creation, part 5

Welcome back to my Quantum creation exploration! At the end of the last post, part 4, the New was speaking about the I Am. (You can read parts 1, 2, and 3 here.) I knew at once that the I Am had great bearing on the One particle, in particular with the One particle as it created me, Esther. Nothing is in isolation in the Quantum, so I understood that every change I make to the One particle that creates me, I gift out to everything else. It was a blog post from Lisa Gawlas that motivated me to exploring the I Am aspect of Quantum creation. Here is a journal entry from the All about the I Am.

All: “The I Am is very powerful. The brain is the only organ in the human body that does not transfer soul understandings into the thought patterns that repeat. Instead it takes its cues from the human experience. This is now changing. You have experienced the power of thought. Now experience the power of becoming anything that you want and need. You are the New Growth of civilization. Watch it Shine.”

Esther: “When I am in the Quantum and “I Am” something, what happens to the Everything?”

A: “The Everything becomes what you are claiming.”

E: “So all expressions are instantly effected?”

A: “You are the All. It follows your lead. Every expression, as you call it, every world event, every moment takes the I Am and creates it NOW. What you influence is the dynamic of Change. All spirals are affected. Every building block is affected. What each life expression chooses to do with that shift is entirely up to them.”

So I began to work with the I Am. I was very excited about it for I could feel that the statement/belief was magnetic. But for a number of days it didn’t seem to be capturing any emotional resonance. Emotional resonance for me is the emotion that rises in your chest when you have hit the sweet spot. The Oh Yes That’s It moment. To back up a bit, emotion (Love) is the true creative force, the signature that connection has happened between you and what you are creating. The more love that you feel (quality not quantity), the greater the transformation of yourself. This is why Love is so important to accessing the Quantum. If you cannot truly love the Everything no matter how terrible some of the expressions of life seem to you, if you cannot love all life (which includes all actions created by the living) as an expression of life, then you limit your connection to the Everything. If you cannot truly love the Nothing as it is then you cannot enter the Quantum. Love is expansive, huge, and all-encompassing. Fear is limiting, small and isolating.

I returned to ask the All what I needed to do to get the emotional resonance. And I found out I was acting way too small! Hahahaha! I can I Am away all day about money or health or relationships or whatever but I am not reaching a Quantum level of creation with any of it. It can reprogram your brain’s thought patterns that the All mentions above; but the brain doesn’t have emotion and emotion is definitely needed to expand that thought into the One particle and share it out with the Universe. I asked for a better way and the All gave me this.

“I AM the Nexus of community, availability, progress and advancement; and in this space I AM Creation, I AM Love, I AM Peace and I AM Fulfilled.”

 There it was! Emotional resonance found! I felt creation, love and peace but mostly I felt fulfilled. All of my needs and desires naturally are drawn to me in a fulfilled state. The magnetics of the I Am resonate on this level like no other! Think Big! I had kept sliding down into thinking small, resonating small, creating small. Quantum work is HUGE!

Let us talk about magnetics and the One particle. The One particle, moving infinitely fast, makes up my body, and everything else. You can say that it is literally everywhere at the same time. So it is with me always and is always moving. It is every possible vibrational experience in creation. The One particle is magnetic and obviously knows intimately the magnetics of everything else. Therefore, whatever I Am, I attract similar I Am’s to me. So what am I? What are we? We are the Nexus mentioned above. We are the thoughts and beliefs that we hold. This Nexus surrounds the One Particle as it continually zips around creating our personal physicality. We have all worked a long time to change who we are, how we think, what we believe, what we love and what we fear. This is all Nexus work. Every expansion of ourselves has immediate effects on the One Particle. This is why it takes so few of us to change the world! Here is an example of how the Nexus works.

