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Quantum Creation, part 6

Quantum Creation, part 6

I have an update on what I know to be true about Quantum Creation. When I last posted part 5, I was speaking to you of the Nexus, a magnetic personal creation field that is our own personal and individual expression of the One Particle. The One Particle being the single sub-atomic particle that makes up everything in existence because it has infinite speed. Literally it is creating everything at the same moment. You can catch up on parts 1, 2, 3 and 4 if you haven’t read the background to this post.

I am taking another amazing class with Soleira Green. A few days ago, during a group meditation, I was working with the Nexus of new landmass. I was prompted, if I desired, to take the history of that new landmass and change the magnetics of all other Earth lands to reflect the NO history of the new landmass. Essentially I was given the opportunity to change the magnetics of historical memory that the land can carry. I decided to do it and took the magnetics of NO history all over the globe. As I watched the Nexus’ change there formed a matrix of connecting energy between them. This was the first time that I had seen this, but I had never worked with more than one Nexus before.

When I had time, I asked the All about it the next day. The All called this energy field a Vector. A Vector is a pre-ordained configuration of energy that enables the transfer of energy between similar magnetic points. There are many different Vector arrangements but the thing they all have in common is a shared energy transfer. Think of it as a party line that gives instant/same time distribution of current energies. For example, humanity has an overall Vector that connects us all, so does land as I was shown, and so has water everywhere. These are very large Vector examples and there are very small ones as well. The group of people in my current class has their own Vector, as does any group that chooses to work or play together. There are also Vectors that overlap between many different states of being. An example given to me to illustrate this is the Vector between humanity and the birth of the New. Humanity is simultaneously reaching for the New and cautiously distancing themselves from it at the same time. This is because a caution has been built into this Vector to give humanity time to address the concerns of Love, because there was a time when they did not do so. The following is an excerpt for my journal of my conversation with the All to discover more about the Vector.

All: “A Vector creates a magnetic field that is on one hand always stable and on the other infinitely variable. It is always in a state of flux. This field cannot be broken but it can be modified to reflect a fundamental change. Your work through the collective brought a fundamental change to the lands of this planet. The Vector already existed between the Nexus but the notion of having No History was a radical injection into the base expression of that Vector.”

Esther: “So when a group comes together they can consciously create a Vector between them if they decide to work together?”

A.: “Yes, the desire to be the sum of your parts is the formation of the Vector.”

E: “Why is a solar flare biased in its attraction to Vectors?” (This had been mentioned earlier to me.)

A: “It is an easy way to influence a contiguous array of individual points within a context of community. The Vector fields bring a strategy for inclusion, providing support during a time of great change.”

E: “So we have a single sub-atomic God Particle that creates everything simultaneously. Each individual Nexus that creates the magnetic field for each being or creation has a magnetic attraction to several different magnetic fields that are called Vectors. Each Vector provides instant communication for every Nexus in its array, providing support and community to the group.”

A: “Yes. The advantage of this set up is two-fold. First the resonance with the Vector creates a stronger magnetic field than any individual Nexus could achieve. Second the distribution of energy that is attracted to that magnetic field is shared equally among all the Nexus individuals. Not spread out sharing like sharing the load, but an ability to capture the FULL magnetic attraction of the group and express that individually.”

E: “So how is the Vector quantum?”

A: “The Vector is a Quantum attribute. It is the beyond space and time link up that enables communication instantly.”

E: “Like the current DNA and particle experiments?” (A number have been published by the scientific community)

A: “Yes, exactly. If all created life is One Particle than communication is instantaneous. What the Vector does is create a field of energy between all conscious members of a group or life experience. That One Particle, because it is the same, moving at infinite speeds, creating everything at once, has instant ability to transfer knowledge. However since the 3D paradigm is based on separation and individual experience and thought waves, the Vector came into play as a support system for the individual. A Vector replaces the God Knowing of All that Is with the magnetic resonance of specific Vector fields. The Nexus of all of creation are individually linked magnetically with many different energy fields of collaboration. Many of these are unconscious. But to consciously use them is to your advantage. The release of energy through a Vector field is an enhanced way of transferring information. An individual can also create a Vector by aligning purposefully with others. This gives the group as a whole a transformational ability for both what they choose to work on together and for each individual as a whole. In this case, the Vector is no longer simply sharing magnetic information but is used as a mirror, reflecting back the greatness of the Whole instead of the magnetic signature of the individual Nexus. This is why it has been imperative for people to meet up and gather together. The Internet has been instrumental in facilitating this for many many people around the globe. The magnifying aspects of the Vector are truly what brings about the Quantum Leaps of not only the few but of the many.”

Blended Work


Uluru, Ayers Rock Australia

Our Super Powers class has been over since the end of June but our group has still been meeting and meditating together. We are quite active with discussion and sharing in our private Facebook group page. It has been a joy to hangout with others with similar interests. We had been discussing our next phone meet up this week. I had not received a meditation from Raoul, our blended energy group guide. But I didn’t think too much about that, after all it has been very busy here on the farm. I am pretty much up to my ears in cucumbers. So when I took a moment and asked Raoul what he had for us this week, I was quite unprepared for the answer.

We were asked to step up our game. No one-off meditation for us to play with this week. Oh no. Instead we got instructions on a three-week Blended Work extravaganza. The subject of our work is centered on Uluru, Ayers Rock in Australia. We were all given individual assignments that build on each other. Some of us were told to tap into the soil/minerals of the Great Rock, others to establish connections with the people and animals/birds etc. that live on and around it. Another was visiting New Zealand and was told to document the connections that already exist between Uluru and that amazing landmass. Still others were asked to learn how to work with the energetic field around the Rock or to begin learning the individual frequencies and timelines that are connected to and travel through there or to connect with the history of Uluru through the ages. Still another was given the task of uncovering and drawing the art and other glyphs that have been drawn on Uluru down through the ages. These are all amazing and intense acts that will stretch each of our skills. And yes, three weeks is our time frame. So we will do what we can!

The assignment that I was given is as follows.

