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Introducing the Power Trio



Two days ago I was responding to a Facebook message from another participant in Lisa Gawlas’ Super Powers class. She was asking me would I work on putting out the fires on the west coast of the United States. She, of course, mentioned it because of the “demonstration” of my flying abilities during my meditation when my three guides braided themselves and became my very own Princess Warrior. During that meditation I watched myself fly along a fire at the edge of a cornfield and blow it out. I felt into the fires in the West before I responded and got a definite Work In Progress vibe. So I told her, sorry but I am not called there. They (the fires) have work that they are doing. I told her I was sending love to all the beings in the path of the fires. As I typed out the last line on my phone, my consciousness was pulled to the west coast. And when I say pulled, I mean it felt like someone took my brain and started stretching it out of my head like taffy. PULLED. Never happened before like that! I couldn’t help but see myself standing on the surface of the Earth as one would stand on a globe. I was BIG or the Earth was small, if you get the image.

I saw myself reach down into the Pacific Ocean and pick up a handful of water and turn around and drop it on a fire burning at my feet. I tried to say…no no no. I just got the Don’t Go message. But Gaia wasn’t listening. I then saw myself crouch down on another part of the map and blow along these specific contours of the land. I was like, “So you do want me to help?” (Confused frown) She then told me, “No. Let them burn. When they have done their job, I will call you.” Allrighty Then! I told her to page me.

So not half an hour later, I have Brain Pull again! I finish up what I was doing and go sit down. AS SOON as I close my eyes I am flying over the Pacific Ocean. I am over the waves but maybe a couple hundred feet from shore. I remember the dropping water image from before and so ask if that is what I am there for. Instead the crests of the waves begin to break with splashes and I get covered with these tiny drops of water from the spray. Suddenly I know, HUMIDITY. I wrap my hand around a bunch of drops flying through the air. I look toward the shore and see that map/globe scenario again. There is one spot on it that has that fake burning fire logo that you see on weather maps. So I fly over and I see that Gaia has put a green area around the fire with a line clearly dotted around it. OK! So humidity goes there. Got it! How do I do that?

I ask and see that I imagine the tiny drops of water as a blanket of connected drops. Easy enough. Imagination green light GO! I manifest my blanket and stretch it up to the dotted line but not across. I look behind me and see that the blanket is attached to the ocean on the other end, drawing moisture up into it. Beautiful! Gaia tells me that the humidity will not put out the fire but subdue it.

As you can imagine, this was a WOW experience for me. I told Gaia that I never imagined helping her in that way. Her response was so amazing! She said, “Just because you don’t see me as broken doesn’t mean you don’t have compassion. It is because you don’t see me as broken that I call on you to assist. It is like taking the hand of a friend as you cross the street. You both march across the road together and both of your attentions are on the path and the journey. On the other hand, when you help an old lady cross the street, you walk slowly and carefully with your attention only on the safety of the old lady, not on where you are going or even on her destination. When you see me as strong our partnership is strong. When you see me as battered and weak our connection is battered and weak.” Well HOLY SHIT!

As I process this adventure, my brain starts thinking of a woman in my class, named Jennifer. Here is what she is working on, in her own words. “I am learning to be a weaver of the elements, frequency, and time and am learning the power of bringing in the Blessed Rain for the highest Good Of All!!! Yippee!!!!” When I start thinking of her, I get an image of a hollow body guitar. There is special attention given to the resonance of the body and the strings running along the fret board and the frets themselves running perpendicular to the strings. I see that I am illustrated as a specific spot, like a note on the neck of the guitar. I see Jennifer too, she is in a different location on the neck but her spot is not two-dimensional like mine, it looks like a tube, very 3D, as if she goes down through the fret board. I also am getting the info of three…there needs to be three of us. So I message Jennifer on Facebook and set up a real life phone call for the next day.

The next morning comes, and before Jennifer and I hook up; I get a phone call from my friend Melissa. She is helping start-up a new company and her life has changed drastically of late. She decided to call me for a little HER time.  (Famous last words!) I tell her about my experience with Gaia the day before and my image of the guitar that I received. She tells me that she sometimes receives requests from Gaia to sing a certain Note out into the world. Not out loud, but to hum it within and vibrate it out. I say, “Maybe you are our third?” She is getting the big old YES vibe on her end, full on disco balls and all. So I say, “Ok, I need to talk to Jennifer.” And then I tell her Jennifer’s whole name and the bottom falls out! They know each other…very well! Well Fucking A!

Jennifer is apprised of the whole experience next and we all happily decide to do a conference call the next day. We are in three different time zones, which cannot be an accident either. We are three time zones coming together to talk about frequency, time and Gaia. Hilarious!

Right before the next meeting I slip into meditation to see if I can see some more about how we will work together. This is what I get.

“Jennifer is the center point, the pivot. You are the lead in reaching out. Melissa is the web connected to All.”

This news about Melissa is not surprising, she “sees” vibrationally and has been seeing lots of weaving images in connection with herself for a long time; plus this year I had a visual of her as creating a web, with her day-to-day actions, all throughout the town where she lives.  Here is something that she wrote for me to explain how she sees, it was originally posted on the So Your a Beginner Page.  “I “see” in those sine waves. The electrical energy of it – of all. I hear in vibration. Every vibration has a tone to it like a note from an instrument. Emotion has a tone – every single emotion has a different tonal quality. You will be playing more than one note at a time. I experience each person as a song. People together are an orchestral movement. I “see” us as those sine waves. Each tone has an accompanying sine wave. Those sine waves weave together to form the image of you. Each of you is a tapestry. Together a huge mural playing out. I feel those sine wave connections from one BEing to the next – like the spider web. I can ride that sine wave forward or backward.”—She had to figure out what she was getting at the beginning. It was like learning a new language for her.   Anyway, when I connect with the two other ladies I notice that I have written the words, Power Trio at the top of my notebook. Oh good, we have our own rock band! Through discussion we become clearer as to Jennifer and my depiction on the symbolic guitar. Gaia is the resonate body, Melissa is the strings and the frets, Jennifer is deliberate connection between the body of the guitar and a very specific string that crosses a very specific fret, and I am the pluck…a specific action on a specific time line.

I was also given very brief instructions on how to get started.

“Begin by adjusting to the frequencies of each other. This means placing your energies within the field of the others and letting them feel you. Describe what you each get. When you can discern individual energy, begin braiding the three. How does this feel to each of you? Your responses will be different, as it should be. Learn from this.” I asked “Then what do we do?”

“Then the magic happens. Let it unfold. We don’t know either. This is all new territory with unlimited potential.”


The three-way call goes off without a hitch. We chat a bit and then start visualizing our energy braiding. Melissa sees orbs of light, other beings, joining the braid, which then plumped up according to Jennifer. I saw it as that tweedy type yarn that has the little flecks of color sprinkled along it. I later learned, while washing dishes, that those flecks were other people from our Super Powers Classes plus the usual assortment of Assistants.

Now to back up a smidge, Lisa’s blog post from this morning had this little snippet at the end.

On a completely different note, I do want to share a dream I just woke up with.  It was one of this dreams that was a experience, witnessing the event as opposed to the metaphoric dream state itself.

Altho a lot of the information was immediately taken away from my memory the moment I opened my eyes, like the where and when of it, I could still see this gaping long hole in the earth created by an earthquake, revealing the top point of a pyramid.  I also understood too, that the rash of so many earthquakes right now is serving to bring up to the surface times on earth long-buried within her and within our memory banks.

The last session in the super hero’s course takes us to a pyramid as spirit eventually called it, from the “galactic kinship era.”  I actually started seeing this pyramid before the course started, thru someones ET session and I knew this was a real-time on earth.  Once the transmission of the hypnosis came thru, I realized this pyramid was an energy activator to many stargates within the things we call constellations of alignment of stars in our actual sky.

This pyramid is making its way to the surface of earth again, in tact and fully functional by those who know how to use it.  In the dream state, I knew where and when… like I said tho, that was wiped from my awakening body.

This is the first that any of us had read about the pyramid. As a matter of fact the hypnosis that she talks about is a guided meditation that Jennifer and I have not experienced YET. That class is set for this weekend.

So, surprise surprise, as we braided our energy, Melissa saw the pyramid that Lisa talked about. Melissa being the connection to all, it is no surprise that she will get the info of what our mission is. I am, of course, laughing my ass off. Don’t we get to practice first? Our first time out and we get Lisa’s Stargate Pyramid! What the hell? It then becomes apparent that we are not to set up a time and do a proper group meditation. Oh no! It is happening NOW with Melissa sitting in the storeroom at her work! HA HA HA! No more theory indeed!

