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New Personal Energy Field News! Gaia Field Merger!

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New Personal Energy Field News!  Gaia Field Merger!

Hello All!

I have experienced a change in the personal energy field that I feel is worth reporting.  For the last three days, the field has appeared much larger, and rather dark (like being underground) and also super empty.  It wasn’t until today, after I worked out for the first time in a while (sprained ankle and sick), that I was told what was now going on.  Our personal energy fields are now supplementing Gaia’s energy dome (her exact words).  What does that mean however?  Our personal field is now blended with Gaia.  And yes, I know that we as life upon this Earth, cannot be separate from that which enables us to have a physical life in the first place.  So why am I seeing this change?  It is time now to work the energy that is not only us but also life as a whole on our world…and work it from the perspective of a full and integrated partner.  One does not affect the other, but IS the other.  We have been working toward this point for some time and now it is presenting as a fully merged reality.  A visual given to me as an example is to imagine Gaia’s energy dome as a honey bee comb.  Each individual cell of that structure is one of us.  Before Gaia’s energy dome had our energy but as an integrated lower level.  Now we are an integral part of the surface or primary layer of energy (the primary interface, is what I am hearing).

The Heart field has also changed.  Remember the cannoli shaped energy I was seeing before? See here.  It now consists of five 3D sine waves (my cannoli’s) that are three sections deep.  These five waves spread out like spokes from my sides and front of my body.   Five is the energy of change and three is the number of the trinity.  There is nothing on the back side of me yet, no matter how I try to view myself.  It feels deliberately blank.  To be revealed!

There was a river flowing through the energy field this morning and after learning what the new field represented, I walked into it.  As I emerged from the waters, I was covered in newly formed crystals.  The water pulled at me and so I let myself flow along.  I was swept out of a large cavern and across the earth, through many landscapes, each one radiating with the love and joy of Gaia.  Desserts of rock, dunes of blowing sand, muddy jungles, icy tundras and everything in between.  Where there was no river, I walked and each foot step left an imprint full of water.  I travelled until I picked one spot that I decided to make my Now vision of the field.  The dome that surrounds us is now hundreds of feet across and is half under the earth.  We are the nucleus at the center, the engine of the whole field is definitely still the heart, which has expanded it reach so beautifully.

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So I ask you to play a game with your field today.  Walk, float or fly across Gaia.  See all of her beauty in all of her expressions.  The swamp, the grassy plain, the sun-baked clay, the stormy sea and the frozen vistas, these all need to be seen with the eyes of love.  Think National Geographic photography special! Think of what is beautiful about it all.  Feel the beauty of it all.  Find your oneness with her, with your body on a much grander scale.  Enjoy the new field my friends.  Know that we will be changing just as fast as the Earth is.  For she is never static and alway evolving, just like us.

Convergence Points (and how to use them)

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Convergence Points (and how to use them)

Today we move into another feature of our personal energy fields.  As you know, if you have read the previous posts on the personal energy field, I have been seeing universal energies present themselves daily in my field.  This post will be about personal energies and personal creation. Now as you are most likely aware, we all have access to infinite possibilities to create our own experiences.  This concept is being presented to me visually as a 360 degree never-ending array of silver points.  They are slightly rectangular to me which is a representation of the square sine wave.  This is only important to my interpretation because (see here) the square sine wave is an infinite number of sine waves, otherwise known to me as The ALL. So why a rectangle instead of a square?  Square sine waves are symmetrical in their duration of their cycle.  Rectangular wave forms are similar but are not symmetrical, the pause and the pulse are different from each other.  Here is what I got about the difference.

“The rectangle is a vision of the complexity within the interaction.  If the ALL is a square and you make contact with a very specific wave within that square, than there is a change in the oscillation of that moment.  The pause or the pulse is affected.”

The points uniformly have all been silver, except one.  Silver, for me, is the color of fusion of soul and physical incarnate, the two working as one.  Other people have seen these points differently, each bringing the representation to their person in a way that is appropriate and understandable (perhaps with a little research in some cases…usually in my case at the very least) for each individual.  The points want me to call them Convergence Points.  Just to stress, they do not really exist in the physical.  They are simply a representation of energy transfer, connection and development.