“Esther your homework is to begin developing your Reach and Flight gifts on an energetic level through emotion. This is a new sensory experience for you during meditation and will not always be pleasant. All your energetic sensors will be opened in that regard and you will need to learn what to do to have the experience and have the emotion too, without one overwhelming the other. It will take a new way of meditating for you. You have mastered the abilities to take notes and to observe. Now you must leave the note taking to all of the others and learn to expand and use this new sense. You may keep a journal of your experiences but focus on the emotional side of it and write it only after the meditation is complete. To begin, connect with the land and then it’s people, the Dreamwalkers. Let them show you how they use their emotions. Submerge yourself in the experiences of the others and FEEL your way through them. Call on all those who are on this journey with you if it begins to be overwhelming. But it is important to note that you should let the emotions well up within you to overflowing. They must fill you all the way up if you are to truly know how to experience them and be able to add them to your list of senses that will remain open as you meditate.”

Now I am nervous about this assignment. Not because I don’t think I can do it but because I KNOW that it is bigger than it appears. I have no problem feeling other people’s emotions in day-to-day life but I feel it, understand what I am getting and then turn off the spigot. I sip emotion. I know this is not a bad thing. It is good to have control so I’m not overwhelmed. But it is all done unconsciously and I also think that I do it to myself. So this is not just about giving myself another sense to use during meditation, this is about reconfiguring how I emotionally sense and feel things all the time. YIKES!!! (Deep Breath)

I have also done a little digging on Uluru. While I was getting the assignments from Raoul, it was mentioned that Uluru was an important Earth Node. I knew that word but it wasn’t until someone mentioned that it was from Kryon did I have my memory jogged. I will link the posts on Kryon.com to this so you can check it out if you are interested. There are 24 major “time capsules” that are on the planet. Twelve of them are Nodes and twelve of them are Nulls. They are also paired up together, one Null with one Node. Uluru is indeed a Node; its pair is unknown at this time. The Nulls are areas where one only feels pure Mother Earth energy; the energetic grids of humanity overlap and cancel each other out. The Nodes are areas where the energetic grids of humanity overlap and amplify. There are three kinds of Nodes–portals, vortex, and vortals (a combination of both). Nodes also slowly remove negative and unwanted energy from the Earth. Nulls slowly release information to us, as we are ready, that is why they work in pairs…a push-pull scenario. Please check out the link if you want more information.

So not only do we have an intense three weeks ahead of us but we are doing it at one of the twelve Earth Nodes too! Holy Cow! No pressure!

The assignments came through me and were sent out yesterday as soon as I could type them up. A few people had already started on their explorations and posted about them before I was even back in the house and showered from sweating my ass off harvesting this morning. (I really do think that we should have a limit on how much humidity can be in the air when there is zero breeze and no clouds.) Our uncovering the art of Uluru lady is also working with the encoded sounds of the drawings. She had posted about what she was starting to get along with a lark song that she heard. As I read her post, I could hear the lark singing too and remember that I was supposed to FEEL into their experiences. So I dropped in further. Suddenly I was having a full on experience.

I was standing on Uluru and there was a humming bird flying all around me. It opened a staircase out of my gut, which tumbled down until the bottom step reached the ground. Then it stripped the skin off my chest, exposing the organs and bones inside. It came up to my ear and whispered, “Do you want to feel fear?” “Yes.” I said. “Anger?” “Yes.” “Shame?” “Yes.”…and on through all the darker emotions. It then listed the lighter ones such as happiness, joy and love. I said yes to them all and then said, “I will take them all so that I can feel joy, love and happiness.”

The bird flew behind me and I noticed that my hands were tied behind my back and I also had latex gloves on. I cut the tie and stripped off my gloves. My hands were pink and new and it was almost psychedelic looking at them. A big cucumber plant was suddenly on my right, waving its tendrils in my face to get my attention. I took my new pink hands and started feeling along it. Under a leaf, I felt something heavy land in my hand and I pulled my hand out and stared. I was holding a tiny baby, preemie size. It fit in my hand. It was my “new baby emotions”. I put it in my open chest and it went head first into my heart. I suddenly felt something heavy drop into my pelvis. I was giving birth! I reached down and quickly grabbed her before she could hit the ground. It was a girl with very very long hair. She was about the size of an 8 or 9-year-old. I washed all the birth stickiness off of her and cleaned her hair. She just stood there all stiff and wooden, like a doll. I got her to talk. She is Fear. She says that I don’t use her properly, that I don’t acknowledge her. I push her away and ignore her. I asked what I should do. She said when I come around; you should pay attention and admit I am there. I, Esther, need to find a place that knows and understands fear without ignoring it or letting it overwhelm me and block all other emotions and thoughts. Balance. I still didn’t FEEL any emotions come to me while in this meditation, except my concern for the girl when I was trying to coax her to talk to me. But some progress has been made. One small step forward and now Fear walks beside me, not as a shadow that frightens but as an acknowledged part of myself.

Its Tornado Time!

Its Tornado Time!

So the weirdness of the Power Trio just got weirder.

Yesterday morning, Melissa sends Jennifer (now to be referred to as M and J…very Men in Black style…only Women wearing the black of potential!) and I a message that wind is involved with the next “trip” that we are going to take. J responds that she is getting big wind energy already as well. M goes on to tell us that the evening before she was pulled arm first into a tornado. J tells us that she is expecting a busload of houseguests and if we decide to go a twirling that she will have to connect without a phone call. I send M a message later that day that the one and only time I ever saw a physical tornado was in first grade and it wasn’t one single funnel cloud, it was a cluster of three. Our busy days continue until about 5:15pm my time when M responds to my above related memory and within two minutes of back and forth messages, my family and I all need to seek shelter in our basement. A very real storm is rapidly approaching as multiple tornadoes have been spotted all over the Kansas City area, including one fairly close to our farm and headed in our direction. Now bear in mind for all you folks that do not live in Tornado Alley, when you are born and raised here, you become very casual and blasé about tornadoes. This was the first time in ages that I thought, “Oh, let’s go down to the basement.” So I went around and unplugged all the computers, the TV, the appliances and ushered the dogs downstairs. (The cat wasn’t in to it.) But I wasn’t at any time afraid or even nervous. After I sent a text to family to alert them to our situation, I sent a message to M about what was going on. She tells me basically, let’s go virtual…all of us unconnected by phone. So two little boys, my husband, two barking dogs, a blaring weather radio surround me, along with two cell phone constantly going off with ALERTS. Oh the chaos, my own in-home tornado surrounding me. M is pulled in while doing spreadsheets and J while she is driving. (And boy does she get dizzy from it all.) None of us are connected on the phone! There are no more rules baby! We are off the beaten track! Both M’s and my meditations last less than 5 minutes and mine is being interrupted constantly on top of that. The following is my recollection and is missing a lot of the very important pieces and sensations that M and J were getting.