When I focused on the Nexus mentioned in the italic sentence above, I saw the four elements listed come into the One particle. One came down from the top, one up from the bottom and one in from both right and left. Inside the particle, I once again saw a group of standing figures (not anywhere near as many as when I was experiencing the Everything); they each represented a timeline expression of Esther. Vibrations strongly emanated from all four elements and vibrated through all the expressions of me, scooting them all to a center spot where they all collapsed into each other until there was only one. That final figure also collapsed and disappeared into the Nothing. A blink of my eyes later and a new figure had appeared. This one was golden, which for me represents vibrating at the highest personal level possible at that moment. Then the one figure multiplied itself back out into a group of figures again, each retaining the gold symbolic color.

I asked what the four elements of my new and improved Nexus meant and was told the following. Community is the basis for human interaction. It is the strongest instigator of growth through interaction. Availability is the opening of all that you desire and flooding it to you. Progress is the development of the New in all that you do and say. And Advancement is the bringing of new ideas and innovations into the playground so that all the other factors continually have new ground to cover.

The Nexus operates for everyone in a different way. What did you agree to work on in this lifetime? What have you shifted and shifted? The nexus can remain the same your entire life or it can be constantly shifting. What is important to note, is that the nexus is a creational point for the individual, the creation of magnetic flow for your life expression. The ability to control your immediate environment is simple in the extreme. What you are doing with the Nexus is encountering a personal field that is infinitely adjustable. Your nexus work affects the magnetics of your immediate life expressions first; but remember that anything that you do for yourself is reflected outward onto the All.


Quantum Creation, part 4

Quantum Creation, part 4

My journey into understanding Quantum Creating continued. You can read part 1, part 2 and part 3 here. For now I was curious as to what makes the New so powerful in the Quantum state. I could see that standing in my own ideas of what was possible was incredibly limiting. After all there is so much beyond my imagination and understanding. Believing in the Everything and the Nothing simultaneously, and loving them both, opens the paradox engine that is Creation. The New in the Quantum state had demonstrated how much more powerful it was then what I could ever choose on my own. But what is the New and what is its power? I asked the Quantum New straight out. What are you?

New: “I am the beginning of All That Is, as a reflection of sophisticated complex molecular understanding of the quantum atomic field. I am bursting forth in the minds of the many. All will know my name and wonder.”

It sounded like physical creation to me. The more I stared at the above statement the more I saw that every living thing was a personification of the Quantum. My body is a paradox, atomic structures with more space than solid creating a solid physical state. All life is Quantum. All life is an engine, it’s very own fuel source. I saw that to be able to understand the body fully, or any physical life for that matter, would bring about a greater understanding of how to harness pure energy.

All: “Do not think that the basic understanding of who you are will not affect EVERYTHING! This knowledge will be the leading cause of evolution for humanity. I love humanity. They are calling out for a New Path. The old is done, well-worn and partly corrupted. The New will bring hope to the hopeless and wealth to the poor. Humanity has walked into a broader range of choices last year. This year you are seeing the choices they chose play out. Out with the old, in with the new, can take many forms. It is a discerning soul that enables preferred choices to come forward. Lean into the New. Let it show you what is available. Then choose. There are always more options than what are in front of you.”

So I asked the New to tell me about its Power.

New: “I am creation. I am the ability to wipe away the old in a heartbeat. I am the everlasting reveal. I am You, should you choose it. I am particle. I am mass. I am physics.”

Esther: “Are you the Everything?”

N: “No. I am creation happening. The Everything is all that IS. I am the cutting edge, the new birth, the sunrise, the dawn of a new age. I am creation and you are the creator. When you enter the paradox, when you collapse time and space, that is when I am available. It is within that space/no space that I thrive. It gives me literally UNLIMITED power. I am the unexpected, the lover and the power behind all long-lasting creations.”

E: “What are you capable of Now, that humanity and the Earth have not experienced before?”

N: “It is not what I am capable of, but what YOU are now capable of. Do you not see the power that lies before you? The Partnership of Dreams is yours to command.”

E: “Is the New only brought into the physical by a conscious creator?”