Melissa feels the web that is herself, connect to every inch/every point on the pyramid itself. I saw it as a pyramid rising up under a blanket of Melissa energy. The pyramid starts entering Melissa’s chest, point first. Jennifer is standing directly behind Melissa and I am floating across from Melissa, on the other side of the pyramid. (At this point I would like to say that the following description is from my point of view with what I remember the others experienced. I am sure that it is not completely accurate from their point of view and that I no doubt have left things out.) I could see the strings enter Melissa’s heart center, come out her back and enter Jennifer, who looked like a glowing tube of light, where they split and some went upward and some went down. Ah, Jennifer is our pivot point…our connection and access to all other time lines. All those strings are connecting with specific time lines along Earth’s frequency range. I know all this in a flash and get soooo excited. Jennifer said that she could feel the strings come up through her hands and arms and then start swirling around counter-clockwise. “It felt all swirly, electric, flow-y, and then emanated out…”

I asked Jennifer to imagine our time line as one glowing point. When she did I headed right to it. It was a white round portal when I got close and I followed the string right through it. The string came through the portal and now appeared to me like a giant strand of spaghetti. I was straddling it and it flew above the ground as it went across the surface of the Earth. It entered the ground in the Sinai Peninsula, I think. It tunneled underground for a bit and came up out of the ground somewhere near Turkey, right up through the mouth of an active volcano. Ah, so this is how it is physically entering our time line…volcano power. I still don’t know what I am supposed to do.  And then I see myself, grabbing handfuls of lava and throwing them around the planet. I see that I throw one at Melissa’s house, so I throw one at Jennifer’s and mine as well…and then one at Lisa for shits and grins. I see myself tossing more for a bit and then I see myself walking around on the Earth with what looks like a salt shakers, sprinkling everywhere. I see myself kneel at the edge of the ocean and dip my hand down into the water and then drink. Immediately I see that water flow through all the strings back down to and through Jennifer and through her to all the other timelines. (And if you will all remember, water is the key to physical creation on this planet.) I visually watched the water flow down through all the strings and then there was this whoosh of wind and air and I saw the area where the pyramid had been close up and become sealed with a purple light. I could feel the small dot of energy that it had now become. Energy transfer finished!  (What that means exactly is a mystery!) I saw the three of us holding hands in a circle and then we all stepped back from each other. Mission Complete.

Illustrating some possibilities of Flight

Illustrating some possibilities of Flight

Lisa asked me to bring all three of my guides, that I have met in the Super Powers class, together for my next meditation. This was an intriguing idea to me. How do I bring three individuals from three different times and places together? Perhaps, by not over thinking it, hmmm. One of the ladies in my class provided me with my inspiration. I sent out party invitations! Lets get together and discuss where Esther is going with this gift of flight thing! Then I waited for them to arrive.

The first thing I see is a pink platform (pink = love) surrounded by a white space. Dragha arrives first and comes and takes my left hand. Dru-Ru arrives next, wearing his mask, and stands directly across from me. Clara arrives last and takes my right hand, completing the circle.

Dragha reaches up and to her left and grabs a handful of “something” out of the air. She makes a line in the air with it as she pulls it down and to her right. It looks like a brush stroke of white paint. Then she throws it quickly to Clara who throws it back up to the starting point in the center. It makes a triangle shape which starts out looking like brush strokes and then begins to glow golden/white. Dragha says, “This is the point of no return.” as the triangle is being drawn in the air. It is hovering upright in the middle of our circle.

Esther: “What does that mean?”

Clara: “You can never go back to who you once were.”

E: “That is something I already know.”

Clara: “It still needs to be said before you take the step.”

E: “What step am I taking?”

Clara: “The beginning of a journey.”

Dru-Ru: “The end of another.”

Dragha: “Come join us, for you will never walk alone.”

E: “Into the triangle?” (The center, which was clear, has gotten blindingly white.)

Dragha: “This is the Doorway to your Soul. It is your star, EsStar.” (I see an image of two triangles overlapping to create a six-pointed star.) All that you ever were and ever will be is within.”

Dru-Ru: “You are the light that is blinding you. You are that bright and more.”

Clara: “Do you want to see what you are capable of? Put down the pen and we will show you.”

I put aside my journal and close my eyes. The rest of this meditation is my memory of the visuals that unfolded from that point.

I saw my vision of our circle pull back and begin to circle around our group from behind all of us. When I got around to behind the last of the four, Dragha, we quite suddenly became little small dots of energy, one per person, and quickly flew together. We became one and just as quickly disappeared into the light of the triangle. Then I saw us standing as human shapes again but within a raindrop or teardrop. We were falling, which we did for some time. We were falling through nothingness as far as I could tell. Then SPLAT, we landed with a release of water. What happened next confused me and I had to have them show me again until I could see what the hell the three were doing. All three of their bodies braided together to become one. I was still standing in front, facing them, watching it happen. The power of the three becomes one. The trinity, the triad, the hat trick becomes the slam-dunk. Very Interesting! The result of the braiding was a single woman who was now standing before me. She was very buff and strong and I immediately thought, Zena Princess Warrior!  She was wearing jeans and a t-shirt instead of leather though! The next day after thinking about this meditation a while, I realized that she was a Princess Warrior because it was the masculine and feminine blended together.

She tells me to follow her. We are standing on a wooden platform of some sort. We start walking and come to farm fields. She points to a black speck in the sky. It is too far away for me to see what it is. She tells me that it is myself. I am like, “Really! Lets go see!” We fly up and toward the speck until I can see myself as a grey curly-haired woman soaring around. She shows me that from below, the me up in the sky looks like an Eagle in flight. Is that so no one freaks out when they see me from the ground, or just a symbol?

My Princess Warrior points and I watch the older me swoop down toward the ground. The edge of a field is on fire. I see myself fly over it and blow it out. Next I see myself gathering a chain of something out of the air. It looks like giant pop beads…those plastic beads for little kids that have a prong on one side to connect together with. I watch as she/me takes the chain and inserts it into a green algae covered pond. The chain of beads sticks straight up out of the pond like a straw in a milkshake. My vision is taken down to the surface of the pond and I see bubbles start to slowly break on the surface of the water. I ask Princess Warrior what is going on. She tells me that I am changing the oxygen levels of the pond. With the levels changed, the ecosystem can balance itself and clear the algae to healthy levels. Then I watch my older self fly up to the edge of the atmosphere of the planet and bounce along it in a swooping manner, until I/she is about halfway around the Earth. Then I see her roll over on her back, like the day when Dragha asked me if I ever look up. I see that she looks like me now and no longer older than me. I see her reach out with her hands and pull the atmosphere apart where she has bounced along. Solar wind or some kind of wind comes pouring in through the opening! I am reaching Holy Shit mode at this point.

For my next demonstration, I see her/me reach up and grab one tiny little star out of the blackness of space. I see her wing it like a fastball down toward the Earth. It zips around the Earth a few times very fast and then shatters and rains bits of light down on the ground below. Then I see myself reach back into the blackness of space and start gathering the fabric of space together to make the shape of a rose. (Rose = love) I immediately think WORMHOLE! I am creating a wormhole right beside the planet! Now the HOLY SHIT meter hits its limits and I am feeling very overwhelmed. Warrior Princess is quick to assure me that I would not be alone in my Flight powers/gift and that we would all learn from each other. I would always have help figuring out how to do everything. She also showed me that it took someone (maybe more…four?) at each fold of space to create such an interdimentional thing as a wormhole. All of us would have to work together, organized and purposeful to make it happen.

I really had to sit with this meditation for a few days. It felt so huge I had to ponder it awhile before I could type up my notes. Now here is the funny thing, the class ain’t over folks! Where I am going from here is hard to imagine.

Out of Africa and to the Stars

Out of Africa and to the Stars

I have more to report, oh readers.

This Saturday was our Super Powers class’ second group meditation. It is a bit of a two-part saga so stay with me. The first destination was to an alternate version of Earth where one of our soul incarnations would be using, in their day-to-day life, the skill that each of us are trying to learn. I first was able to see a large single mountain (as in not a range of peaks) with a snowcap on the top. I looked down to see that I was landing on a large grassy plain. I walked forward and came to see that I was now standing on a ridge. The grasslands swept down to a wide flat valley floor. I could see the brown foothills of the mountain on the far side and a river winding across the wide expanse.

I turned and saw a man standing to my right facing me. He was about fifteen feet away and was wearing an African ceremonial wooden mask. The mask was very tall and skinny and was curved a bit, very much like the shape of your eye…only turned up and down. It had minimal markings. In white paint the outside shape had a solid line around it and the eyes and mouth had simple lines drawn around them. The man was standing quite still, just waiting for me I suppose. I approached more carefully than usual. It is a bit freaky to approach a person with a mask on. I couldn’t see his eyes at all.

He seemed to sense my discomfort or maybe I said something to him, I don’t remember, but he slid the mask off. I could see then that he was tall, skinny but fit. His black hair was just beginning to turn grey. I learned his name was Dru-Ru.