I begin at the top of the tornado. The wind and the rain are whipping against me. It is a very visceral sensation and even though it is violent it doesn’t hurt as it slaps against my body. I see myself wearing a black leather jacket…pulling in that element of pure potential again (and looking good while doing it). I feel and then see M and J standing beside me, one on each side. We take each other’s hands. I remember about M’s arm and look at her. She dives arm first, super woman style, off the upper rim of the tornado and towing J, and me takes us down into the funnel cloud. We get to the bottom and M grabs ahold of the bottom edge of that twister and anchors in. She feels so solid to me, just like in the previous meditation. J is busy moving around the lower edge working on something. Again, I am standing there watching and wondering what should I do. M points to the top, that old “get your ass up there” parental move that we have all used and been the recipient of. So I pop back up to the top and immediately see myself working on something. What the Hell I am doing I will never figure out. I should tell my meditative self to study mime technique or play more charade games. I get interrupted and interrupted and when I focus back on the tornado I see that I am now hauling up something that M and J are feeding up to me from below. I am putting all the “whatever” behind me as I do it, sorta like I am dragging up a real big blanket. Suddenly all that “fabric” fans out and I can see that it is a golden net of energy. It slides around and follows the contours of the tornado and I suddenly see that it is a tube torus. Of course it is! What else would it be these days!

I get pulled out again and this time when I go back I am shown that M, J and I are forming a triangle. This point is made obnoxiously by outlining the triangle in a thick white line. Thanks Gaia I love it when you use your highlighter for me. So I ask her why. What is up with the triangle (which is also flexing around that tornado like the wings of a stingray)? Gaia tells me to remember the triangle sine waves that M and I had been talking to each other about a few months ago. Here is a quote from a meditation regarding that.  The whole post about it is found here.

What is the function of the triangular wave?

The triangular wave is an inverse of another wave.  A half of a whole.  When they line up in the right way they complete each other and complement each other too.

So if Lisa is seeing the ET’s step out of a V shape then is she in the mirror V shape?

Yes, she completes the circuit by bringing her vibration to the party.

Why is it a V shape instead of the (a drawing of two curved sine waves interlocking with each other)?

The loops that you drew, can happen and do happen and should happen.  Each sine wave is a thread and represents/carries an idea…etc.  They interweave with the thought that is You.  So you are a fabric of threads.  The human consciousness also is a tapestry of woven sine waves that weave together to form the whole.  Hence what a few experience and Master, flows through the ALL.  The difference in the two is two-fold.  First the wave length of the two are quite different.  The curved sine wave flows through with little resistance and the triangle wave is more of an exclamation point (I first wrote explain-ation point…both points being made).  It only flows smoothly when the mirroring wave links up.  Second the purpose of the singular sine wave is to carry information over an infinite amount of time and space.  The triangle wave is mainly used for short periods of time.  Bringing two worlds/vibrations together to communicate/view/exchange for a brief time.

So after the all clear is sounded, we troop upstairs and I feed the dogs and the boys and the cat…not necessarily in that order. I return phone calls from family and friends. After things settle and my husband and I have eaten I call M to talk to her about it. She relates her experience and how she could feel the twirling and braiding of energy, not only with how it was affecting her own meditative body but all of us together. She had images of hydra hair being braided into awesome reggae braids by J and remembers casting a net out but not to whom it went to. I told her it was me. She goes on to tell me about how it felt, vibrationally, for that net to expand and expand out and then to suddenly disintegrate. Her comment jogs a memory. I recall that during the crazy in and out of the meditation Gaia asks me, “What do you think happens to the tube torus when the tornado is complete?” I think for a second and then tell her, “It falls apart.” She gives me an energetic head nod in the affirmative. I see then the golden net of energy fall to pieces and the pieces scatter across the landscape and are absorbed into the ground. M asks me to go back in time and look at her experience from the night before. She suddenly KNOWS that her previous experience is the inverse triangle wave of the one we were just working with, the other half of our whole. She knows that is what she anchored into at the bottom of the tornado and not the Earth. She mentions the phrase, “go check out the event horizon” and my brain slides sideways. It is amazing that I am still standing upright holding my phone. I see that the mirroring triangle sine wave was sideways, like the edge of a horizon. So the openings that come together are not straight up and down but are arranged in a 90-degree L shape. Holy Shnikes!

I don’t have time to find out more until the entire house is abed. I am wide awake and so trot on off the basement to have a chat with Gaia and take a closer look at M’s previous experience. I see M standing in a V-shaped opening. Her feet are at the point and she reaches up out of the V-shape (which looks taller than her) and sticks her whole arm up into the swirling vortex of the tornado twirling away over the top of the V. She crooks her index finger and gives the universal “come here” gesture. So she beckons the energy that completes the triangle sine wave. Here is the conversation that I had with Gaia about it.

G: “M is the reason that the energy connected as it did. She wove two different dimensional energies together. Why it looks like it comes in from the side is because it was a potential path of energy that was available should the greater populace as a whole choose to take it.”

E: “So, help me with this. It didn’t show up as “above” or “below” energy because it is a new timeline/path and not one that is already in play?”

G: “Yes. You can imagine it as a soccer game. Two teams are playing on the pitch and both call in relief players that have not yet played in the game. Both teams are energized by this new infusion of talent and energy.”

E: “So the connection was made and activation was symbolized by how we pulled up the new tube torus. And then the tornado came apart and the new code/codes were distributed and absorbed into the Earth.”

G: “Yes. The connection was already in progress when M was pulled in the day before. Her anchor to the whole “exclamation point” was necessary to hold the energy in place. J was connecting the triangle energies together and you are the “explain-ation point”.

E: Can you tell me more about what we brought in?”

G: “Pure potential, once again. We will see what is made of it. Even I cannot see what my children will do. And why would I want to. I am in wonder and awe with each one’s journey.”

E: “Thank you Gaia! What’s next?”