N: “To enter your realm, your life, your experience, You must call me forth. And yet just as with personal choice quantum creation, you can refine and choose a more specific frequency then what you can perceive. There can be New chosen out of fear and New chosen out of Love. One will bring you possibilities but they will be limiting. The other brings expansion and divergence from current grounded realities. I am in service to the Whole. In the Quantum you saw the explosion of light that represented the impact of All that I Am. You too are the All and the I Am. There is nothing that you cannot achieve with the I Am for it encompasses the All.”

Quantum Creation, part 3

Quantum Creation, part 3

As my journey of understanding the Quantum continued to bloom; (part 1 and part 2) I could not wrap my mind around how I was supposed to create in an energetic space where I loved everything in it. I realized that removing my own personal desires brought into existence all created fields at once. But then what to do! Let me give you an example that I was walked through regarding my desire to teach one of my children to swim. This shows you the complexity and simplicity of quantum thinking. (Paradox again!)

All: “Let us begin with the belief that he should know how to swim. Love this belief and also recognize that this is not true. And love that belief too. You want him to enjoy water. Love that belief. He is afraid. Love that belief. He will never learn to swim. Love that belief. He will be an Olympic style swimmer. Love that belief. Now we take them all and realize that they are all the same energy, expressed differently. All are the One. The One is not held accountable to any of those outcomes because the One loves them all too. So then, as you just did, you consider the consequences of DIVERTING the All into a certain frequency, a frequency that has many expressions. From there it is a short walk to Becoming the diverted energy. By simply allowing it into being.”

There is no separating the personal creations from EVERYTHING else in the Quantum. Nothing is on a small-scale. Continuing with the example above. In order to divert the All into a frequency that would affect my son, this is how I would do it if I chose. I would create clean water for everyone and everything. I would create the love of water by all. I would bring joy to water everywhere so that everyone could experience it. This would not create a specific outcome for my kid, but it would alter EVERY available expression that he is living. It would clearly alter it for everything and everyone else. Think Big? It’s HUGE! One particle change (becoming the diverted energy) is like a snowball rolling down hill…only the hill is the Universe. It is rather mind blowing!

But I was still so unsure of what to do about the Neutrality of the All. Here is my journal entry where I got clarity on that.

Esther: “If the All is neutral, then where is the line between being neutral myself and creating what I want? I have become more and more neutral along my journey. Which really is neutral in judgment, so I love all. But obviously I do not choose or desire certain things. Should I be such a blatant creator, biased in my own desires of what I think is good for all?”

All: “You do not become a creator without making choices. What I think you are struggling with is the shouldering of the idea that your ability to create shifts the neutrality. As you point out, neutrality is loving everything. And you don’t want everything. And yet you have discovered that you cannot open up to grand outcomes if you do not accept grand failures as a distinct possibility. You do not desire the failure, but to not include it in the quantum soup would not be correct. Every time line, every moment, has an infinitely vast way of expressing. So to be the grand creator, you must be aware of them all and know that they all exist and know that none of them exist. Breathe into it. Explore the vastness. See it all before you. There is a neutrality to it all from me, but not from you. You are allowed, not only allowed but also encouraged to choose. To not choose out of fear but out of love. This is humanities biggest challenge, how to love everything for its very existence while choosing a benevolent path for it all. The person who chooses out of love reflects their choice onto all the possibilities available. The person, who chooses out of fear, narrows the creational field so significantly that all grand work in nearly lost. It is my job to be neutral, always. It is your job to embrace the love of all and use it to CHOOSE BIG.”

When the All spoke about reflecting the choice made in love, I got this very cool image. I was standing on a ridge looking down at the land below. Spread out before me, as far as the eye could see, were people standing shoulder to shoulder. Behind them the sun was rising. The people are symbolic of different expressions of life. We occupy the space of the entire universe when we are Quantum. When a choice is made out of love, a section of those figures lit up as if they were made of a mirrored finish. This bounced the light of the sun (Source, God, the All) onto every other figure there. The reflected light lit every figure; the closest one’s receiving a bright light, but even the farthest reaches were transformed into a different lighter shade. It was as if the light kept bouncing, each body reflecting it on and on. Later I discovered that instead of me choosing from what I know of, say if I asked for the greatest new possibility to come forward, the visual was different. Then the Sun left its spot on the horizon and emerged in the center of all the symbolic figures. It was so bright that it was a virtual white out in the center of the field. But most significantly all the figures became a shiny-mirrored surface. Everyone was glowing and reflecting! It was beautiful!