I asked him to show me how he used Flight in his daily life. He took my hand and we flew down into the valley below. I suddenly saw that there was a village and just as suddenly we were in a dark hut. He was sitting on the ground and a woman or maybe two were painting his out stretched hands with a brown earth colored paint. It was very hard for me to see in the hut. I mostly got bits and flashes, here and there. Quite suddenly he was done and taking me with him he stepped outside and we began to ascend in the air until we stood on the snow at the top of the mountain. He told me that he flies up here to “speak to the snow. I honor it and thank it for falling so close to my people. And I ask it to melt into the river below so that we may enjoy it.”

I asked him, “Well won’t it melt into the river anyway?”

“No.” he said. “It can melt into the Earth. It can be pulled up into the sky. It can freeze into a glacier.”

He then took me over to a steep ravine that carved down on the east side of the mountain. This ravine was well below the snow line and the foot of it ended right at the river. There was scrub brush but a lot of the soil was bare. There were deep lines cut into the soil from water runoff. He sat down upon a promontory above the ravine and focused his attention on a small cloud in the sky. I looked at it too and it was dark on the bottom and I could feel the water in it. He told me that he comes up here to call to the clouds to have them release their water here so that it will flow into the river. It was so very interesting to see him using flight to address water issues for his people who clearly live in a dry savanna locale.

It is fascinating to me that water keeps coming up with my Flight meditations. I am not the only one in our class having experiences with water. It connects most of us in a very strong manner. So there I was checking my email this afternoon when I read the newest post from Lisa Rising Berry. Her whole post was on water and it was such an avalanche of fascinating information that I can only tell you to go read it if you feel interested.

The second leg on our meditation journey was to travel to a different Earth where inter-dimensional travel is the norm. We are to link up with another incarnation and explore the technology that we encounter.

I became aware that I was standing inside a building this time. The room was very large and utilitarian. It had a high ceiling and there were people scurrying about. My incarnation was female this time and I kinda settled into her body. I never saw her face.   It was like I slipped into her from the back and above.   She had shoulder length curly gray hair. She walks over to a long cigar-shaped object that is in the middle of the room and slides underneath it like a mechanic. As she walks over to it I see that there is a large rectangular opening in the wall that was at my back. It is open from floor to ceiling like a hangar door. I can’t see beyond it but I know at that moment that we are in space and that I am in a hanger-like room. I know because I am inside her that my grey haired lady is working on the engines but I am not communicating with her like other guides. I don’t know if that is because of the way that I entered her or because I don’t have specific questions at that point. I am still orienting myself.

A man walks up to the object above me and crouches down to look at me/us. He starts talking to me though and not my incarnation. Ah, so here is my guide. He takes my hand and pulls me up from under the object. He tells me his name is Aktu and that we are in the Antilles star system. He explains that the technology that they are working on is a prototype of a vessel to physically travel through wormholes. He points out the large bay door and I can suddenly see a large black circle in space off to one side. There is white light surrounding the lip of it and the whole thing is pulsing with slight movement, kinda like an anemone swaying in the currents of the sea.

I ask him about the engines of the machine, and he tells me that they have something to do with gravity (gravity fed or gravity driven maybe). I reach out and touch the outside of the machine and to my surprise it gives underneath my finger and feels soft like a metallic skin. He takes me around the machine to a woman who is working at a desk of some sort. She is not paying any attention to the people in the room including a small cluster who are standing behind her watching her. I can’t really see what she is doing. Aktu tells me that she is training to go through the wormhole. I ask him how she can do that if they have never been inside. He informs me that they have had probes inside which they base her simulation off of. That is all the info that I get before I am called back to the class.

As I relate my experiences to Lisa and the other class members she asks me about Dru-Ru’s mask and the painting of his hands. She tells me that both are important and to ask him about them. Like a good little student, and because I am too curious, I did that earlier this evening and will try to get that all typed up for you tomorrow. Until tomorrow then, happy travels of your own.

Fly with Me

Fly with Me

Good Morning, Good Day, Good Evening!

I have not shared my personal meditation adventures for some months. Mostly I have been hording them for myself, like left over Halloween Candy. I have had the thoughts to share them with you all, but that has NOT been where the FLOW has been.

I have been all about the Flow, consciously and unconsciously, since maybe March. It feels like much more time has past…but that is what my journal says. And what is the Flow, you ask. It is I, as I wake, picking the priorities of what I would LIKE to do with my day and then letting my day bring me there. It is interesting to watch my day unfold with sudden shifts in WHEN things happen. Sometimes I can feel the branching before me of two different paths…and I choose one. It is not extravagant or extraordinary in any way. Just simple.

I can also tell when I am out of the Flow. I usually judge this by my irritation level. No excuses about “incoming energy” or “body realigning”, those things are non-factors in the “irritation zone”. Have I been perfect? HELL NO! As a matter of fact, sometimes I like being crabby and bitchy…at least for a bit. And then I pull my head out of my ass…usually anyway.

But anyway, on to exciting news!

I am taking Lisa Gawlas’ Super Powers June Class. Super Powers, for those who don’t follow her blog, are skills that we have the potential to ROCK in this lifetime because somewhere in a galaxy far far away…opps I have Star Wars 7 on the brain…somewhere and sometime as another life expression we figured it (the skill) out and kicked major ass doing it. So, why not bring it into the here and now? After all, what else is there to do? (Cue laughter)

I hope to be sharing my class experiences with you; after all I take much better notes when I need to share. Without further ado…we are on to the first experience from class last night. I went on a meditation trip and ended up on “ancient” Earth.

I arrived hovering over a steep wooded valley. There were mountains in the near distance. It took me a bit to get my feet on the ground. As a matter of fact, I was thinking for a minute that I wasn’t going to land at all. But then there I was in calf-high grass, crouched down and looking down the steep walls of the valley. To my right, a woman approached me, she was walking along the rim but I think she came up from below. She had dark hair that she parted in the middle. I do not remember what she was wearing, only that it was a dress. Her name is Dragah. She told me I was on ancient Earth…an Earth before humans. She considered herself to be from Earth because she had chosen to incarnate here but not through a birth process. She looked very human to me, except for her eyes. She called me sister and let me tell you that was totally the vibe I got from her. We embraced as we neared one another and she placed her 3rd eye against mine and this light pink spiral, aka sine wave, joined us together from forehead to forehead.

She told me that the Super Power that I could learn from her was Flight. Flight. Yes, Flight. I asked if she meant literal or figurative. She laughed and said, “First you must learn to fly with your mind. Then we will conquer the other.” I was immediately reminded of a meditation that I did in early May where a Bird Woman came to me. I will tell you all about that in just a minute. Dragah knew the memory that I was having and told me that the Bird Woman was not her but that she had learned from her too. She said that Flight of the Mind means freedom from “constructed thought”. And lo and behold, wouldn’t you know it, she was talking about my Flow that I have been working with only in a little different way. When you fly, you have the freedom to get where you want to go that is different than if you walk, freedom from the constructed reality that is the ground beneath our feet. She also picked me up like a kite and tossed me off the edge of a cliff to show me about LOFT. It totally reminded me of the Let’s Fly A Kite Meditation. I could feel the wind currents around me, and the tug of the string that connected me to her. She showed me that if you fly too high you loose sight of the specifics of what you are looking at and if you fly too low you cant see the bigger picture. Translation…your view of a situation or problem is UP TO YOU. Only when you examine YOURSELF and YOUR viewpoint can you determine what you are missing out on. Sometimes, personal history applying here, you don’t realize that your viewpoint no longer serves Anyone but especially yourself and your family. Such days can be foundation rocking and filled with tears and regret, at least until you realize that your previous view led you to the NEW. There is no need for forgiveness, because you did not know. But now that the view has changed you can’t be a dumb ass about it anymore. At least you need to catch yourself when you are being that dumb ass.

This is a fine time to bring in the Bird Woman meditation experience.

A woman who was half bird and half human showed up half way through a meditation that I was having about…wait for it…super powers. I had quite forgotten all of the specifics of our conversation. When I looked it up all I was remembering was the Bird Woman, herself. You will see how amazingly it interlocks with last night’s meditation. She was quite striking and reminded me of a hummingbird in her colors and shape. Her feathers were all blues and greens and quite iridescent. I was doing a writing meditation at the time so I have good notes. (Smile)

Here is our conversation.

Bird Woman: “I am the essence of all the beauty and strength in the female part of you.”

Esther: “Is there a super power there too?”

BW: “Oh yes! First you must combine The Flight with The Step. To do this, remember that flight has speed and is not constrained to roads and paths. “As the crow flies” is a popular saying. Use it in your life. You have a strength to reach a destination by using the FREEDOM of flight.”

E: “Out of the box thinking?”

BW: “And out of the box DOING. Now combine that with The Step (She places one of her human feet very purposefully on the dirt in front of her.), very purposeful decisions about where you want to go or to do but not HOW you get there or how you want to do it. Flow! Flow! Flow! Let it unfold and the flight will show you the way.”

E: “Why does this come from the female side of me?”