And that is what I have been learning about.  How to connect and develop these energies that are available to me, to us all.  By themselves they are benign happy little energy points waiting for someone somewhere to access them.  We are always surrounded by the ability to create anything.  The convergence points do not EVER end.  No matter where I look in the universe, there they are.  These points bring into focus an allegory of the possibilities available to you.   I hope it brings AWE to your heart.  It certainly does to mine.

Now, oddly enough, the energy of the Soil of the Earth, yes good old dirt, came forward to teach me about these points.  I was confused for only a second until I realized that the Soil is where all life springs.  If you want to know about how to take something from energetic to physical, the Soil would be an excellent teacher.  The following is all straight from The Soil.

“The understanding of these convergence points is a basic building block of not only the New Earth but also the ability to operate your field efficiently and purposefully.  To start, there are many factors that are conjoined to release life in the physical.  The first concept to understand is that ALL life is dependant on LOVE.  Whatever form it takes, it would not BE here if it did not love.  Second the allegation that life is circular (think life cycles) is not exactly true.  Yes, one life is used by another for continuation but really the web of life is based on the ability to understand each piece of a puzzle.  Yes the individual cycles look circular but in reality it is a wave action. (Here I saw a spiral or sine wave in 3D.)

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A circle does not show the reality of the effect of time on the cycle at hand.  There is no closed loop.  There is no repeat, there is conversion and conversion.  The human has their own role to play in this and perhaps their biggest fallacy is not recognizing the need for conversion.  And yet they are continually doing so.  What you need to remember is that the fallacy of circular growth is not made to dumb down the learner but to simplify understandings.  But we are moving beyond the simple and into the vague.”

Esther:  “Ha!! That doesn’t help!”

Soil:  “Yes, it does.  Listen, when you change the oil in your car, you don’t know exactly what it does or where it goes.  You do know that driving without it is very stressful for the engine and could literally destroy the working mechanics.  So you know vaguely about the relationship between oil and the engine.  Same with love and wave action, you are moving into some very basic understandings that will expand.  This is why we give you the list below.  These are all basic understandings that will all be expanded on through the evolution of thought and understandings.  They are all vital to understanding creation.

  1.  Know in your heart that ALL is available to you Now.
  2.  There is only Now.  (There is no energy that exists in the past or the future.)
  3. Creation requires Love.
  4. Bending time is always happening.
  5. Life begins with the thought.
  6. Emotion is not only your friend and ally but also your ENGINE of growth.
  7. The knowledge to create is not based on facts and figures but on the understanding of wave forms and their habits.
  8. Do NOT go into fear.  When you create from the heart, the only options available are loved based. (You don’t need to protect yourself.  You don’t need to protect others.  These are fear based assumptions that you are going to create pain.)

Now we will walk you through working with a convergence point.  This is meant to demonstrate that your creative abilities are both physical, mental and emotional.  You must engage the body, mind and spirit to be in full creator capacity.

First, find your center, your base of operations.  This is where you will begin.  Feel the strength of your being.  Understand that your self, your true self dwells within.

Next, engage the engine.  The engine is your emotion.  Feel it rise up.  Feel it expand, filling you.

Now, find the thread that is connected to that which you wish to conceive, that desire that you wish to make physical.  This thread will readily present itself to you when you call out for it.

Begin to unravel the thread until it is loose and free.  Use whatever means you wish to accomplish this.  It can be as simple or as complex a process as you wish.

Concentrate on your field of convergence points, however they may present themselves to you.  Ask for the one that represents your physical reality to show itself to you.  Place the loose thread on the convergence point.

Understand that the thread has multiple expressions.  There is never one way, one path, but always many.