I wondered about choosing new unknown options. There is something slightly intimidating about that. As if I could create challenges that were strenuous for our evolving world. As if the populations of Earth aren’t facing current challenges that are strenuous enough! I was told that there are many reasons to seek the new. Problems can be solved with new ideas and understandings, hearts can be changed with new loves and new friendships, new beginnings and new endings bring surprising changes. There is always a need for the new on Earth currently. We can bring it in, change the particle to reflect it but not change the free will of those alive and living. This can never be controlled. How each life expression chooses to live out the new energy is always up to them. Just because it is new and unknown doesn’t mean that it can’t ease strains, smooth obstacles, and overcome huge quandaries. And while doing so create, by the free will of all involved, amazing and divergent outcomes that all reflect the love of the Quantum choice.

Quantum Creation, part 2

Quantum Creation, part 2

So my first big question after experiencing the Quantum energy was, “How the hell do I do anything from that space?!” Hahaha! I just had the experience of creating Everything! It was all there in front of me, every timeline, every existence, every expression of life and every choice that life ever made and the understanding that none of it ever existed or ever will. That crazy paradox again! I not only firmly believed in both the Everything and the Nothing but also loved both. The first thing I wanted to know was, is personal creation even possible in the Quantum, or is it all Universal.

Through journaling with The All, I came to understand that from the Quantum we affect change on the personal level by creating change on the planetary level. And of course, planetary change affects Universal change. There is nothing that I can do that does not affect the All. So I was asked, “Why should you?” It was not about what I desire, it is about what I wish to achieve in the long-term. “Where will it lead me/us? What will I/we accomplish along the way? What is the reason for change?” I had also noticed from accessing the Quantum that the love that I had for Everything and for Nothing had spilled over into my everyday life. Suddenly it was so easy to love Donald Trump! What?!!!! OMG! Nothing was tripping my trigger. Instead it was total compassion that surfaced when I paid attention to the news. So why should I change anything? I loved it all! I still do!

For me, the ALL (Source, God, whatever you want to call it) is completely neutral. Exploring the Quantum space made that even more clear to me. It is neutral in that there is no preference. All is loved for the expression that it is. So why should I meddle with any of that? It totally felt weird and I could have stopped right there, with the knowledge that the Quantum space existed. But I knew that I had been shown it for a reason. So WHY??? I kept being told to “THINK BIG!” So I kept exploring. Because The All meant Really Big!

I also had realized, with the help of my class I was taking, that the paradox was an engine. The collapse of Understanding, opens up an infinite amount of energy that can fuel anything. It was during this searching that I was gifted quite beautifully a video of Bashar speaking about how there is one subatomic particle. It moves infinitely fast, creating everything from geometric shapes. It moves so fast that where it crosses it’s own path, there appears (to scientific instruments) as if another particle is there. Everything is made up of this one particle. My mind bloomed. I saw the absolute paradox of this. And in that moment my image of the Nothing and the Everything completely changed. It became the Nothing surrounded by the hard physical shell of the Everything, the one particle. A totally paradoxical setup. A single point of Creation. The true God Particle. The All encapsulated in something so small that it is nearly impossible to fathom. A paradox engine. An engine that makes up ME! An engine that is shared by every other thing! It totally gave a new meaning to WE ARE ALL ONE. No longer was there a gazillion particles connecting us all like one giant mycelium mat, but we are literally The One. It was so cool that it blew my mind for days! I realized that is how we affect change in our world and the universe. Simply by changing the particle that makes up this fantastic creation of a human that is me, I gift that out to everything else! It really is SO AWESOME!

