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Quantum Creation, part 8

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Quantum Creation, part 8

Hello friends, in part 7 of this series, I did my best to find the words to describe the Now.  I explained how I have come to understand the Quantum paradox of the Now.  The next step is to understand that the Quantum in general is always in the Now.  How is this explained?  To start off with the Quantum only exists as a creational force for the physical state of Being.  The Quantum is the paradox, consisting of the Everything and the Nothing, which was created to create a paradoxical physical world of both separation and unity.  That physical world only exists and is interactive in the paradox of the Now.

The closer you get to your awareness of the Now, the closer you get to instant manifestation.  It doesn’t take much to feel your way into the Quantum of the Now.  Are you sitting in a chair?  Are you breathing?  Do you see a tree outside the window?  Are you in love with life?  Just feel into yourself and the Knowing that you Created it all and that you are in the Creation.  Become aware of yourself and your abilities.  And since you are aware, lets look at how You and your Abilities affect Everything Else.

Remember those Vectors that we talked about in part 6?  The Vectors connect separated physical expressions to provide stability and cohesive understanding in a created world of separation.  Vectors are conscious and unconscious energetic magnetic alignments that are built or created between all things.   The Vectors are aligned with your ability to manifest.  Manifestation is the release of a conscious creation into the physical of the Now.  Vectors are aligned with this because the very nature of providing stability and support in a world of separation has created the framework for a biased energetic approach to responding magnetic attraction.  This means that when you become a frequency, you attract that frequency in all things, simply because you are the Creator and you are living in your Creation.  So what do the Vectors have to do with the Now?

The Vectors are the relay system that creates growth, opportunities and system rewrites for large energetic partnerships instantaneously.  Vectors are not just between groups of people or any of the other human to non-human examples that I gave you in part 6. There are also Vectors that connect us to things like the Economy, Art, Technology, Agriculture, Health, Education, Life Expectancy, and all other aspects of human community life.

Another aspect of a Vector is that it is set up and functions as a translator.  This means that the release of one individual from a thought pattern or system creates the ability, through all their connected vectors (of which there are MANY), to make that choice available to all other individual participants in those vectors.  And because of the Vectors function as a translator, non-human participants like the economy or soil or art or gravity are given instant options of what that means for their expression of self.

For example, the more that your knowledge of self grows, the more the Vector of Self Awareness resonates like a pebble hitting the surface of a pond, with your new knowledge.  The more other individual participants in that same Vector choose to explore that knowledge of self, the more that all the other Vectors attached to all the active participants begin to resonate as well with their own translation of that knowledge.  Your one change in yourself affects Everything;  no energy system stands alone.  This is all happening without conscious awareness or understanding by humanity or any of the human systems involved.  It is a built in transfer of magnetic energy.

However, when you are aware of your Now and understand your Abilities in the Now, when you shift an understanding of self, you are like a Boulder hitting the surface of that pond.  The impact on the Vector is instant, cumulative and seismic.  It is no longer that you are creating a new option for the participants of the Vector in question, but you create a fundamental shift in the foundation of immediate creation for all participants, whether they are aware of it or not.  It is a new way of doing business and it is instituted immediately.  This is why the Now is so powerful.

Quantum Creation, part 7 (The Now)

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Quantum Creation, part 7 (The Now)

Hello Everyone!  This is a continuation of the Quantum Series, only we are going Beyond Quantum from this point onward.  This means we are taking what we know of the energetic understanding and bringing it into the physical realm that you and I actively live in, in a very physical way.  It all starts with the Now.   You, Me and Everyone’s Mother and Great Uncle have been talking about the Now for literally Ages and Ages.  For me it was always a centering into my physical body, a conscious attention to the breath entering and leaving, a deliberate step away from the emotional and mental thoughts of the past and the future.  And let me say, this is a brilliant place for us all to start.  But a week ago my understanding deepened into something so much more.  This is where words become limitations; but it is so important that I try to explain my New Now.

The Now is not a moment; it is a Beingness.  It is a Self-AWARENESS.  The NOW is physical.  It is where you interact with the world around you.  You don’t interact with the future and you don’t interact with the past.  You interact with Everything Now.  When you know yourself enough to KNOW that you are a Creator, then you become AWARE that the NOW is the Creation.  When you understand and KNOW that NOW is the Creation, then everything that you have created becomes available to you immediately in the physical.  The NOW shows you the Quantum Paradox that Time is, a realization that the spiral of time is all happening at once and happening all throughout time.  As a Creator when you are aware of your Now, you basically collapse all Time and feel the physicality of Everything.  Even if you don’t see it, you feel the certainty of all your creations, despite the seeming contrary evidence around you.  For me, it is literally a physical sensation in the center of my chest, a knowing that it is here Now and available right Now.