BW: “Your male side is just as important and he is a Man Bear (I got an image of him.) You must talk with him too. As for me, we—you and I—are beginning to blossom with this new way of being, a new way of flowing through the day. When you get frustrated—STOP—and see what you are trying to push that should just be left alone. Bring yourself back to feeling into what your “day” wants to do next; which is based on the intentions (she deliberately steps forward again) that you have set.”

So there you go. Pretty damn cool.

It’s Science Class Today…Waveforms, Binary Code and Fibonacci Scale


binary code

Hello All!
Things are a-foot at the Circle K, as Bill and Ted would say.  I have seen both slinky/spiral energy and ladders of energy down by my pond.  (Click here for the background on this conversation if you are a new reader.)  Both are showing up in different colors.  I have easily made the jump that the slinky energy is a sine wave.  While researching sine waves I saw that there are more than one kind.  Who knew?  Not me!  I have forgotten more about science and math then I recall.  There is the curved sine wave that we are all familiar with which is called a sinusoidal wave.  And there are non-sinusoidal waves called square waves, triangle waves, sawtooth waves, rectangular waves and pulse waves.  I have a friend Melissa that “sees” in vibration and I proposed to her that the ladder energy I was seeing in meditation,  was a square sine wave.  She took her own look and freaked out and said, YES YES YES!  So what is a square sine wave?

Sine, square, triangle, and sawtooth waveforms

And then Lisa Gawlas started seeing and posting about a  V type of platform (for lack of a better word).  And I thought, well maybe those are triangular waveforms.  So I went into meditation to find out what the different kinds of waveforms are and what the differences are.  Melissa had told me months ago that I needed to know that communication is electricity and that electricity is expressed in 1 & 0’s.  Ahh Binary numbers…I also don’t know anything about you!  That is why I bring up numbers in the following conversation with Myself, the part of me that Knows.

Why are there different kinds of sine waves?
They all have a specific purpose, a way to move the light.
What is the purpose of the curved sine wave?
The singular wave function is to move through time and space with as little of inter-fear-ance as possible.
Yes. Easily.
Is it the 1?
Yes, the singular thought, note, space, discovery, notion, Being, etc.
Is the square wave the 0?
The square wave is one and the same plus every other 1.
How is it represented numerically?
One forever. (One with a line over the top.)
What represents the 0 or what does 0 represent?
The zero is the absence of everything and the availability of everything.
The unknown? (This is what Myself calls dark energy/dark matter.  See Portal 101 for more info.)

Yes. Pure potential.

So a square wave..the ladders…are an infinite combination of sine waves.  More specifically, one square wave is equal to one sine wave (at the same frequency) PLUS an infinite number of sine waves at diminishing values.  Also the transition from minimum to maximum happens instantaneously with a square wave.  Sine waves are a single pure frequency or “note”, while a square wave has infinite harmonics.  A square wave has access to ALL.  Sine waves are very specific.  Back to the info…

What is the function of the triangular wave?
The triangular wave is an inverse of another wave.  A half of a whole.  When they line up in the right way they complete each other and complement each other too.
So if Lisa is seeing the ET’s step out of a V shape then is she in the mirror V shape?
Yes, she completes the circuit by bringing her vibration to the party.
Why is it a V shape instead of the (a drawing of two curved sine waves into locking with each other)?

The loops that you drew, can happen and do happen and should happen.  Each sine wave is a thread and represents/carries an idea…etc.  They interweave with the thought that is You.  So you are a fabric of threads.  The human consciousness also is a tapestry of woven sine waves that weave together to form the whole.  Hence what a few experience and Master, flows through the ALL.  The difference in the two is two-fold.  First the wave length of the two are quite different.  The curved sine wave flows through with little resistance and the triangle wave is more of an exclamation point ( I first wrote explain-ation point…both points being made).  It only flows smoothly when the mirroring wave links up.  Second the purpose of the singular sine wave is to carry information over an infinite amount of time and space.  The triangle wave is mainly used for short periods of time.  Bringing two worlds/vibrations together to communicate/view/exchange for a brief time.

Super interesting!!!!!  Let me tell you, it is awesome having Melissa to talk to about this stuff since she sees vibrationally.  She sees people as a tapestry.  All those sine waves linked together creating the expression that is that person.  So she and I have been back and forth with this info for a week or so.  Then Lisa published a post recently where she saw as she was sleeping an infinity symbol above her body.  Here is her description.

Above my body, the entire length of my bed, a gold infinity sign was created about 4 feet above my body.  In the loop that was at the lower half of my body were all these dots of golden energy, on the upper part, long strands, maybe about 2 feet long of golden energy, kinda looked like stiff strings.  Then, they took another infinity sign and put it over my computer chair, smaller in size, but with the same details.  Then they were back in my bedroom and then folded the infinity sign in half, so that the two circles were now intermingled as one.  The dots and strings intermingling.  Then, on top of the infinity sandwich, another was creating, but instead of two loops connecting, it was two triangles connected at the points.  This time tho, the dots of energy that was placed in the lower half were various shades of red, blue and super light gold.  The strings I think remained all gold.  Then again, back out here to my computer chair to tweak (I guess) the smaller infinity sign and align it (somehow) with the triangle sign.  This work continued all night long.  I have no idea what they were doing and what it means but it was amazing to witness, stunning to see.

I like how the infinity loop folded back on itself and that is when the strings/1’s plugged into the dots/0’s.  And remember that the 0 is the energy source.  The human has to use the string or the energetic well of energy just sits there.  In other terms, if you have a piano in front of you, it just sits there until you sit down and press a key.  The more practice you do pressing keys the more potential is opened up through the instrument in front of you.  It also explains to me how individuals can see the same idea represented so differently to each of them in meditation or physical life.  The string/idea/the 1, is plugged into infinite outcomes! The fact that there was two triangle waveforms linked up over the top of Lisa’s infinity waveform was super cool!   What does it mean in a deeper sense?  It’s a Mystery!!!!  We are just learning the lay of the land, so to speak.  But we do know that communication and exchange of information are showing up in very specific light waveforms.  Which is damn interesting to me.

Then I read Lisa’s post today and I knew info wanted to come on in.  Here is the pic that she included in her sharing.

I had to drop one kid off at school and then go grocery shopping.  I barely had the patience to put the groceries away before I ran for my journal.  Wait! Just wait….I wanted to write this down…  Notice that the Fibonacci Scale starts with 0!

What is the Fibonacci Scale/Spiral?
It is a representation of sound in matter.
Why does it “add up” like it does? (Meaning 2+3=5, 3+5=8, etc.)
The perfection of sound is represented in the tones that are spaced as they are.  The math side of it is just showing the spacing between tones that achieve this perfection.
What would you like me to know about it?  (AKA how does it relate to my current investigation.)
The Fibonacci scale, how you use it, is in it’s light wave form.  As you see, it is a spiral of energy that expands.
Is it the 1 that gets added to other 1’s or is it an expansion of the 1?
It is the expansion of the singular one that is pulling more of one’s self into one Being.
So the 1 (singular thought that is a Being), that sine wave will continue to grow through life and lifetimes to achieve the infinity of the spiral.  And it is all plugged into a 0 at the top/beginning point of the spiral, which feeds or is the source of unlimited potential of the sine wave?
Yes, except the purpose of the spiral is to connect with the ALL in an individual manner.  The spiral of each person/Being is being driven outward by their love.  As each Beings love expands, their octaves grow.  The spiral expands into the ALL when a Beings “life” ends and then contracts back down and begins again when they are “reborn”.  The love for their Mother/Father/Caregiver starts the expansion of the spiral from the start point of 0, which equals unlimited potential.  That is why children who have not been loved/nurtured in the beginning have developmental problems.  Their spiral is not expanding.  They don’t know love.
So the spiral doesn’t expand over lifetimes of experience.  It expands and contracts with birth and death?

Yes, it is the singular expression of all that you choose to express with the binary code that you chose.

So there you go…bringing it back to singular expression aka sine waves and binary code.  I am not sure I understand this other than on a super simplified level.  Please remember that I am not a science or math expert in ANY way.  I do love that last line from above.  It is so LOADED with info for me to pick apart.  I do remember that when I was inside a portal having my Portal 101 lesson..the walls of it looked exactly like the picture at the beginning of Lisa Gawlas’ sharing today.  Only the walls were streaks/threads of white and black energy.  The white being the 1 and the black being the 0.  Same information but represented differently.   And just like with the Fibonacci Scale, Love is what creates the movement.  I also see that people who have had an expansive spiritual event (in meditation, by drug or plant, or ritual or whatever) their spiral literally expands during the event and then retracts back to the current or new octave that they are sustaining.  A NDE, Near Death Experience, is the same.  An expansion and the contraction back as they re-emerge with their “life”.  Amazing to think about!