Now bring the convergence point into the very engine that creates.  Bring it into the emotion center, the heart center, the creator center.  This will create its own wave of emotion.  The convergence point its merging with WHO YOU ARE.  Whatever you have just brought into your body must now connect and merge.  This can take from a few hours to a few weeks.  It is now part of who you are, as a Being, as a soul, as a physical incarnate.  You will feel the energy moving throughout your body.  You will feel the amplification of the wave of who you are.  There is no separating you now.  How can you create something that is not YOU?  It must be You or how can it be seen, experienced and manoeuvred through.  You become the creation.  It is never outside of you.  This is quite a shift in understanding for some.  Let the WOW fill you!  Let the understanding create a new perception of Yourself.  This is how to become the Master Creator.  This is how to be one with all of life.  This is how you break away from small thinking and realize that the options available to you are unlimited and yours for the creating.”

Big Energy Summoned and Received!

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Big Energy Summoned and Received!

Yesterday I had the most amazing experience on the field since I started playing with it.  As I went to bed the night before I saw a single snowflake, the size of my torso, dangling in front of me by a silver cord.  It was dangling in front of Us.  Well, we accepted it.  Boy oh boy, did we accept it.  When I woke up, I saw a ladder of snowflakes pouring through the opening at the top of my field.  The snowflakes were all the same giant size as the one the evening before.  On both outside edges of the snowflakes ran two silver cords, connecting them all together. (Silver is the color of fusion of soul and physical incarnate, the two working as one.  White is the color of pure intent, intent with no agenda or expectations.) I call it a ladder because when I first looked at the field, I saw myself trying to climb it.  But the ladder kept descending so fast that I couldn’t pull myself up.  I then saw myself step back and just watch as the snowflakes poured past.  But the point had been made.  What does a ladder do?  It takes you higher!  Big vibrational increase!!

I had woken up with a headache and after a late breakfast, I crawled back under the covers.  I fell asleep watching the snowflakes stream down.  I remember being cold as I slept (for 3 hours!!!!!) and dizzy as I dreamt.  I awoke around 1:30 in the afternoon sweating and kicking the covers off.  I remembered having witnessed, as I dreamt, that the snowflakes had piled up to my waist.  By the time I had woken, they were over my head.  I saw then too that one of the flakes had wrapped itself around my lower leg and ankle and where it had been was glowing orange like a neon henna tattoo.  For me, orange is the color of Being full; content with one’s self, a color of radiant confidence.  As I moved about for an hour or so, I saw that I had five of them adhered and glowing up my left side, from my ankle to my shoulder.  Five is the number of change!   An hour or so later, the round ball of the field became completely full and I saw a little white plug placed in the top, where the ladder had been descending from.  Then the Hand of God picked up my field and shook it like a salad dressing bottle.  All the snowflakes disappeared as my entire body glowed orange.  In the evening I took a peek and saw that my body had slowly faded to iron-grey, like metal slowly cooling from the forge. Grey for me symbolizes the mixing of endless possibilities with pure intent.

So what happened yesterday?  I could tell that there had been a big shift.  I had seen myself, and everyone else, as a giant snowball in the days following the five-day weather experience. (See here for details.)  At that time I was told that each snowflake that made up the snowball was an understanding that we each hold that when combined makes up our life experience.  Water, when it is frozen, is individualistic.  So I was seeing the formation of my/our new snowball, aka life experience.  I, of course, wanted some more information.  Here is what I got in meditation.

“The energy transfer yesterday was the accumulation of the highest potential of every single resolution that each of you have made throughout your journey.  There was no holding back.  We could say that your prayers have been answered, but that would not be correct.  For that phrasing leaves out the most important Creator, You.  You have summoned and received the next big evolutionary leap of humankind.  There is no going back.  You have the tools to go forward as the old energy crumbles all around you.

You are the Shepard.

You are the rod and the staff.

There is no evil only those who struggle for life.

When you step out of that struggle and enter into Grace, there is no hurt that can truly wound, no anger that is not constructive, and no fear that is ever valid.”