Quantum Creation, part 1

Quantum Creation, part 1

I have been exploring Quantum Creation for a few months. I took a class with Soleira Green (you can find her on FaceBook), and with her leadership and the rest of the explorers in the class, I had soooo much open up for me in regards to how creation happens. It has literally given me a quantum leap (hahaha) in how I view creation, myself as a creator and the act of creation itself. I will try to explain to you all, as best I can, what I now know. This will be part one of a series.

First lets start with the question, “What is Quantum?” I could look up definitions for you out of both the dictionary and the spiritual lexicon…but I don’t think that is needed. I will tell you what I know so far. The Quantum for me is the holding place of all creation. It is every expression of life in every version ever. And it is nothing, blank, never has been and never will be. It is a Paradox. It is two complete opposites that seemingly cannot exist in the same space, existing in the same space. This creates a collapse of Understanding, which then opens you up to accessing the Quantum energy.

The Next question would be, “Why would you want to?” We have been working with our own personal creation energy for ages (far beyond just this lifetime). We have mastered it. Although it certainly doesn’t feel like it some days! But yes, we have graduated. And now we move on to learning to create on a much bigger scale. Let me type out the conversation from my journal about my first access to the Quantum.


Esther: “So explain how the belief in Nothing and the belief in Everything, together, is Quantum Consciousness?”

The All: “The need to control is eliminated from the picture. This opens up the flow of energy. This is not to say that you do not have emotional preference for anything, it is that you refrain from using that emotion to pidgin hole yourself. Love it all. Love some more intensely. Do NOT reject other options out of the love for the one.

Say you are looking at a series of doors and you love how one is painted so beautifully, that you do not even consider the other doors. You know they are there but they don’t interest you. You just narrowed the energy. When you love all the doors and appreciate the painted one for its glory, this gives you more of a view. Then as you look at all the doors, you see that the wall is beautiful too and you love it. This pulls your view farther out. Then you can see that there is something beyond the wall and that you can just go see what that is, without doors or walls or beginnings or ends.”

E: “So how do I create with this quantum-ness? I would think it would be wholly different than before?”

A: “Yes, the aspect of creating something specific is no longer even needed. Instead it is the creation of the whole.”

E: “Can you give me an example?”

A: “Let’s take world peace, frequently thrown out and definitely wanted. It is such a simple concept and yet seemingly complex in its achievement. So now, you would ignore all of that. To create world peace is not your goal. To love the concept and the people wishing it is extraordinary. But to create it requires the inclusion of NOT having it. You must love that it is not here, and love the thought that it could be and love the thought that IT IS. There are infinite possibilities. Now love that you cannot control ANY OF THEM. Drop all expectations. Drop all needs. Drop all desires, hopes, dreams, nightmares, fears, loves and hates. Now you are in the No-thing. You must believe in the Nothing as strongly as you believe in all the rest. You must love the Nothing.

Now combine them. It seems odd. The Nothing and the Everything occupying the same space. It is almost impossible to wrap your mind around.”


The image came to me of a black hole with swirling matter around the outside and a complete void in the middle. I settled myself into the energy. I loved my way through war and strife, peace and plenty. I saw battles rage and treaties signed and I loved them all. I also saw that the battlefields and peace accords never existed and never will and I loved them too. I saw the truth of the Nothing and the truth of the Everything and in that moment I could actually feel that I had created everything that had ever been and will ever be and that there was nothing to create.


It was a really cool experience, as you might imagine. And it led to many questions, which will lead us to part two.



New Personal Energy Field News! Gaia Field Merger!

New Personal Energy Field News!  Gaia Field Merger!

Hello All!

I have experienced a change in the personal energy field that I feel is worth reporting.  For the last three days, the field has appeared much larger, and rather dark (like being underground) and also super empty.  It wasn’t until today, after I worked out for the first time in a while (sprained ankle and sick), that I was told what was now going on.  Our personal energy fields are now supplementing Gaia’s energy dome (her exact words).  What does that mean however?  Our personal field is now blended with Gaia.  And yes, I know that we as life upon this Earth, cannot be separate from that which enables us to have a physical life in the first place.  So why am I seeing this change?  It is time now to work the energy that is not only us but also life as a whole on our world…and work it from the perspective of a full and integrated partner.  One does not affect the other, but IS the other.  We have been working toward this point for some time and now it is presenting as a fully merged reality.  A visual given to me as an example is to imagine Gaia’s energy dome as a honey bee comb.  Each individual cell of that structure is one of us.  Before Gaia’s energy dome had our energy but as an integrated lower level.  Now we are an integral part of the surface or primary layer of energy (the primary interface, is what I am hearing).