When I was searching for images for this post I ran across the image below.  It lead me to Token Rock.  A website whose bi-line is “Rediscover your divine music”.  Look at all that is going on with that image.  We have a sine wave that is divided by a Fibonacci spiral that is also a square wave!  And they are equal to ????  I don’t know but it is blowing my mind!
Until Next Time, All You Need Is Love!  Esther

Taking the Next Step


There is something growing in my pond.

Or maybe as Lisa Gawlas is now saying, something is Becoming in my pond.  Or maybe I am becoming able to see it.

It all started back last week when I was seeing the large boom box speakers pumping out base all over the Earth.  Well I also saw that where the sound wave were under water the ripples coalesced into a blue beam of light that shot up out of the center of the circle and went out past the atmosphere of the planet, and never ended.  The beams on the ocean were gargantuan in feeling and scope and the one on my pond was the diameter of a golf ball to my view from the bank.  But I kept thinking soft ball as I wrote that and indeed started typing it.  So about fist sized…LOL.

The second or third time that I played with the sound circles in meditation, I saw that there was a structure around the blue beam coming out of my pond.  It was made of light beams, sort of like a PVC structure ;-), only lavender in color.  Pastel colors represent newly arrived energy.  It consisted of a 3D rectangle, long side perpendicular to the water, with a pyramid on top.  The light beam came straight up through both and went out the top.  There were also “leg” struts that came off of it and one went north and landed on the high bank of the pond and one went south and landed on the low south side of the pond.

The next day I was walking my dogs down and around the property which always takes up and around the high side of the pond.  As I walked along I had the memory of the structure surface and instead of seeing it in purple it was now an amber color.  I have been playing with the energy of this in meditation this week.  Mike and I pole danced all around the structure and climbed up on the pyramid to dance along it’s angles (that was fun! Sliding down the peak was my favorite part.)  This male/female energy intertwine was his idea.  When we had danced on every part of it, we were standing at the peak around where the beam of light comes out.  Mike reached over and tugged me forward just enough that my heart center came in contact with the beam and I was sucked right down in it and the beam lowered down and disappeared under the water.  I was now viewing this from hovering above the pond.  Stillness everywhere as I pondered what the hell it meant and what my next move would be.  Then I see a tiny periscope pop up from the water and motor on over to the south bank.  Out of mini submarine pop these tiny Beings who are dragging a giant trunk.  Well, giant for them.  They make a bee line for the bee hives. 🙂  When I ask them if that is where they are going, they say “We’ve been invited.”  Vibrationally I couldn’t see what they had in that trunk or what they did at the bee hives.  I was quite confused by the whole bee experience.

The whole energetic structure was not so weird. (Weird being relative.)  After all, I just had the Portal 101 experience and knew that more info would be coming my way.  I had committed to learning about that and in for a penny in for a pound.  So I had something out in my pond that energetically was certainly very portal-ish.  But I wanted someone else’s point of view.  I reached out to my friend Melissa to see what she could see.  Here is what she wrote back.

Hi gal!

When I feel into those pyramids, it feels a lot like what Lisa describes as the crystal port keys that they planted (or are planting). It feels like you could “see” yourself going into the beam with the idea or intent held for the location you’d like to go to. BAM!! you’re there. Going to go for a ride?
I also feel you touching them even if you are not aware of it. Have you ever seen Buddhist prayer wheels where people walk by them and touch them to spin them? You gently stir them. Interesting.
Ok.  So crazy!  Validation of portal.  But what the hell?  It is over the water of my pond.  How the heck do I physically interact with it….when the time comes for that lesson…or series of lessons.  And how the hell do I tell people about this without them thinking I have finally LOST IT.  Also when I called and talked to Melissa about it, she was able to see that the Beings who came the visit the bees had used the same portal…therefore showing that I am not the only one who is using it/ will use it.  HOLY CRAP!  And no they don’t really have a mini sub…think symbol here people.
I knew that 2015 was/is about bringing us out of our internal experiences and journeys and start taking all that we have learned and start using it PHYSICALLY.  But I wasn’t quite prepared for the physical to show up in this manner.  All my adventures, and work and tears and learning has been done from the comfort of my own home.  Now I need to step up and take the next step literally out of my house and onto the land (and water).
This morning I asked for the next step.  I was shown by Niya and Mike in meditation, to go down to the North Side of the pond and lay my hands on the ground where the leg strut lands and connect with an energy under the ground that looked like giant amber slinkys or corkscrew-like energies.  So I got up, put on a hoodie, a Carhart coat over the top, a hat, my gloves and changed into my waterproof mud shoes and off I went.  It is bright and sunny and beautiful today.  Temps are in the forties (farenheit) but there is a stiff cold wind…so I was glad that I had all those layers.  I walked down and up on the high bank of the pond.  Which puts me next to the road and about twenty feet up in the air.  Basically anyone driving by can see me.  Talk about pressing the comfort zone button again.  “Oh, look honey, stop the truck.  I think that lady is having a heart attack up by the pond.”  I do not want my neighbors calling 911 because I am crouched over up by the pond.  But I decided to stop being a Chicken Shit.  I will be the Neighborhood crazy lady.  After all, I already am…just need to bring it out in the open. 😀
I got comfortable.  Yes, there is mud on my jeans as I type this.  It took me a bit but I could feel those corkscrew energies.  Physically my fingertips were tingling.  I saw in my mind’s eye, two large springs of amber energy (about basketball size in diameter) connect with my hands.  They gave a little bounce and I saw (not with my physical eyes) them bounce me to a standing position.  Then they bounced again taking me higher into the air and then higher still.  I pulled my meditative eyes up above my physical body about a hundred feet.  I could see myself down below and these slinkys of energy coming up out of the ground.  There were not only two.  I think there were four.  I physically stood up and walked around to the south side of the pond.  The day before I had determined where that “leg” landed.  There was a mole hill right in the exact spot.  I stood there and now had my hands back in my gloves and in my pockets.  This hadn’t been part of the assignment but I felt it was the next step.  I remembered my explorations a few months back with sending energy out of my left foot chakra and bringing it in my right foot chakra.  I felt into the ground there and just felt this little spurt of energy..like a little burp.  It certainly wasn’t as “active” as the other side of the pond.  I started to cycle the energy through my feet chakras.  I can feel the energy rising up through my body.  I took a peek with my mind’s eye and saw that I had become one big flame.  Only the flame was stylized, like the ones that you see in Indian or Buddhist art.  The flames then shot up into the sky and went up to the atmosphere of the Earth.  I had a pulled back view as they made a circle around the Earth and then divided once they made one complete circle and split in two and raced around the Earth at a 90 degree angle to the other line of fire.  (This is not the first time I have seen this image presented to me…the first time it was a white energetic line that gift wrapped the Earth.)  The fire wrapped Earth turned into a small apple sized golden globe that was placed in my left hand.  Where it fell apart into multiple puzzle pieces.  I then got the feeling that I was to bury the pieces in the mole hill.  Ok.  Eyes now open, I took off my gloves and bent down and started digging with my left hand.  Ohhhh it was cold wet mud!  I made a little dent and then put the invisible pieces into the hole…where they coalesced into a golden seed and slipped down into the middle of the hill.  I buried the “seed” and then stood up.  I could see (with my mind’s eye) a slinky of red energy that now arched up over the pond and connected to the area that I had just worked on the North bank.  There was also Love coming to me.  I knew I was being asked to write about my experiences.  But as ALWAYS it is my free choice to make.  I could feel the peace and love that accompanied me whether I chose to go out into potential crazy land or not.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE, it said to me.
I read two things before I went down to the pond.  The first was a post from Lisa Gawlas.  She said a number of things that resonated strongly with me.

I want to start with a word our teams have been saying, dare I say, force feeding us for the last few months: RESPONSIBILITY.

They had stated again and again, the mantle of power, the full responsibility of what it means to be us, to be conscious souls alive in biology was being handed totally over to us.  I think many of us, in this moment, namely me, can take that word, that energy, for granted.  I think too, I am going to couple the word responsibility with the phrase “know thyself.”  One without the other is a non energy in the realm of spiritual growth and progress.

Keeping with the word, the energy of responsibility, as I was recapping so much last evening, I thought about the readings over the last two years.  All the visuals, the trinkets of information given to you.  Even the understanding of why some readings only last maybe 15 minutes when your session should be 30 or 60 minutes.  Lets tie the word responsibility here with free will.  Freakin pesky!!

The visuals, the keys of information are released to you very purposefully.  They include so much information about your “super powers” your abilities and even, tho it may not seem like it at the time, what you have come here to this realm, to do.  They allow me to understand only so much because at the end of the day, they want you to understand it, to open up the fullness of yourSelf.  When they cut sessions up into 15 minute bites, it is really yours soul way of stepping back and seeing what you are going to do with the energy they gave you.  If you haven’t done anything different, we keep seeing the same things over and over, maybe in a slightly different way, but repetitive none the less.  From the souls perspective, why give a second helping of food if you haven’t eaten the first helping.  I had no idea there was a method to the madness!!