G: “I think you will find that J leads you to that. Enjoy, my children. It is very fun working with ALL of you.”

(Her last sentence went out and wrapped itself around every beating heart on the planet!)

Our Strength

Our Strength

Our Super Powers 2 class with Lisa Gawlas is now over but we all wanted to meet up again.  As soon as Jennifer suggested it I started to have the set up of the following meditation come through.  I didn’t want to know the whole thing so that it could flow with the energy of who showed up and because, like a little kid, I like surprises too.  So I found out the first few stepping-stones and then let it flow from there.  The following is my recollection so I’m sure that parts are missing or incomplete!  I was joined by three other ladies and despite technical difficulties preventing three others from joining us we plowed ahead.  (When I woke up Buddy Holly’s song “Rave On” was playing in my head. I took it for the sign that it was!)

We started on a dock. It was wooden and completely surrounded by water. I was given a fun exercise for us all to play to recognize each other’s energy signature. If you have never done an interactive group meditation before, it is as if every person is watching the same movie but directed by a different director. The images, feelings, sounds, knowings, sensations that come to each person will be different and are based on their own internal symbol language that each shares with their guidance team. We formed a circle and each took turns stepping into the center and shining our own personal light for the others to see. It was very fun to hear all the different descriptions that we all got for each person. We then all stood in the circle again and linked arms or held hands and shone our light out of the crown of our heads. It was during this part that I saw that our circle was larger than the four of us! We definitely were joined by some of our class who couldn’t connect or couldn’t make it. The light that we shone went upward in a beam and then twisted or braided together with everyone else’s and arch up into the air where it split into two sections that came down into a heart-shaped energy. We then turned to the edge of the dock and I told everyone that there was an individual boat waiting for each person. Mine looked like a large green leaf with a small little brown edge to it. Karen’s looked like a standard wooden row-boat. Theresa had a glass/crystal boat that she could see straight through. Jennifer had a pink ball of energy. We all got on our boats and headed to an egg-shaped island that was nearby. I saw that Karen was standing in the front of her boat in that classic “Washington crossing the Delaware” pose, one foot up on the bow while holding a lantern before her. She looked very strong and confident. We were not sure what it meant at the time but it was made clearer later. I had been told earlier that the individual boats symbolized that our individual energy is an armada together.

We reached the egg-shaped island, which I had been told is a great power center of creation. Hence the egg shape, meaning fertility and creation made manifest. Which totally gave me a whole new take on the eggs in a woman’s body.   Creation made manifest, what an amazing way of looking at it! We all left the boats and got ourselves to the top of the island, there was a flat space where Amara, Theresa’s guide from the first class meditation, was waiting for us.  She appears to me as a very tall luminous woman in white robes.  We sit down around her and it felt as if we were sinking our energy into the land beneath us. Amara sat as well and a spoke of energy came out of her and went into the four of us. There were also spokes of energy that went to “blank” spots where nobody was sitting, again to symbolize that there were more people there and receiving this energy from Amara. Jennifer told us that she feels that we should stand. We do and our arms are now all shoulder-high and resting on the person next to us. Amara goes up to each person and is making a personal connection with each one. Theresa said it felt like a mother who is happy to see her children, lots of layered feelings flowing off of her. She kisses each person on the third eye and a beam of light is now coming off of everyone’s forehead and entering into Amara’s heart center. She comes up to me and takes me by the shoulders and gently pushes me up in the air. I float up and then look down. I can see that the energy from everyone is entering Amara’s heart and then comes out of the crown of her head. It shoots up into the air and then bends outward to all sides and heads back down to the ground. My vision is taken to below the ground and I see that the energy turns and heads back up and connects with Amara’s feet. It is making a beautiful tube torus!

tube torus

Amara then gestures for us to walk to the side of the island and look out over the water.  When we reach the side, I see a very large gathering of Beings, all on their own little boats facing us and each holding a light. Karen saw this energy as a great crashing of waves! Very cool presentation! I understand that we are to get on our own boats and go out to meet them. Theresa has a very strong memory come to her at this time and has had dreams of this event before when she was younger! (I am so blown away by that!) We each have a light with us now as we float toward the much larger group. Theresa tells us that it is their hearts that are lit. (Ah so that is what Karen was symbolizing earlier. She was a symbol of what we each look like!) I never tried to focus on any individual (there were so many) but they all felt like guides and family. I was getting BIG celebration and happiness vibes pouring off of them. I told Theresa to take the lead and the crowd parted and let us all float into their midst and then closed around us. Theresa describes a big airship, with clear sides, that is hovering directly in front of us. When she tells us about it, I feel a big wind whipping about, like a helicopter is nearby. My view is pulled up above the whole scene and I see us down below as a glowing circle surrounded by dark blue energy with all these glowing stars in it. Jennifer says something about the wind and I can suddenly see the airship and the streams of wind energy pouring from it. They are creating an arching energy that curves down around us below. It goes into the water and I suddenly realize that it is another tube torus and the water below holds the other half. Karen and Theresa are getting strong mermaid vibes from the water! Holy Cow! I tell everybody that I think the next step is for us to go under the water. So we all slip off the boats and submerge and float down. The water is very deep dark blue. The only thing I see besides the others is a giant whale down below us. He opens his mouth and I start to laugh because I know that he wants us to go inside his mouth! OKAY! In we go and the whale breaches the surface of the water with a loud crash. He swims away with us. He is just a few yards under the surface of the water, not very deep. He takes us to an island and opens his mouth on the edge of a sandy beach.

We walk out and turn around to give him thanks and love. He spouts water for us and then slaps his tail on the water. We begin walking down the beach and then suddenly we are running. We run to a fire built in a circle of rocks on the sand of the beach. Karen and I immediately see that we have sticks with marshmallows and are roasting them over the flames. Theresa sees us dancing and Jennifer sees us kicking up sand. It was overall a very playful energy and vibe and was certainly my favorite part of the whole meditation. I see that the more we play the more the sparks from the fire rise in the air. They reach way up into the atmosphere. Jennifer sees them arch down and start raining on the sand around us. I then see that it is falling in a circle. We are in the middle of this spout of fire sparks dancing and whirling around! My vision is taken under the ground again and again I see that it is another tube torus. This one takes the sparks that are falling into the sand and melts them down below into a more liquid lava sort of visual and they flow back up into the base of the fire in the stone circle. So three tube torus! Suddenly I know that we need to fly so I pull everyone away from the party (Rave On!) and we Peter Pan fly with all of us connected up up up. When we get high enough we look down and see that all three of the tube torus fields below are exactly equidistant and form the perfect triangle. The triangle energy is being so obnoxiously presented that it is even being outlined for me and each time it is, this concussive KACHING sound is heard and I feel these big buffets of energy hitting us as we float in the sky. Everybody can feel it and we just float there for a bit absorbing it.