The Heart field has also changed.  Remember the cannoli shaped energy I was seeing before? See here.  It now consists of five 3D sine waves (my cannoli’s) that are three sections deep.  These five waves spread out like spokes from my sides and front of my body.   Five is the energy of change and three is the number of the trinity.  There is nothing on the back side of me yet, no matter how I try to view myself.  It feels deliberately blank.  To be revealed!

There was a river flowing through the energy field this morning and after learning what the new field represented, I walked into it.  As I emerged from the waters, I was covered in newly formed crystals.  The water pulled at me and so I let myself flow along.  I was swept out of a large cavern and across the earth, through many landscapes, each one radiating with the love and joy of Gaia.  Desserts of rock, dunes of blowing sand, muddy jungles, icy tundras and everything in between.  Where there was no river, I walked and each foot step left an imprint full of water.  I travelled until I picked one spot that I decided to make my Now vision of the field.  The dome that surrounds us is now hundreds of feet across and is half under the earth.  We are the nucleus at the center, the engine of the whole field is definitely still the heart, which has expanded it reach so beautifully.


So I ask you to play a game with your field today.  Walk, float or fly across Gaia.  See all of her beauty in all of her expressions.  The swamp, the grassy plain, the sun-baked clay, the stormy sea and the frozen vistas, these all need to be seen with the eyes of love.  Think National Geographic photography special! Think of what is beautiful about it all.  Feel the beauty of it all.  Find your oneness with her, with your body on a much grander scale.  Enjoy the new field my friends.  Know that we will be changing just as fast as the Earth is.  For she is never static and alway evolving, just like us.

Convergence Points (and how to use them)

Convergence Points (and how to use them)

Today we move into another feature of our personal energy fields.  As you know, if you have read the previous posts on the personal energy field, I have been seeing universal energies present themselves daily in my field.  This post will be about personal energies and personal creation. Now as you are most likely aware, we all have access to infinite possibilities to create our own experiences.  This concept is being presented to me visually as a 360 degree never-ending array of silver points.  They are slightly rectangular to me which is a representation of the square sine wave.  This is only important to my interpretation because (see here) the square sine wave is an infinite number of sine waves, otherwise known to me as The ALL. So why a rectangle instead of a square?  Square sine waves are symmetrical in their duration of their cycle.  Rectangular wave forms are similar but are not symmetrical, the pause and the pulse are different from each other.  Here is what I got about the difference.

“The rectangle is a vision of the complexity within the interaction.  If the ALL is a square and you make contact with a very specific wave within that square, than there is a change in the oscillation of that moment.  The pause or the pulse is affected.”

The points uniformly have all been silver, except one.  Silver, for me, is the color of fusion of soul and physical incarnate, the two working as one.  Other people have seen these points differently, each bringing the representation to their person in a way that is appropriate and understandable (perhaps with a little research in some cases…usually in my case at the very least) for each individual.  The points want me to call them Convergence Points.  Just to stress, they do not really exist in the physical.  They are simply a representation of energy transfer, connection and development.

And that is what I have been learning about.  How to connect and develop these energies that are available to me, to us all.  By themselves they are benign happy little energy points waiting for someone somewhere to access them.  We are always surrounded by the ability to create anything.  The convergence points do not EVER end.  No matter where I look in the universe, there they are.  These points bring into focus an allegory of the possibilities available to you.   I hope it brings AWE to your heart.  It certainly does to mine.