The second thing I read was the latest email update from Sandra Walter.  I love this quote from her.

You serve as your own Mystery school during this passage, beloveds. Creative intuition will bridge you to the 5D state. Gather in new, organic ways; classic structure does not serve the expansion, there must be wide open space for the unknown. Get comfortable with the uncomfortable. Feel secure in your infinite faith, the Source of your Highest power.


I freely admit that I have no (or perhaps Know is better) idea what I am doing down by the pond.  But I do know that I have accepted the Responsibility to teach myself about it.  It is a new world out there and the best teacher for each of us is Ourselves.  I am purposefully stepping into the uncomfortable so that I can get a second helping.  My first plate was licked clean! I’m choosing to move on to the second course.  What about you?

432 hertz, life pods and event horizons (It’s not as sci-fi as it sounds!)


Hello All,

I’m here with a little status update for you.  Earlier this week, I had a friend gift me by sharing a discovery she had come across.  I use the word discovery very lightly, because there are many people out there who already know about 432 hertz, a specific sound frequency.  (Including my musician husband who has known about it for over a decade.)  Well, I had never heard of it but I paid attention because there has been a hell of a lot of sine-waves and other vibrational information coming in through my meditations of late.  432 hertz is a specific wave length or frequency of sound.  Now, I am no scientist, mathematician or musician so I will let you do your own research into the specifics (of which there is a vast amount).  There are two camps that are enamored with 432 hertz.  One is the New Agers, who find that this specific sound frequency is a Universal frequency and therefore listening to music in this frequency can be very healing, awareness enhancing and mood soothing.  In my own words I would say that the frequency of you, me, anybody is sympathetically tuned to this Universal frequency.  Remember that Everything is Energy!  Think of it as two sine-waves that encounter each other and because they are similar, they flow smoothly together instead of having any dissonance where they meet.  The human frequency, as I see it, is our emotions.  And how do we create our realities, people?  That’s right, with emotion!  The other camp of 432 hertz lovers, is what I will call the scientist musicians.  They could, for the most part, give a crap about sacred geometry and finding universal symbolism that supports the 432 hertz frequency.  For them it is all about the “God Note”, or finding the sound that resonates best within the human ear.  They are interested in sound that moves a person to enjoy the experience more fully.  Music is their passion and they feel that 440 hertz, the accepted Universal Standard for tuning since 1958, creates a slight dissonance within the cochlea of the human ear.  Here is a quote from Omega432.com, as you can see, the scientist musician and the New Ager are not that separate after all.

Changing frequency may also change the electric potential of the brain which may alter and affect memory and perception by the slight change and diamagnetic charge within the water in our cells.
This is perhaps a speculation of why A=440Hz ET and higher concert pitches can be perceived as a brighter, thinner, outward of the head, whereas concert pitch at A=432Hz 12T5 or C=256Hz can be perceived as an inward experience of feeling. Our heart has more morphogenetic fields than the brain and is one of the first things to form in the womb, beating out the soliton pulse of cosmic musical DNA. We feel our emotional bodies from the heart and our solar plexus is the nerve cluster that senses those feelings like a microphone or transducer.

So, long story short, I easily found an free app on Itunes that converts all the songs in my music library on my phone into 432 hertz.  Well, all songs unless they are protected from 3rd party sharing, which means they will not play through another app…they play silently ;-).  I freely admit that I cannot physically hear any difference between the same song played at 440 hertz and 432 hertz.  There are many testimonials of people who can all over the internet.  I do not have a musicians tuned ear, so it sounds the same to me.  What I can tell you is that while listening to the first song I played through the 432 hertz app, a ring of heat or electric feeling of some kind circled the top of my skull.  I kept feeling it as I listened and then after a few songs I realized that I could actually feel the wavelengths or vibrations of the sound physically bouncing around in my brain.  The sensation I experienced is hard to put into words for you all to understand.  Suffice to say that I turned it off after a few songs because it was hard to multi-task.  The next day, I spent all day canning in the kitchen and had my phone playing through the 432 hertz app.  The feeling were not as intense.  I could still feel the ring of energy around the top of my head but only if I tuned in to see if it was still there.  As I worked I noticed that the energy had moved out of my brain and was vibrating through my organs in my chest.  It was very subtle, like a tiny hum of a feeling.  Finally by the time that I turned it off, the vibrations had moved down to my knees.  If you feel inclined to listen to anything in 432 hertz, YouTube has got recordings of every possible genre of music that has been tuned to that frequency.

I did a meditation two days ago while listening to a song in 432 hertz.  I could see inside myself and was presented with the visual of a sine-wave made out of bubbles moving and twisting up through my body.  What the bubbles represented, I do not know.  I was very beautiful.  Then yesterday I tried to connect before going to sleep and all I could see was that I was floating in a black space.  It felt like a tube but I couldn’t see the ends.  All was dark.  The walls on the sides of the tube felt metallic.  So a bit of a freaky image from a human point of view but I have learned that EVERYTHING presented is symbolic and that if I don’t get the meaning, the explanation will be coming along at some point…some time…some day….

This morning I woke pretty grumpy and down.  As I took my kindergartener to school, I was doing the anxiety spiral about money.  I’m sure you all know how that goes.  After I dropped him off, I headed to the grocery store.  On the drive I started trying to pull myself out of the anxiety spiral.  My self talk turned into a driving meditation with myself.  Yep, no guides, no ET’s, just me talking to ME.  I was reminded to open my heart wider…to the tune of it being pulled as open as a storm sewer cover.  Reminded that EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS PROVIDED, ALL WAYS PROVIDED.  And then the love that I could feel inside of myself, snapped me back into alignment.  Notice the love came from within me.  Not from outside of me.  Not from my Higher Self down or into me but from within ME.  I parked the car in the grocery store parking lot and turned it off.  I closed my eyes and thought of the black tube I had seen the night before.  I wanted to see if there was more information so I could make sense of it.  I saw myself exiting the black tube.  I was in the shape of a life pod, (to be sci-fi geeky) basically a rounded corner coffin-like thing.  But I know LIFE pod is a much better description than coffin.  LOL!  The most amazing thing about the visual was that the entire pod was completely covered with a vast amount of electric strands of red-orange energy.  The energy was moving very quickly through these strands and the color was very shocking and vibrant coming out of the black tube.  The pod entering what I understood as “living space”, which was represented as a starry night with a large sun off to the right.  So I am out of the dry-dock of the tube and electrified and on the move.  Oh the language of symbols!  Still confused but loving the electric energy that I saw.

I had a chance to read Lisa Gawlas’ post when I got home.   She made several points that I resonated strongly with.  The first having to do with the emotion that we put out.

We got to this moment with a lot of buffers on us, especially within our thought energy.  Because of the binding of spirit and body, those buffers are no longer in place, meaning, we better be super mindful of how we feel when we are “thinking” because that is the energy that is fueling your day to day life.

Now, we all know this.  And we are also all human.  We are going to have doubts, anxiety, fear, anger.  Don’t stay in those feeling, in other words, don’t wallow.  Reorient yourself, realign as soon as you can and don’t ACT from those emotions.  She also said the following.

Another common theme for yesterdays adventures, YOU are the creator creating, YOU.  It is now your responsibility to know your heart, know the desires and know the energy field around you.  Spirit said to several people yesterday, you now have brand new eyes and its up to you to use them.  See the energy in front of you that will take you to your desires, the created outcome of your desires.  Stop asking your guides to do it for you, their role is very different now than it ever has been.  They (our guides) are more like the banks of a river, holding the energy in place for you to recognize, use, swim in… but they can no longer do it for you as they had before.  If you think about it this way, YOU have become the spiritual guides to an evolving humanity, very present on earth.  Maybe look at it like this, you graduated university, received your masters degree, you cannot keep going back to your teachers and asking them to do things for you.

Now, I believe that our guides are really us on some level.  But it was especially ah-haaing to read that right after having Myself come to me during my driving meditation.  And then I read the following about a book she is listening to in her car.
Erik said we can look at the humans like living in the opening of a dark hole, and everything before them, the light before them is the “event horizon.”  Potentials unfolding for them.   Hearing this, which was a much longer conversation than I am sharing, simply because I didn’t look at chapter or time and I am not going back to look for it and I don’t want to be totally inaccurate in remembering the conversation.  But, when I read this, this energy wrapped around me and I suddenly knew without a shadow of a doubt, this is what i see in your readings, your “event horizon.”  It’s your greatest potential expressing itself in unmistakable ways (assuming I get the translation correct) what you do with it, or don’t do with it… is up to you.

And just like Lisa, knowing that what she sees in her readings is our “event horizon”, I knew that the black tube from the day before was the representation of the ‘dark hole” that humans have been living in.  We have left that energy and entered the “event horizon” or as it came to me earlier, “living space”.  Represented as the life pod, we have everything we need within us!  We are body and spirit integrated.  We have our big girl (or boy) panties on and are ready to explore.  Remember to have fun everybody!