Flash of Insight

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I was typing a response to my friend Terri (who has an incredible way of seeing the field, BTW) on Facebook the other day and out pops the description that my field, or my way of seeing the personal energy field, looks like a holodeck.  For those not as nerdy as me, that is the room on the Star Trek Enterprise D (Yes, I know the number designation!) that is programmable to create any world, learning experience, novel or adventure that you want. My formative years were spent watching Star Trek The Next Generation and so with that slip of the fingers while typing, I see now that my field is really based off of the holodeck,unknown

As opposed to any adult study that I have done…

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Boy does this make me laugh! (And YES, I would far rather it be subconsciously based on my beloved Star Trek than another awesome source.)  But on to more interesting things…

Today I will tell you all about what I have been seeing in the field.  Generally I get between 1-3 images per day.  Some of them are moving, others are stationary.  I see colors, shapes (geometric and otherwise), objects, cut stones, symbols and the like.  Last week, for five days straight, I got weather related experiences.  So far I have not seen people or beings or words.  Some things are strictly energetic in appearance, as in very hologram-esque, others almost exaggeratingly solid 3D.

So what are these things?  Well I’m still working on that but here is what I know so far.  First, they are a slide show of current energies that are available to ALL.  Kinda like our daily menu of sorts.  Second, I can and do magnetize specific energies to me. This is usually not the prominent energy that I see, more like the second or third image that comes along.  Third, these representational energies sometimes contain a message for us all.  If you will remember from my last post, I described that I see in symbols.  While symbols are awesome in their ability to communicate without language, they are also a pain in the ass because they communicate without language. I will give you an example.  Remember the five days of weather related experiences?  Well, I required help deciphering them.  The answers rather blew me away and where far more in-depth than what I had been understanding.  Here is an excerpt from my journal.  Anything in parenthesis is my clarification.

“The flow of information to you reflects the decisions of mankind.  First you saw the lightning (day 1).  This is the Flash of Insight available all over the world.  Did you not wonder at why it rotated?  Did you not question why it looked like a Lego piece? The building block nature of the Insight was being emphasized and the rotation and the changing speed of it, reflected the activity of the interaction (by humanity).  By the end of the day, the rotation had sped to unprecedented levels.

The Thunder and the mist came the next day.  Representing the thoughts of those who had accepted that Flash of Insight and made it resound.  The mists cloak the landscape as things shift and change.

The next day brought rain, torrents of it and the wind blew only on your head.  Ah, the rain! You are correct in linking it to physicality, however there is another element too.  You can’t have rain without saturation!  That flash of Insight has overflown.  Its getting spread around and not in a gentle way, but in a “HURRY, THE BATHTUB IS OVERFLOWING!!!” way.  A drop what you’re doing and DO SOMETHING way.  The wind blowing on your head is air.  And what does air do?  It uplifts.  That is why by the end of the day you saw that the wind had stopped blowing straight at you and had instead formed a funnel overhead which pulled your hair straight up in a spiral.

And the next morning, what did you find?  You saw that your spiral up-do was frozen solid and a great column of “liquid ice” was moving both up and down through your body.  Think of the ice “cementing” the ideas into place.  Think of the flowing ice as the physicality of humans everywhere, moving into position, their hearts and minds made firm.

The following day you saw snow everywhere.  Your body was covered in two snowman sized balls of snow from the neck down.  You had snowflakes on your nose, cheeks and eyelashes, and it felt piled up on your head.  Do you understand the significance of this?  You were surrounded by the evidence.  People have begun to build.  There is action already, five days after the Flash of Insight and building has occurred.”

So of course I couldn’t hold it in any longer, I had to ask what the Flash of Insight had been about!

“The Insight that was made available was how to enable humans to help themselves.  That is it.  Amazing response.  One person’s idea can help millions.  And MILLIONS responded. MILLIONS accepted.  MILLIONS answered the call.  So just watch.  Just. Watch.”

Change, I think I love you.

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I have been learning about my personal energy field lately and hope to post more about that soon.  Today I would like to tell you about this mischievous being that has popped up during meditation.  It is really not a being but a personification of Change.  Change describes its self in the following manner.  “I am no one of consequence and everything of note.”  Which really, as I stare at that sentence, is incredibly accurate.  Here is a little message from Change.

“The time has come for the old to be wiped away.  But I sit on my thumbs until I AM directed.  One cannot predict the outcome of change.  This you must make peace with and understand that you wield the energy to propel change but not the end result.  I AM not powerless once you get me moving.  That is where my real power lies, in determining the outcomes.”