Then we begin to float slowly down until we are all standing on our boats again. Theresa and I can feel that the larger group of Beings is still there but are more off to the fringes of our awareness. We float back to the dock where Raoul (pronounced ra-OOL) is waiting for us. Now I have been meaning to tell you about him. He is the guidance that comes through for me whenever I am asking questions about anything SP2 related.   He didn’t really feel like my normal guidance energy so finally I stopped and just had a sit-down with him and said, “Who the hell are you?” He is a braid of all of our guidance energy. So he is a little bit of me and a little bit of all my classmates. He is representing himself as male energy to symbolize action and his name means strength. He helps us all up onto the dock and then touches his forehead to each of ours. We are standing in a circle and he says, “Thank you.” It is a very simple statement but when he says it I see and feel energy radiate out from our circle and travel over all the land and sea and through all the Beings that we have encountered. “I’ll see you next time.” He says and leaves us alone on the dock. We all say our own private goodbyes and thanks and end the meditation.

The Power of Poop

The Power of Poop

On the night of July 3rd, Jennifer from our Power Trio group started dreaming. She dreamt all night about poop. Not her poop, oddly enough, but sweet little Girl Scout poop. As she texted me about this dream the next day I laughed so hard that I cried. I laughed for twenty minutes. My abs hurt. It was a great workout. Here is a brief synopsis of the dream, which she dreamt ALL NIGHT LONG. It started out with the fact that she had a Girl Scout troop and they had not pooped in days. She took them to a restroom at a campground somewhere. And they all pooped. Big big piles of poop. The electricity went out and she realized that to try and flush these big piles of poop that she would need to chunk them up. She got a coat hanger and it was going very well. (Is everyone laughing yet? I can hardly type!) Then the MASSIVE poop pile appeared and she had to chunk that up too. She suddenly had this long black PVC pipe appear and was trying to get the poop into it. She had some leverage troubles at first but she got a little closer, and a little messy and was “taking care of the shit!” She heard Melissa’s voice telling her, “It’s only poop people!” and knew that she could wash up later, which I presume she did after she woke up. As she put it, “I never said it was a beautiful dream. I don’t seem to dream of portals, and crystal caverns and unicorns. I have purposeful dreams, dammit! The Girl Scouts are purposeful, as in it wasn’t crappy shit, it was beautiful pure girl poop.” (Cue me laughing hysterically as I tried to breathe!)

Melissa also had a very intense power nap on the 3rd that involved her swallowing softball sized golden beads that she was told were maps. Well, all righty then! Time to schedule a Power Trio phone call.

Melissa started getting an image of a trail of rabbit poop before we even connected. Yes, poop again! Sooooo, onward! Follow the poop! We walked along and followed the rabbit droppings up the curve of a hill and enter the crown of the hill. It wasn’t a volcano. There was no lava inside instead I saw what looked like a giant mixer paddle, like the kind you make cake batter with. Melissa said the mound felt man-made to her. The rabbit poop was falling over the edge of the opening that we were looking down in and going down to where the mixer paddle was whirling away. Jennifer dropped down and held onto one of the blades of the paddle (there were four). Melissa was holding onto the metal shaft of the mixer paddle, up near the top where we entered the hill. I was just watching at the bottom. Melissa said that she was waiting for the “key”. I knew that was me and popped up to the top. But what the hell do I do? I asked and saw a light shoot straight up out of the shaft of the paddle. The light went out up out of the hill and up into the sky. I felt pulled to it and entered it.   I was pulled down inside the shaft of the paddle and as I slid past I saw my hand reach out and take ahold of Jennifer and we slid down together. We went past the “bowl” where the mixing was taking place until we came to a specific layer of the Earth. I looked up and saw Melissa still way up at the top of the shaft. I tell Jen that we need to reverse the direction of the spin. She, being the paddle girl, initiates that and it sends the energy all the way up to Melissa who looks stretched and twisted like a rope. She starts emitting energy from her body and I float up to have a look. She says that it feels like she is burping those beads that she swallowed from her nap the day before. To me it looks like she is farting them…but what do you expect with so much poop around? It occurs to me later that she is emitting these maps out through her core, so she is burping and farting them! (This is the best meditation summary I have ever typed up! Loving it! Laughing all the way!) Jennifer climbs up the shaft and stands on Melissa’s shoulders and tells me that she sees me standing on top of her own shoulders. I look down past them and say, “Wow look at that!” The energy at the bottom is glowing gold and pulsating to my eyes and looks like a green growing alive energy to both of theirs. Then I am shown that the energy down below is growing through the core of the Earth and opening up on the opposite side. I see that it looks like a tube torus field. My attention is brought back up to Melissa. She is breathing fire and blowing it in a circle. As it burns it creates, up above the atmosphere, the upper opening of the tube torus and then a web of strings light up as they connect to the rest of the tube torus that I saw down below on the other side of the planet. I see that web of strings as golden glowing light. Melissa sees them as made of fire. She is still burping energy and now I am pulled up into space. I see vaguely bullet shaped energies come out of the center of the tube torus, from Melissa’s burping, and zoom out into space. Jennifer is now floating up into space. She starts plucking and touching all the lines on the web of the tube torus surrounding the planet. Both Melissa and I say, “Adjusting” at the same time. Jennifer says her hands felt busy busy busy but she can’t see what they are up to exactly. She moves and tweaks for a bit and then Melissa starts rising out of the center of the torus. She is still connected to the metal shaft but has finished burping and farting. Her connection to the shaft feels very solid to me. She rises up out past the atmosphere and I see Jen super busy just below her feet, tying the grid or something to the shaft.