Dude, increase your Amplitude!


Greetings All,

I have started to understand my quest to take on learning about the Earth element of Gold.  It seems that in this last vibrational shift we have reached a point in our evolution where we can now start to integrate our physicalness back into the One.  This is not something that will occur quickly or overnight.  We (humans) have chosen to be apart from the All for a reason.  We have learned through many lifetimes what it is like to be separate from the Source of All (however you want to name it), from each other and from the totality of ourselves.  Now we are going to start pulling ourselves back into the all.  This will take a while because we have chosen to attempt this while staying in our physical bodies. Choosing to do it the quick way is called death.  We have all done that many times too, taking little soul vacations in between trips back here.  How I currently imagine the Now scenario is to picture all the humans standing around a large tapestry.  Now imagine that we each grab ahold of a string from that tapestry and start learning how to meld with it.  Remember that melding goes both ways.  We need to melt into the All just as the All needs to melt back into us.  It is not a passive integration on the All’s part.  Of course, the All is very very vast; so first we will be concentrating on integrating the all of planet Earth (for the next few lifetimes).  This is why Lisa Gawlas has been seeing during her readings that people are being assigned to specific categories for this merger.  Some people will work with the atmosphere and air, some with the plants, some with the animals and birds, some with light and colors, some with the rocks in the Earth (I’m a rock girl.  I knew I rocked!), et cetera.  I am not the only one who is working on merging with gold, this is group effort as usual.

As to the feet chakras, I am still feeling my way along there.  I did find out some very interesting info that I will share.  This is from a meditation I did on the fifth but have not had the time to write it out other than making notes.  I did Lisa Gawlas’ Manifestation Meditation with the intent of finding out more about the chakras in the feet.  I saw the rainbow arch of energy go out–much farther then the last two times that I tried it.  Once again the energy came back to me under the ground and this time tunneled around my left foot like a little mole.  I lifted my left foot up off the ground and it had a rocket booster type of fire thing going on the bottom of the arch.  I stared at it a bit and decide to call in Gloria to help me understand.  She appeared next to me and after the greetings ended I saw a spiral of blinky white energy start to spiral down into the earth underneath my left foot.  Gloria took my hand and she grabbed on to the spiral and away we went.  The energy continued to corkscrew down into the earth and then I could see and feel that as it continued to spiral it also was doing a sine-wave up and down through the earth.  We ended up on a small square platform sitting facing each other.  I asked her about the rocket booster image that I had just seem.  She said, “You have fire on the sole of your left foot.  Fire purifies.”  “Purifies what?” I asked.  “Your intentions.  Like a forge strengthens and removes the impurities for a metalsmith, your left foot clears the cutter of your intentions.”  I think about my right foot and see a pool of still clear water in the arch of that foot.  She says,  “The right foot is the water element.  It amplifies the results back to you.  Think of the way water carries sound waves.  The whale songs for instance…”  Ok! So interesting!  I ask her for a specific activity to do to start working with both feet.  “Picture the fire and the water elongating into streams.  Now wrap them together and merge them into one.”  She tells me.  I see the streams not only merging into one another as if they are melting but that they turn into the bottom of an infinity loop.  So the energy comes down out of my body, goes into the Earth and crosses over or twists and comes back up into the other foot.  When I see the streams merge and become one, the physical area that contains the energy amplifies in volume and starts to grow up around me until it completely surrounds me.  I can feel the power in it as it surrounds me but it is my power so it feels familiar to me…it feels like confidence.  “Now open your heart and let the emotion come out.” Gloria tells me.  I see my heart chakra open and my emotion comes out (represented by tiny flying birds for some reason).  I see the flock of birds fly in a spiral down and around my body.  They are flying fast and pulling the energy of my body in tight so that the best way to describe it is that they skinny-fy and elongate my body that I am seeing in the meditation.  They fly down and into my left foot where they go through the loop in the Earth and back up into my body where they spiral up and land in my head.  Like a chicken coop in my cranium.  Gloria tells me, “You are not creating alone now. You are creating with the Earth, hence working with the element of gold. I want you just to practice cycling the energy and see what happens.”  She ends that statement with a smile.  So as usual…more fun ahead!

I ask her, “Why will I be working with and through the element of gold?”  “To increase you amplitude.” She responds.  Amplitude?  Is that a word?  I look it up and find the following at Merriam-Webster.com.


 noun \-ˌtüd, –ˌtyüd\

: a measurement that indicates the movement or vibration of something (such as a sound wave or a radio wave)

Full Definition of AMPLITUDE

:  extent of dignity, excellence, or splendor
:  the quality or state of being ample :  fullnessabundance
:  the extent or range of a quality, property, process, or phenomenon: as

a :  the extent of a vibratory movement (as of a pendulum) measured from the mean position to an extreme

b :  the maximum departure of the value of an alternating current or wave from the average value

:  the angle assigned to a complex number when it is plotted in a complex plane using polar coordinates —called alsoargument — compare absolute value 2

Fascinating!  So we have math and science combined with the quality or state of being.  All energy travels in a wave and our waves are being amped, baby!  “Why does learning to work with something specific matter?” I ask Gloria.  “You are joining forces with a part of the Earth.  Merging a part of you with a part of her.  The specificness is to learn the vibration of one thing so you will recognize the difference within your own body.  You (meaning all of us) are starting the process of merging with a higher level of vibration.  This means learning to physically interact and react to the world around you..on a deeper level then you humans already are.  You are one with her but you have separated yourselves to Experience (her emphasis).  Now you will learn how to recognize different elements of her creation around you.  To do it all at once (merge with all of Gaia) would be too overwhelming.  You each will learn specific building blocks.  Ones that you have an affinity with to start out.” She tells me.  “I have never worked with metals or stone in this lifetime.” I tell her.  “No, but the option was always there.  It was never kept from you.”  She responds.  “Is it an advantage or disadvantage that I know little or nothing about them?”  I ask her.  She laughs and says, “Neither.  Remember this is a new adventure.”

During my next meditation, I ask for more information about working with gold.  I have gone through my jewelry box and found two things with a high gold content.  The ring I mentioned last time which now needs resized if I am the wear it and a tiny thin flat gold necklace.  I hear that this is enough.  Apparently, much to my disappointment, I don’t need to be decked out like a Aztec princess in order to make a connection.  I have been wearing the necklace for a day or two at this point.  In my meditation a gold being comes to me.  He looks just like the Academy Award statue, smooth and shiny with just a hint of facial features.  “Who are you?” I ask him.  He laughs and says, “I am Gold. Who better to talk to you about it, hmm?”  “Why have you chosen me?” I ask.  “You have the ability for me to flow through you easily.”  He tells me.  “How should I go about learning how to work with you?” I ask him.  “Wear me against your skin.  Picture me melting into you and dispersing through out your body.”  As he tells me this, he runs his finger along my necklace.  I see my necklace melt into my upper chest and then see little sparks twinkle along my body as the gold disperses.  Then he starts gathering up all the gold sparks and brings them up to my heart chakra, which now looks like a glowing forge.  He puts the gold in the fire of my heart and says, “Now you can make anything you want out of it.”  The gold in the fire morphs and becomes a wide wrist cuff, then a mask, the a bunch of fine gold links and finally a gold snake arm band.  (Not random imagery, I could ponder for a page about it!)  “But I’m assuming that I am not creating jewelry…unless that is what I want.”  I state.  “Correct.  You are using the element of gold to boost you creational abilities.” He says.  “How does it do that?”  I ask.  “By the fact that you are not alone.  You are not holding yourself apart anymore.  Now you have another element that is threaded through you.”  As he tells me this, I see a gold band that goes down through me from head to toe.  I imagine for a moment what it will be like when I have more elements incorporated within me;  and get a brief glimpse of how solid I will feel.  I have that same feeling from my last meditation that I identify as self-confidence, only this time instead of surrounding me it is within and feels solid and strong.

“So I assume this is a two-way street?  As we learn to incorporate different parts of Gaia, what happens from your point of view?”  I ask Gold.  “Imagine, if you will, the joy I find at merging throughout the cells of your body, to learn the human as the human learns me.  When something melts into another, both are changed–both become part of the other until there is no discernible separation.  You are starting small. (He smiles) Your goal is to have many lifetimes full of integration while holding a physical form.  Then from there–there is always more goals.” He says with a laugh and a smile.  I tell him thank you.  He touches my chest with his finger and says, “Any time.  I am now part of you.”

Manifestation Meditation and the Element of Gold


Hello Dear Friends (New and Old),

I had a reading today with Lisa Gawlas.  She has been getting some very specific information lately in her readings.  There is so much “newness” here on Earth and with Us after last week’s awesome display of solar activity.  I was excited to talk to her, as always.  She is such an amazing lady!  A few days ago she gave out a meditation that I have been playing with for the last few mornings.  Here is her description of it.  If you read her whole post you will read an example that illustrates things more clearly.