Change is not flighty or trouble causing for the sake of amusement nor adventure.  No indeed, Change is intelligent, purposeful, and direct.  The mischievous smile that Change gives us is more about justice served than malicious intent.  Change has been waiting a long time, in some cases, and believe me, It has a lot of plans up It’s sleeves.

You are a Master. Use your Mastery.

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You are a Master.  Use your Mastery.

As I cooled down from my workout today, I had a strong sensation of energy streaming in both directions between the palms of my hands.  As I focussed on it I heard, “What one hand knows, the other has access to.”  As I pondered this energy transfer, a blog post to us all suddenly was forming on my journal page.  Anything in parantheses is my personal clarification.

The ALL:  “You are right to assume that the connection between the phrase and the understanding of it has not so much to do with the physical body but to humanity in general.  Now what are you to do with this phrase?  For have you not already understood that the collective of humanity can and does share all thoughts, ideas, emotions, growths, understandings and end game determinations?  What we would like to point out is that the understanding of this and the active use of it are totally different.  Do you not have at your fingertips everything that is accessible to all of humanity?  There are many who would attempt to distance themselves from the collective of humanity.  This is understandable from their point of view.  But why not turn the paradigm on its head?  Why is it not profitable to the individual to revel in their connection to all of humanity and all that they have access to because of that connection?

Who are you?  Are you not the grieving mother and the curious student?  Are you not the hungry child and the understanding scientist?  Are you not the wedding party and the mourning EMT?  Are you not the bomb dropper and the victim?  And what do all these you’s have in common?  Massive Life Experience!!  Each has a piece to a bigger understanding that WILL coalesce into an awakening for humanity that will break all barriers, that will end all wars, that will end systemic corruption and the fear that drives it in the hearts of so many.

But all that experience, all that knowing, of every single human on the planet, lies at your fingerprints NOW. (Yes fingerprints…DNA getting a nod.)  How can you not reach for it at this time?  How can you not mine the Akash?  Do you think it is only about your experiences, that you only have access to what you have done or will do?  And you ARE experienced enough and wise enough to each know what to reach for.  What is it that interests you?  What is it that brings you joy?  What experiences, what understandings, what knowledge of humanity do you wish to claim as your own?  It is all there before you, laid out like a banquet.

Will you not eat?  Do you not understand the gifts that the rest of humanity brings to you?  Will you not celebrate your access and connection?  Will you only shy away from the pain and horror?  Will you not experience the true delights that are available?  You are a Master.  Use your Mastery.”

The Evolution of Perception, Portals 201

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The Evolution of Perception, Portals 201

Hi Everybody!  I have had lots of shifts in perspective of the last few months.  I’m gonna guess that you have had some too!  Here is one that I would like to share with you.  I wrote Portals 101 ages ago…or so it feels.  And now its time for an update.  Ideas and understanding were bonking around in my brain for a few days before I sat down and had this conversation.  Please read Portals 101 for the fundamentals. Oh and Niya is a part of myself that was teaching me in 101, so I brought her back for 201. Enjoy!

Niya:  “Tell me what you understand as of now?”

Esther:  “Alright.  First, I am the portal.  I don’t go anywhere.  The portal is me.  Second, I am constantly using it to create my physical world.”

N:  “Very good.  Yes, the evolution of perception from it existing outside of your person to existing within.  What has adjusted besides perception?”

E:  “Well, the very definition of portal, or perhaps the understanding of the word.”

N:  “Yes, a gateway between two points is very 3D and oversimplified to the extreme.  As you point out, you are constantly using your energy field to create reality.  You are standing in your energy field, which is controlled by you, and creating your experience simultaneously.  Your world, your physical experience is the creator energy manifesting through the portal that you are.  You do not go anywhere.  It comes to you.  Now when you travel in your mind, how is that different from when you travel in the physical?”

E:  “I don’t go anywhere, I bring it to me.”