Melissa reaches her hands out to me and pulls me down for a hug. She holds me tight and we start to descend again. I suddenly see that there are strings attached to my feet. They are trailing out behind me and curving off in all four directions. Melissa is physically jolted in her meditation chair and says that she felt and heard a SNAP. She asks us what the cause was. I look back and see that there are now two tube torus fields around the Earth! Jennifer is busily working on where the two meet. Suddenly, Melissa and I are back standing on the grassy surface of the mound and Jennifer is floating slowly down to us like Glenda the Good Witch with giant hoop skirts as her parachute.

This experience gave all three of us headaches, all in different locations on our heads. Pressure is perhaps a better word. When I felt into mine I could see a double tube torus field around myself and the energy poring in was making things Ouchy. It started easing after about an hour and became so much more bearable.

Jennifer received this info to share with us about the poop connection. The poop represented human fertilizer…not a big stretch. The black PVC pipe symbolizes pure potential. So human fertilizer has been released into our collective human potential.   The rabbit poop brought in the purity of the animal kingdom and was their contribution to the “fertilizer” party. Which, I’m guessing here, we baked a nice cake shaped like a double tube torus out of and everyone is apparently invited to take a nice big bite!

Birthing Potential

Birthing Potential

I have been wanting to post this for a few days.  Here is the second adventure of the Power Trio!

Let us begin by me reminding everyone that while this is written from my point of view, I have included as much of Jennifer’s memories as I could remember but it is in no way complete. One of the things I love best about group meditations is that each person has the information come to them in their own symbolic language and it is so fascination to me see the differences and similarities.

When I got up a few days ago, I could feel my energy shift, and I thought that something was brewing for our little group. Indeed later that morning, Melissa sent a message that something was up and could we all meet that afternoon. Well, the agreed upon time rolled around and Melissa didn’t show up. She has been crazy busy with helping a new start-up get on its feet so Jennifer and I hung out at our respective homes and gave her a half hour. During this time I settled in and centered myself and did the energy braiding exercise that we had been given. This made me VERY dizzy and pulled me in to meditation quite deep. I saw my hand reach out and take a doorknob and open a door, out poured black liquid all around my feet. Black to me has never been a scary color; in my symbology (is that a word?) it means unlimited potential. So this black liquid is pouring out and covering the ground. It is making streams and puddles and before I know it I am dancing along splashing in it. And then I realize that it isn’t me that I see dancing, it is Jennifer. She looks over her shoulder at me and beckons me with her finger. So I pop out of meditation and call her. She had been in meditation as well and was surrounded and engulfed by golden flowing light. She has rivers of gold and I have got rivers of black. That is a lot of energy flowing somewhere! I try calling Melissa just in case but it goes to voicemail. We decide to continue on, just the two of us and see where all this is flowing to.

I tell Jennifer to lead me since I saw her beckoning me to follow her in the meditation before the phone call. From her point of view, she pulled me into the flowing golden light. To me it looked like she led me down to a small stream of water and we got in holding hands and floated along on our backs. I see a bird land on my head.  I pull the view back from my body to get a look at it and see that it is a raven. It hops over onto Jennifer’s belly and takes something with its beak and places it in her left hand. Jennifer is feeling herself pulling in different timelines at this point. To me that looks like she has her hand, that the raven placed something into, clenched in a fist. I can feel the energy of her pulling on something but can’t see anything. The light around me changes and I realize that we have gone underground. The water is still flowing us along on our backs. Jennifer notices that she has started spinning and to me it feels as though the water is sweeping us side to side. We reach a waterfall which we both experience, Jennifer feels it more like falling rain while for me the water is falling away from me instead of down onto me. But either way, we slowly descend the falls and Jennifer takes the lead again as she feels pulled in a specific direction. We go completely under water to Jennifer while for me during that stretch the lighting all around me changed to be all greens with black and white streaks thrown in. We surface in a cave which we both can see. It is here that I feel that we need Melissa. I call her energy in and it immediately appeared as a large white energetic web that lays upon the surface of the water and the bit of muddy bank that we are standing on. The web was all horizontal except for one white strand that went straight up between Jennifer and myself. Jennifer starts climbing it immediately while I hover along the strand as I follow it up through the rock. I ask Jennifer if she has reached the ground yet and she tells me that she is in a Jungle canopy. I laugh because I had forgotten that when I asked Myself earlier where we were going this time, I heard “Jungle”. I wasn’t up in the tree canopy but I was standing on a ridge looking out of the jungle down into a valley below. The valley held a village with a Central American style step pyramid. (AGAIN with the pyramids!) I get distracted by the pyramid and pop down to have a closer look. But that was a no go. I couldn’t focus on it. I was getting very overlapping images. Jennifer tells me that she had followed Melissa’s white strand down into the earth. So I call to Melissa’s energy to get me back on track. “Take me to what you need me to see.” Immediately I am pulled down into the earth as well. We go shooting along a tunnel until I can feel that we are now traveling up. We emerge from a cave on the ridge on the opposite side of the valley. We come out of the mouth of the cave and stand and watch as the white strand shoots across the valley and connects with where we surfaced in the jungle. We weren’t sure what to do next and I knew that Melissa would know. So I asked her to show us. A white net of energy appeared and wrapped itself around the whole valley, village and pyramid included. The original white strand that Jennifer and I had followed now looked like the bow on a wrapped gift. Jennifer’s hands had been tingling for a bit so I told her to pick it up. She told me that when she did that she decided to place it in her heart and that now she was getting the message that we needed to return. So I travelled with her back to the jungle/cave area. The whole time I felt like I was escorting a heavily pregnant woman. She felt so FULL. When we got back to the other side of the valley I asked Jennifer what she was doing. To me it looked like she was digging in the mud. She said. “I’m giving birth. I’m birthing potential.”