With all of this, we are using two elements to create with.  The pure light of your soul and the sound frequency that is creation itself, wait three things, it is the emotion itself that creates the light wave.  So feel it, then see the feeling turn into light, run it up into hear ears (looking like an internal ear buds being used) then turn the frequency in your ears from static to creation sound (the sound will be different every time.)  Next watch the manifesting light stream from your head out into the field of creation (a yard or someplace other than where you are doing this.)  Pay attention to the frequency, you want a perfect backwards C shape in the bend of your light field.  You can think of it as moving from you, out into our perceived future then bringing back to your world of creation the thing you are desiring.

The first time that I tried it I was asking a question.  My throat has been “upgrading” since the large sunspot appeared and the X-flares were released.  Quite thankfully, there has been very little pain and when it does hurt it is usually for only a couple of hours. But I have had lots of swallowing difficulties, throat tickles leading to coughing fits and a new sexy whispery voice.  I asked for information on what was going on with my throat or better put, what is my new voice going to be used for.  I felt the emotion in my heart center and pictured it as light.  I pulled that up to my ears and focused there for a minute or so.  Then I arched it out from my head where it curved out and entered the soil of the Earth.  From there it came back toward me like a mole burrowing under the surface of the soil.  It reached my feet and then all these tendrils uncoiled from my ankles and feet and grabbed the energy and rapidly brought it up my body by handing it to tendrils that we lining the whole of my body.  It got to my neck and then I saw my mouth open and a big white solid-ish energy came out of my mouth in a large straight line.  It reminded me of the milky way. (Not the first time this has been seen coming out of my mouth…thank you Melissa!)  Then in my brain, I was told to remove the word “upgrade” when thinking of what is going on with me and to instead use the word “Evolving”.

Now we all know that evolution is what is going on here but this still struck me quite fiercely.  After all when we upgrade the systems on our computers, the same basic machine is operating underneath.  We are not upgrading our programing…which is easy to imagine considering that our bodies are staying whole through this drawn out shift.  It is similar to not being aware how much your child is growing until you see pictures of them from a year past.  We are INSIDE the body that is evolving…it is hard to see the growth, especially if the image in the mirror looks the same.

The second time I did the meditation was this morning.  I was only focusing on combining the energy of the emotion and the sounds within the ears.  When I did I saw the energy arch out from me like a rainbow (not rainbow-colored though) and go out in front of me.  The energy went down into the  soil of the Earth again.  This time it created a hole around it that I could look down into.  The energy moved underground again and moved toward me.  The tendrils on my ankles grabbed it again but this time the tendrils were a different color and texture.  Very interesting!  This time instead of pulling it up my body, my attention was drawn to the hole on the far end of the rainbow arch.  I pulled my consciousness down into it and there embedded in the soil was a large blue gem or crystal.  It entered into my head which then felt very heavy.  That is all that happened so I opened my eyes and started my busy day.

When Lisa called and we started my reading, I appeared to her to be standing in her kitchen in front of her stove.  I had an arch of energy that went from the middle of my feet (the arch) and travelled over to her back door.  The arch was made up of solid gold edges on both sides with a creamy white (marshmallow anyone?) filling in the middle.  There were four little golden points along both gold edges that she was told represented new tools/skills available for me to discover and use.  The white middle represented unlimited potential.  The solid gold edges were the most interesting aspect of the whole arch.  My new homework is to learn how to manifest using the elements of the Earth.  Gold being assignment #1.  I am to meditate with it,  learn it’s vibration, wear it, become BFF and then move on to learning other elements when I am ready.  What this all means, I am not at all sure.  But it sounds interesting!

The odd coincidences that surround this revelation today are many.  The first and most amazing to me is that Lisa asked if I have any gold jewelry I can wear.  I told her that I have a ring.  Two hours later, as I was driving and had time to pause and think about everything.  It occurred to me that the gold ring that I do have I found when I was 10 or 11.  I was laying on the floor of the living room of the old farmhouse where we lived and saw something glinting under the couch.  I pulled it out and saw that it was this gold ring with an inset clear stone.  I took it to my mother who was astounded.  She said, “This is a real ring!”  She then proceeded to call any woman who had visited our house for the last six years.  LOL  The owner was never found and she kept it in her jewelry box for me until I had grown enough for it to fit.  I wore that ring from age 14 until I got pregnant with my first child. Then NO rings fit any finger! I haven’t worn it since I took it off six years ago.  (Ahhh, the 6 year cycle repeats!)

Also speaking of jewelry, I have my fair share.  Mostly this is due to my mother who is quite a self taught expert on old artisan pieces.  She is an eBay shark, and finds people who are selling a bunch of pieces at once.  People who don’t realize that one of the 10 pieces is special.  She gets the one that she wants for a steal and then has all these extra items that she doesn’t need.  I end up with some of those extras, which I very rarely adorn myself with.  I forget that they exist most days of my life.  But another coincidence, I have been inspired to wear choker-style necklaces for the last few days.  So basically I have been wrapping my neck in different stones each day.  And if you will recall, in my post about transmuting the giant sunspot’s energy, my new guide (who wrapped his arms around me from behind)–was made of stone.  And we transmuted the solar energy into the Earth by funneling it through both our bodies (that were fused together).  He also gave me the homework of connecting to the Earth through my feet.  When I told Lisa about this, she told me that the root chakra is really a three-pronged chakra.  One section in each foot and one in, how did she put it…oh yeah..”the woo woo”.  LOL!!!  Well we all know about the woo woo section but apparently I am being told to concentrate on the foot sections.  Each foot has a different vibration and I need to play with it and see what they do.  Lisa wanted to tell me her personal interpretation of what each foot represented, based on her past experience, but her team said it didn’t apply.  Once again people, another example of new time, new energy, new learning that needs to happen.

I am pretty excited about a specific investigative adventure.  I know nothing about gold or the other Earth elements that I will be working with (porous rock was mentioned).  But it is fun to have a focus!  The information from today will hopefully help me figure out this “physical connection to Earth through my feet thing” that I have been assigned, after all it does help me narrow my focus considerably.  What is the most interesting and the least understood is that I can use an element of the Earth to help focus and strengthen my manifestation/creation ability.  I shall follow the bread crumbs, as usual.

I’m On Fire!


Hello Dear Friends,

Just a little status update for you!  I have been super busy bringing in the harvest, literally.  I have not had much meditation time but I could sure feel something going on.  My sense of time is totally jacked!  I seem to be able to accomplish a lot in a small amount of time but then I turn around and realize that I seemed to have leaped-frogged over an entire week.  In the now, I seem to be managing my time wonderfully.  Thinking forward or back…total “What The Hell”! LOL  It actually makes my brain start bending when my current self tries to figure it out.  So in the name of fending off dizziness, I will stop thinking about it!  Ahhh, don’t you love those easy fixes?

This morning I realized that my left hand was on fire.  Not actually mind you, but that lovely chili burn one acquires after chopping up a bunch of raw hot peppers.  I actually didn’t think much about it for a couple of hours.  I have, after all, been madly putting up all the “seconds” that are not perfect enough to sell.  Then after a couple of hours of work, it occurred to me that I hadn’t touched a hot pepper in 24 hours.  Hmmm.  I saw that Lisa Gawlas’ post today had Ignite and DNA in the title.  I drooled at the prospect of reading it as soon as I had time.  After I ate lunch, I laid down to give my feet a rest and decided to see what I could see.  I was shown my hand moving back and forth in a liquid.  Hmmm again, sorry I don’t understand, show me it in a different way!  Then I heard, “How about a sail?” and I saw my hand upright moving through the air.  So I put my thinking cap on, a rudder and a sail, both steer!  Both being shown and felt with my left hand.  The left hand symbolizes (for me) the reach for something in my physical life.  So new ability to reach and acquire things in life!  Burn away hand, burn away!  I asked then what the difference this new “ignition” would bring.  I saw a “Before” scene unfold.  I was shown myself reaching for an egg.  I picked it up and brought it into my cupped hands.  It turned into a bird and flew off bringing me joy.  In the “Now” scene, I was standing up on the front of a great ship, a la the famous scene from Titanic.  I was reaching out in front of me as the ship sailed forward.

Ok, then.  That made me think for a minute.  Why the giant boat?  What do we know about big boats?  They travel with a lot of forward momentum, aka they are hard to stop or turn.  Lesson:  Be careful what you reach for!  Have a clear mind and heart when you reach for what you want.  Oh, yes…as I type that I was reminded of one of my Super Moon meditations where this little feral pixie version of myself said that very thing to me (quite fiercely too).

And then what do I see when I do have time to read Lisa’s post?  This awesome quote!

 “You MUST be absolutely clear and concise in your communication of desires and questions and no longer being half-ass about anything!!”

Choose wisely my friends.  Have fun while doing it.  Cue the Titanic soundtrack.