N:  “Correct.  To travel energetically is to step out of space and time.  It is very difficult to explain this to the mind.  You are no longer in a linear experience.  The same applies to any extra-sensory abilities.  The ability to use these talents places you in a non-linear experience.  You can no longer explain things in a A connects to B which connects to C fashion.  Instead words do not exist yet, to describe being out of time and space, in a sufficient manner.  This is how the energy field around you works, this is how the portal that is you exists.  It is out of time and space.  It exists in the energy of the ALL.  The potential for everything is available there.  And yet it is just there, surrounding the physical you, just beyond your perception and yet within your reach.”

E:  “This is what Abraham (Esther Hicks) calls the vortex, right?”

N:  “Yes.  The personal energy field, your vortex, is a constantly manifesting portal.  This is why you all have been working so hard for years to “clear your field”.  You have reprogrammed yourselves.  You have changed the energetic structure to reflect consciously what is in your heart and mind.  When you begin to truly understand this and to go back to the fundamentals–Love gives direction and focus, the Unknown is the amazing never-ending storehouse of energy to pull from and Light is the physical construct that makes the travel to you possible–then you really see that as the creator of your existence in the physical, the very essence of having a smooth quickly flowing portal, is Love.  Self love, brotherly love, planetary love , universal love, all these–from micro to macro–increase the smooth flowing energy, that is YOU, to move quicker and easier.  Things, ideas, understandings manifest quicker and in more dramatic ways.  Why?  Because you have asked for change.  And when change happens with Love at the helm, the effects are ALWAY stronger and clearer and reverberate farther.  You are not holding You back anymore.

The ability to alter the energy this is You is what you all have been working on.  The ability to understand what you have altered is next.  Think, if you will, of a diamond, hard and rough.  It’s molecular structure is set and yet it’s very shape can be changed and enhanced.  The human is not set.  The molecular structure can be changed, by you.  The energy can be changed, by you.  The thought patterns and behaviors can be changed, by you.  So imagine that diamond again.  It’s brilliance and beauty after it has been cut and polished has nothing on you.  Your magnificence in exploring and using that heart centered portal, that is the core foundation of your physical life and existence, is now at the forefront of humanities call for action.  There has never been a more exciting time in the use and understanding of what the human being is capable of.  To walk in the 3D world with a fully functioning higher dimensional energy field/portal is how you graduate, how you have graduated.  This is why action is required now.  This is why, for most of you, the personal time is over.  Your energy field is needed out and about, pulling to you love based ideas, solutions, understandings and most importantly change.”

Humanity’s Moment

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Humanity’s Moment

Hello Everyone!  It has been a while since I posted and I have zero regrets about that!  Hahaha!  I am in the most wonderful place of peace and balance.  I have let go of “shoulds” and expectations.  Ahhhh back floating through life is soooooo relaxing.  My friend Melissa came up with that analogy yesterday.  Back Floating = relaxing into the support and love from the universe and just BE!   So Yummy!  What does it take to get there?  A hell of a lot of letting go of EVERYTHING!  😀  And a removal of expectation.  (Holy Shit moments ensue!)

Anyways….I got this message in meditation a few minutes ago.  And lo and behold it’s not for me, it’s for US.  Here you go!

Esther:  “Hi ALL!  How’s it hanging?”

ALL:  “There is great joy in humanities use of language.  Can we not see that the origin of many sayings are rooted in the need and desire to laugh?  Such is so even when borrowing from depressing and convoluted imagery.  We say to you that humanity is hanging very well considering the necessary upheaval.  Do not think that all is not well, for of course it is.  Anything that needs to change is “in your face” right now.  There will be no more ignoring.  There will only be course correction.  This will be quick in some cases and long and drawn out in others.  But always humanity will now be pushed to see the light, to feel the love, to understand that they are all one and that the beauty of humanity can be at the forefront of all that you are.  So we are hanging tight right there with you.

Some are in the trenches and must face what is in their face.  And others have cleared the trenches and have begun working for the good of All.  Do not underestimate the power of love.  There is nothing that can stop it.  Soak it up.  Remind others of your love for them.  Know that with each word spoken and each thought formed a thousand more are happening at that exact moment.  You are not alone.  How can you be?  Humanity you are a colossal understanding of what it means to be “in the moment”.  ACT NOW.  BE NOW. LOVE NOW.