Now, oddly enough, the energy of the Soil of the Earth, yes good old dirt, came forward to teach me about these points.  I was confused for only a second until I realized that the Soil is where all life springs.  If you want to know about how to take something from energetic to physical, the Soil would be an excellent teacher.  The following is all straight from The Soil.

“The understanding of these convergence points is a basic building block of not only the New Earth but also the ability to operate your field efficiently and purposefully.  To start, there are many factors that are conjoined to release life in the physical.  The first concept to understand is that ALL life is dependant on LOVE.  Whatever form it takes, it would not BE here if it did not love.  Second the allegation that life is circular (think life cycles) is not exactly true.  Yes, one life is used by another for continuation but really the web of life is based on the ability to understand each piece of a puzzle.  Yes the individual cycles look circular but in reality it is a wave action. (Here I saw a spiral or sine wave in 3D.)


A circle does not show the reality of the effect of time on the cycle at hand.  There is no closed loop.  There is no repeat, there is conversion and conversion.  The human has their own role to play in this and perhaps their biggest fallacy is not recognizing the need for conversion.  And yet they are continually doing so.  What you need to remember is that the fallacy of circular growth is not made to dumb down the learner but to simplify understandings.  But we are moving beyond the simple and into the vague.”

Esther:  “Ha!! That doesn’t help!”

Soil:  “Yes, it does.  Listen, when you change the oil in your car, you don’t know exactly what it does or where it goes.  You do know that driving without it is very stressful for the engine and could literally destroy the working mechanics.  So you know vaguely about the relationship between oil and the engine.  Same with love and wave action, you are moving into some very basic understandings that will expand.  This is why we give you the list below.  These are all basic understandings that will all be expanded on through the evolution of thought and understandings.  They are all vital to understanding creation.

  1.  Know in your heart that ALL is available to you Now.
  2.  There is only Now.  (There is no energy that exists in the past or the future.)
  3. Creation requires Love.
  4. Bending time is always happening.
  5. Life begins with the thought.
  6. Emotion is not only your friend and ally but also your ENGINE of growth.
  7. The knowledge to create is not based on facts and figures but on the understanding of wave forms and their habits.
  8. Do NOT go into fear.  When you create from the heart, the only options available are loved based. (You don’t need to protect yourself.  You don’t need to protect others.  These are fear based assumptions that you are going to create pain.)

Now we will walk you through working with a convergence point.  This is meant to demonstrate that your creative abilities are both physical, mental and emotional.  You must engage the body, mind and spirit to be in full creator capacity.

First, find your center, your base of operations.  This is where you will begin.  Feel the strength of your being.  Understand that your self, your true self dwells within.

Next, engage the engine.  The engine is your emotion.  Feel it rise up.  Feel it expand, filling you.

Now, find the thread that is connected to that which you wish to conceive, that desire that you wish to make physical.  This thread will readily present itself to you when you call out for it.

Begin to unravel the thread until it is loose and free.  Use whatever means you wish to accomplish this.  It can be as simple or as complex a process as you wish.

Concentrate on your field of convergence points, however they may present themselves to you.  Ask for the one that represents your physical reality to show itself to you.  Place the loose thread on the convergence point.

Understand that the thread has multiple expressions.  There is never one way, one path, but always many.

Now bring the convergence point into the very engine that creates.  Bring it into the emotion center, the heart center, the creator center.  This will create its own wave of emotion.  The convergence point its merging with WHO YOU ARE.  Whatever you have just brought into your body must now connect and merge.  This can take from a few hours to a few weeks.  It is now part of who you are, as a Being, as a soul, as a physical incarnate.  You will feel the energy moving throughout your body.  You will feel the amplification of the wave of who you are.  There is no separating you now.  How can you create something that is not YOU?  It must be You or how can it be seen, experienced and manoeuvred through.  You become the creation.  It is never outside of you.  This is quite a shift in understanding for some.  Let the WOW fill you!  Let the understanding create a new perception of Yourself.  This is how to become the Master Creator.  This is how to be one with all of life.  This is how you break away from small thinking and realize that the options available to you are unlimited and yours for the creating.”