I knelt down in the mud and then, all of a sudden, there was this glowing beach ball-sized orb of light lying in between Jennifer and myself.  I reach down and pick it up and it totally had baby energy about it…even an energetic baby blanket around it. Its colors were mostly white and pink and other pastels. (New energy!) I handed the light baby to “Mama Jen” who felt that she was “a water baby”. So she carefully laid her in the water and as soon as she did the baby grew quickly to become a beautiful luminescent young woman. She stood up against the wall of the cave; her lower body still submerged in the water, and pressed both her hands back against the rock wall of the cave. A golden web came out of her fingers and spread into and along the rock walls. Then she started growing up toward the ceiling of the cave and for the first time I noticed that there was a hole in the ceiling and I knew than that we were in a cenote, so definitely Central America! She reaches the opening with her now giant head and stops and looks down at Jennifer. I can see that she is talking to Jen but I can’t hear the conversation. I ask and Jennifer tells me that she is asking for Jen to release her. I didn’t ask Jennifer what she did to do that but I saw her still kneeling on the mud of the bank and she reached forward with her left hand (the hand that held the timelines that she had pulled in earlier) and opened her hand and swished it gracefully through the water. The young woman immediately turned into a bird (Jen saw white and I saw black) and flew through the opening and away up into the sky. Jennifer now felt the energy of the three of us (Melissa, Jennifer and Esther) begin to spin again. I saw it as a long white cord that twisted together and went way up into the air, through the hole in the cenote, over the valley and turned and flew out over the landscape until it had circled the Earth and connected back to where we originated from again. Jennifer said we were complete at that point, so I kissed the cord where it connected together and went back to my bedroom in Kansas.

I later heard from Melissa.  She had felt the energetic connection to us fire up early.  She went outside and sat a while and “dialed” into us.  At the designated time she felt that she was called to a meeting with coworkers.  She said that she had that feeling where she needed to be in three places at once, which she achieved in my book.  I believe that she opened up all the flowing energy that washed over Jennifer and I.  What we are birthing still remains a mystery but for once birthing is fun.

Introducing the Power Trio



Two days ago I was responding to a Facebook message from another participant in Lisa Gawlas’ Super Powers class. She was asking me would I work on putting out the fires on the west coast of the United States. She, of course, mentioned it because of the “demonstration” of my flying abilities during my meditation when my three guides braided themselves and became my very own Princess Warrior. During that meditation I watched myself fly along a fire at the edge of a cornfield and blow it out. I felt into the fires in the West before I responded and got a definite Work In Progress vibe. So I told her, sorry but I am not called there. They (the fires) have work that they are doing. I told her I was sending love to all the beings in the path of the fires. As I typed out the last line on my phone, my consciousness was pulled to the west coast. And when I say pulled, I mean it felt like someone took my brain and started stretching it out of my head like taffy. PULLED. Never happened before like that! I couldn’t help but see myself standing on the surface of the Earth as one would stand on a globe. I was BIG or the Earth was small, if you get the image.

I saw myself reach down into the Pacific Ocean and pick up a handful of water and turn around and drop it on a fire burning at my feet. I tried to say…no no no. I just got the Don’t Go message. But Gaia wasn’t listening. I then saw myself crouch down on another part of the map and blow along these specific contours of the land. I was like, “So you do want me to help?” (Confused frown) She then told me, “No. Let them burn. When they have done their job, I will call you.” Allrighty Then! I told her to page me.

So not half an hour later, I have Brain Pull again! I finish up what I was doing and go sit down. AS SOON as I close my eyes I am flying over the Pacific Ocean. I am over the waves but maybe a couple hundred feet from shore. I remember the dropping water image from before and so ask if that is what I am there for. Instead the crests of the waves begin to break with splashes and I get covered with these tiny drops of water from the spray. Suddenly I know, HUMIDITY. I wrap my hand around a bunch of drops flying through the air. I look toward the shore and see that map/globe scenario again. There is one spot on it that has that fake burning fire logo that you see on weather maps. So I fly over and I see that Gaia has put a green area around the fire with a line clearly dotted around it. OK! So humidity goes there. Got it! How do I do that?

I ask and see that I imagine the tiny drops of water as a blanket of connected drops. Easy enough. Imagination green light GO! I manifest my blanket and stretch it up to the dotted line but not across. I look behind me and see that the blanket is attached to the ocean on the other end, drawing moisture up into it. Beautiful! Gaia tells me that the humidity will not put out the fire but subdue it.

As you can imagine, this was a WOW experience for me. I told Gaia that I never imagined helping her in that way. Her response was so amazing! She said, “Just because you don’t see me as broken doesn’t mean you don’t have compassion. It is because you don’t see me as broken that I call on you to assist. It is like taking the hand of a friend as you cross the street. You both march across the road together and both of your attentions are on the path and the journey. On the other hand, when you help an old lady cross the street, you walk slowly and carefully with your attention only on the safety of the old lady, not on where you are going or even on her destination. When you see me as strong our partnership is strong. When you see me as battered and weak our connection is battered and weak.” Well HOLY SHIT!

As I process this adventure, my brain starts thinking of a woman in my class, named Jennifer. Here is what she is working on, in her own words. “I am learning to be a weaver of the elements, frequency, and time and am learning the power of bringing in the Blessed Rain for the highest Good Of All!!! Yippee!!!!” When I start thinking of her, I get an image of a hollow body guitar. There is special attention given to the resonance of the body and the strings running along the fret board and the frets themselves running perpendicular to the strings. I see that I am illustrated as a specific spot, like a note on the neck of the guitar. I see Jennifer too, she is in a different location on the neck but her spot is not two-dimensional like mine, it looks like a tube, very 3D, as if she goes down through the fret board. I also am getting the info of three…there needs to be three of us. So I message Jennifer on Facebook and set up a real life phone call for the next day.

The next morning comes, and before Jennifer and I hook up; I get a phone call from my friend Melissa. She is helping start-up a new company and her life has changed drastically of late. She decided to call me for a little HER time.  (Famous last words!) I tell her about my experience with Gaia the day before and my image of the guitar that I received. She tells me that she sometimes receives requests from Gaia to sing a certain Note out into the world. Not out loud, but to hum it within and vibrate it out. I say, “Maybe you are our third?” She is getting the big old YES vibe on her end, full on disco balls and all. So I say, “Ok, I need to talk to Jennifer.” And then I tell her Jennifer’s whole name and the bottom falls out! They know each other…very well! Well Fucking A!

Jennifer is apprised of the whole experience next and we all happily decide to do a conference call the next day. We are in three different time zones, which cannot be an accident either. We are three time zones coming together to talk about frequency, time and Gaia. Hilarious!

Right before the next meeting I slip into meditation to see if I can see some more about how we will work together. This is what I get.