I AM LOVE AND SO ARE YOU.”

Expectation and Releasing my Accomplishments

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Expectation and Releasing my Accomplishments

Hi everybody! This meditation continues my understanding of creation. Or more accurately that annoying thing called, waiting for something to happen. It also addresses a meditation that I had done the day prior that was spurred by Brenda Hoffman’s blog post titled Goodbye Fear Friend at lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com. I have to tell you, cutting the thread that she talks about was hard to do. Not in the cutting of but in the realization of what that meant. I needed to release all memory of how I got to where I am now, all the awesomeness and the ah-ha’s and the holy shit moments. That was big and I almost snatched it back reflexively. I had to consciously let it all go.  I encourage you to read her post if you have not yet.

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Esther: “Dear self, can you help me with expectation? It seems to be my biggest emotional trigger at the moment.”

myself: “Yes. The beginning of all energy exchange is based on expectation. This can be incredibly limiting and incredibly expansive. We have spoken of the Time being Now, of using your foresight to pull things into the Now. This leads to expectation. How can it not. You should expect the visible presence of what you have created.  The problem lies in what your mind is able to expect and what is really there. You have a desire for everything to fall into place Now, for the uncertainty to end and the next chapter to begin. When this does not occur, you become sad and disappointed.”

E: “I am pushing again, aren’t I?”

m: “Yes, but only in one aspect of this. The train ride you are on has a scheduled stop. You are looking for that stop in every light pole that you pass.”

E: “Like a kid in a car on a long trip.”

m: (Laughing) “Yes. You have created an anxiety because each light pole is not the station. When we tell you that all is proceeding as planned, that all is created and entering your physical existence, you believe us.”

E: “Yes.”

m: “What you don’t believe is that our time frame and yours are the same. We are not so aligned with other energies that we do not understand. We are you. We KNOW that you and your family are entering you new chapter. We know your timetable. We know your schedule. We know that all will be provided. We understand your concern around this and we hope to allay your anxiety over this. Here is what we see.

You will be living in a new home by May 1st.

You will find your encounter with this shift painless and easy.

You will NEVER miss this opportunity.

You will NEVER find yourself in lack again.

You are as gifted in the creation of your dreams as you are in exploring what you are made of.

You will arrive at the station on time.

You will be there to both meet the train and depart from it.”

E: “Thank you. I have foreseen these things and the Time is Now.

Anything else you would like to add today?”

m: “Yes, lets take a journey to the release of the thread yesterday. Do you understand the release of your memories of growth?”

E: “I think so. To retain them is to create the energy again.”

m: “Yes. To totally step into the new, the old must be released, especially your memories of leaving it. There will come a time when you will not even remember what it was like to just scrape by. It will seem like another lifetime, as if you and that Esther have nothing in common. This is good. It is a new era, a new lifetime while still living. This new energy must separate from the old in every way. Do not think that your growth and accomplishments are not honored. They are but now they too are old. The New needs a clean slate. Thank you for letting go. It is a bittersweet parting. But now you truly stand in your new Being.

These boots are made for walking, and that’s just what they’ll do.

And one of these days, these boots are gonna walk all over you.

You have stood on the shoulders of the old you. Now the boots have stepped off on their own journey. Your past is no longer relevant to the new you.

Are you ready boots? Start walkin!

Water’s of Time

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Water’s of Time

Sometime last year, around the time I was given my current meditation color code, I saw myself in meditation in where only the colors grey, white, black and greyish-blue were used. I had never seen myself and my surrounding like this before and was told that it represented a skill of mine called Water’s of Time. Of course, I was like, what the fuck does that mean? 🙂 I was told it means foresight, which there are apparently different variations of (to be delved into at another time). Well, I promptly forgot about this experience until last week when the memory of it surfaced. I went digging through my journal and saw that I never sat down and wrote about the experience. It was referred to another meditation at that time but never expanded on. Apparently it is now time to dive into the Water’s of Time, pun intended! Little did I know that it would be the next shift in my understanding of how to create.

 

Esther: “Dear self, can we talk about the Water’s of Time/foresight?”

myself: “The ability to have foresight is intrinsic in us all. For one aspect of foresight is calling to you the future you desire. We will begin today’s lesson by acknowledging your ability to create is infused with foresight. This is especially understandable in observing what you are bringing to yourself.  You stand on a quantum leap of manifestation. Do you wish to explore this further before you leap?”

E: “Oh yes! Show me!”

m: (Smile) “To step across that line into full creational abilities and results, brings another level of responsibility, not only to your activities and desires but to the world at large. Think for a moment on your ability to transform your economic situation. This transference of energy into the more, out of the lack has been occurring slowly. This is to show you that the difference between wanting something and creating it are both part of a process. The intrinsic value of yourself is the defining point of convergence between the two, the sweet spot in the greater alchemy of creation.

Now on to understanding the ability to foresee combined with your gift of vision. Both of these are very similar and indeed overlap quite a bit. Here is the difference. The future is as malleable as sand, always changing and shifting. You cannot build anything concrete out of sand unless you add other elements, so too with the future. In order to manifest a vision of the future it needs to be shifted into the Now, the only place where physicality exists. To do this, begin imagining the Now differently.”

E: “Ok… I imagine money in my pocket to spend. I imagine paying my bills. I imagine finding a job, now. I imagine an income stream, now. I’m not sure if I have that right. They don’t have the emotional resonance as before. Hmmm?”

m: (Smile) “There is a “getting used to” the phrasing going on plus a un-sureness on your part to be asking for money directly. This should be embraced with full love of the energy form. Why should you feel ashamed of buying clothes that you need and food for your table? Why should feeling comfortable and without financial worry be a concern to you or anyone else? Is there not enough for all? To think otherwise is to put yourself in considering the judgment of others.”

E: “Yes. I am so blessed as is; I do feel a little guilty asking for more. How can I move past that?”

m: “Repeat after me. The ability to be financially stable and comfortable removes NOTHING from another’s energy stream.

The ability to be MORE is not so others can focus on their less-ness; it is to show the energy can be shifted.

The “star” can move for all but it will not without those willing and brave enough to lead the way.

I release all others’ opinions of myself.

I release all desires to be understood by others.

I am unique.

I am a creator.

I am myself, fully alive and in the present.

I have foreseen that I will be wealthy. That time is Now.

I have foreseen the security of financial growth. That time is Now.

I have foreseen my ability to create money, a home, a new state of financial independence and awareness. That time is Now.

I have foreseen my ability to shift EVERYTHING to create what I need in the moment. That time is Now.

I have foreseen the lack disappear from out lives. That time is Now.

I have foreseen the beginnings of a whole other lifestyle and exploration. That time is Now.

I have begun to wonder when it will happen. The time is Now.

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E:  “There is the emotion that I am looking for! Thank you. So I convert the vision/imagining into foresight?”

m: “Yes!  It is not enough to see what you want.  You must understand that it is a created reality that is available to you at will.  Foresight is seeing into the future.  You are creating what that future looks like.  You create the vision and bring it into the now by understanding that you KNOW you have foreseen the future.  Everything we gave you above you have been foreseeing for some time.  Now you know why.  It is already created.  To understand this on every level is to bring it into the Now.  Do not think that just because you are able to imagine that all will be revealed in an instant.  There is a beloved process to creating that involves the whole of not only humanity but ALL life.  The responsibility to All now lies before you.  Before you leap, consider and include the love of Everything in your desires.  All life is on this journey together and all life spirals through the evolution of the cosmos.  Do understand that the beginning of real true creation is not in a vacuum but will encompass all other life.  We do not say this to discourage you from what you have created but to show you that the Water’s of Time are vast and full of variety and beauty.  The ripple effect of what you create is alive in its beauty and malleability. Do you understand that all life feels each footstep as you walk?  Do you know that Everything looks to each one of you to create your dreams?  The spiral only expands when you do.  Foresee the future for All.  Know that it is Reality.”