“Jennifer is the center point, the pivot. You are the lead in reaching out. Melissa is the web connected to All.”

This news about Melissa is not surprising, she “sees” vibrationally and has been seeing lots of weaving images in connection with herself for a long time; plus this year I had a visual of her as creating a web, with her day-to-day actions, all throughout the town where she lives.  Here is something that she wrote for me to explain how she sees, it was originally posted on the So Your a Beginner Page.  “I “see” in those sine waves. The electrical energy of it – of all. I hear in vibration. Every vibration has a tone to it like a note from an instrument. Emotion has a tone – every single emotion has a different tonal quality. You will be playing more than one note at a time. I experience each person as a song. People together are an orchestral movement. I “see” us as those sine waves. Each tone has an accompanying sine wave. Those sine waves weave together to form the image of you. Each of you is a tapestry. Together a huge mural playing out. I feel those sine wave connections from one BEing to the next – like the spider web. I can ride that sine wave forward or backward.”—She had to figure out what she was getting at the beginning. It was like learning a new language for her.   Anyway, when I connect with the two other ladies I notice that I have written the words, Power Trio at the top of my notebook. Oh good, we have our own rock band! Through discussion we become clearer as to Jennifer and my depiction on the symbolic guitar. Gaia is the resonate body, Melissa is the strings and the frets, Jennifer is deliberate connection between the body of the guitar and a very specific string that crosses a very specific fret, and I am the pluck…a specific action on a specific time line.

I was also given very brief instructions on how to get started.

“Begin by adjusting to the frequencies of each other. This means placing your energies within the field of the others and letting them feel you. Describe what you each get. When you can discern individual energy, begin braiding the three. How does this feel to each of you? Your responses will be different, as it should be. Learn from this.” I asked “Then what do we do?”

“Then the magic happens. Let it unfold. We don’t know either. This is all new territory with unlimited potential.”


The three-way call goes off without a hitch. We chat a bit and then start visualizing our energy braiding. Melissa sees orbs of light, other beings, joining the braid, which then plumped up according to Jennifer. I saw it as that tweedy type yarn that has the little flecks of color sprinkled along it. I later learned, while washing dishes, that those flecks were other people from our Super Powers Classes plus the usual assortment of Assistants.

Now to back up a smidge, Lisa’s blog post from this morning had this little snippet at the end.

On a completely different note, I do want to share a dream I just woke up with.  It was one of this dreams that was a experience, witnessing the event as opposed to the metaphoric dream state itself.

Altho a lot of the information was immediately taken away from my memory the moment I opened my eyes, like the where and when of it, I could still see this gaping long hole in the earth created by an earthquake, revealing the top point of a pyramid.  I also understood too, that the rash of so many earthquakes right now is serving to bring up to the surface times on earth long-buried within her and within our memory banks.

The last session in the super hero’s course takes us to a pyramid as spirit eventually called it, from the “galactic kinship era.”  I actually started seeing this pyramid before the course started, thru someones ET session and I knew this was a real-time on earth.  Once the transmission of the hypnosis came thru, I realized this pyramid was an energy activator to many stargates within the things we call constellations of alignment of stars in our actual sky.

This pyramid is making its way to the surface of earth again, in tact and fully functional by those who know how to use it.  In the dream state, I knew where and when… like I said tho, that was wiped from my awakening body.

This is the first that any of us had read about the pyramid. As a matter of fact the hypnosis that she talks about is a guided meditation that Jennifer and I have not experienced YET. That class is set for this weekend.

So, surprise surprise, as we braided our energy, Melissa saw the pyramid that Lisa talked about. Melissa being the connection to all, it is no surprise that she will get the info of what our mission is. I am, of course, laughing my ass off. Don’t we get to practice first? Our first time out and we get Lisa’s Stargate Pyramid! What the hell? It then becomes apparent that we are not to set up a time and do a proper group meditation. Oh no! It is happening NOW with Melissa sitting in the storeroom at her work! HA HA HA! No more theory indeed!

Melissa feels the web that is herself, connect to every inch/every point on the pyramid itself. I saw it as a pyramid rising up under a blanket of Melissa energy. The pyramid starts entering Melissa’s chest, point first. Jennifer is standing directly behind Melissa and I am floating across from Melissa, on the other side of the pyramid. (At this point I would like to say that the following description is from my point of view with what I remember the others experienced. I am sure that it is not completely accurate from their point of view and that I no doubt have left things out.) I could see the strings enter Melissa’s heart center, come out her back and enter Jennifer, who looked like a glowing tube of light, where they split and some went upward and some went down. Ah, Jennifer is our pivot point…our connection and access to all other time lines. All those strings are connecting with specific time lines along Earth’s frequency range. I know all this in a flash and get soooo excited. Jennifer said that she could feel the strings come up through her hands and arms and then start swirling around counter-clockwise. “It felt all swirly, electric, flow-y, and then emanated out…”

I asked Jennifer to imagine our time line as one glowing point. When she did I headed right to it. It was a white round portal when I got close and I followed the string right through it. The string came through the portal and now appeared to me like a giant strand of spaghetti. I was straddling it and it flew above the ground as it went across the surface of the Earth. It entered the ground in the Sinai Peninsula, I think. It tunneled underground for a bit and came up out of the ground somewhere near Turkey, right up through the mouth of an active volcano. Ah, so this is how it is physically entering our time line…volcano power. I still don’t know what I am supposed to do.  And then I see myself, grabbing handfuls of lava and throwing them around the planet. I see that I throw one at Melissa’s house, so I throw one at Jennifer’s and mine as well…and then one at Lisa for shits and grins. I see myself tossing more for a bit and then I see myself walking around on the Earth with what looks like a salt shakers, sprinkling everywhere. I see myself kneel at the edge of the ocean and dip my hand down into the water and then drink. Immediately I see that water flow through all the strings back down to and through Jennifer and through her to all the other timelines. (And if you will all remember, water is the key to physical creation on this planet.) I visually watched the water flow down through all the strings and then there was this whoosh of wind and air and I saw the area where the pyramid had been close up and become sealed with a purple light. I could feel the small dot of energy that it had now become. Energy transfer finished!  (What that means exactly is a mystery!) I saw the three of us holding hands in a circle and then we all stepped back from each other. Mission Complete.