In the Now the Creation (YOU) and the Creator (YOU) become ONE.  YOUR awareness begins first with your physical body, the feel of your chest rising and falling, the sounds you hear, the feel of your feet on the floor or the chair under your bum, the sights that your eyes see, the taste of food and drink in your mouth, the smell of life and living around you.  These are all interactions of a living being in a living world.  Do you doubt that these are all real?  Do you wish to separate yourself from the physicality of living a physical life?  Because that rather defeats the purpose of choosing to become physical in the first place, otherwise you would have remained in another energetic understanding of Self.  Instead think of it as a physical being realizing that they are not just physical and then taking everything they have learned back into physical life to enhance and evolve the physical experience.

This body is your creation of Self.  It is your manifestation of Life and very much worth living for all its worth.  And all the other things you see, hear, touch, taste and smell are your Creations as well.  How can you not have access to MORE when you have already created an incredible physical body and a world to live in?  That is where the NOW comes into play.  The NOW is Alive with energy.  The Now is the point of contact with the physical.  The NOW is a Quantum experience in your physical existence.  The Quantum Now is not something to step into.  It is simply you being aware of yourself as the Creator, Being in the Creation.

Quantum Creation, part 6

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Quantum Creation, part 6

I have an update on what I know to be true about Quantum Creation. When I last posted part 5, I was speaking to you of the Nexus, a magnetic personal creation field that is our own personal and individual expression of the One Particle. The One Particle being the single sub-atomic particle that makes up everything in existence because it has infinite speed. Literally it is creating everything at the same moment. You can catch up on parts 1, 2, 3 and 4 if you haven’t read the background to this post.

I am taking another amazing class with Soleira Green. A few days ago, during a group meditation, I was working with the Nexus of new landmass. I was prompted, if I desired, to take the history of that new landmass and change the magnetics of all other Earth lands to reflect the NO history of the new landmass. Essentially I was given the opportunity to change the magnetics of historical memory that the land can carry. I decided to do it and took the magnetics of NO history all over the globe. As I watched the Nexus’ change there formed a matrix of connecting energy between them. This was the first time that I had seen this, but I had never worked with more than one Nexus before.

When I had time, I asked the All about it the next day. The All called this energy field a Vector. A Vector is a pre-ordained configuration of energy that enables the transfer of energy between similar magnetic points. There are many different Vector arrangements but the thing they all have in common is a shared energy transfer. Think of it as a party line that gives instant/same time distribution of current energies. For example, humanity has an overall Vector that connects us all, so does land as I was shown, and so has water everywhere. These are very large Vector examples and there are very small ones as well. The group of people in my current class has their own Vector, as does any group that chooses to work or play together. There are also Vectors that overlap between many different states of being. An example given to me to illustrate this is the Vector between humanity and the birth of the New. Humanity is simultaneously reaching for the New and cautiously distancing themselves from it at the same time. This is because a caution has been built into this Vector to give humanity time to address the concerns of Love, because there was a time when they did not do so. The following is an excerpt for my journal of my conversation with the All to discover more about the Vector.

All: “A Vector creates a magnetic field that is on one hand always stable and on the other infinitely variable. It is always in a state of flux. This field cannot be broken but it can be modified to reflect a fundamental change. Your work through the collective brought a fundamental change to the lands of this planet. The Vector already existed between the Nexus but the notion of having No History was a radical injection into the base expression of that Vector.”

Esther: “So when a group comes together they can consciously create a Vector between them if they decide to work together?”

A.: “Yes, the desire to be the sum of your parts is the formation of the Vector.”

E: “Why is a solar flare biased in its attraction to Vectors?” (This had been mentioned earlier to me.)

A: “It is an easy way to influence a contiguous array of individual points within a context of community. The Vector fields bring a strategy for inclusion, providing support during a time of great change.”

E: “So we have a single sub-atomic God Particle that creates everything simultaneously. Each individual Nexus that creates the magnetic field for each being or creation has a magnetic attraction to several different magnetic fields that are called Vectors. Each Vector provides instant communication for every Nexus in its array, providing support and community to the group.”

A: “Yes. The advantage of this set up is two-fold. First the resonance with the Vector creates a stronger magnetic field than any individual Nexus could achieve. Second the distribution of energy that is attracted to that magnetic field is shared equally among all the Nexus individuals. Not spread out sharing like sharing the load, but an ability to capture the FULL magnetic attraction of the group and express that individually.”

E: “So how is the Vector quantum?”

A: “The Vector is a Quantum attribute. It is the beyond space and time link up that enables communication instantly.”

E: “Like the current DNA and particle experiments?” (A number have been published by the scientific community)

A: “Yes, exactly. If all created life is One Particle than communication is instantaneous. What the Vector does is create a field of energy between all conscious members of a group or life experience. That One Particle, because it is the same, moving at infinite speeds, creating everything at once, has instant ability to transfer knowledge. However since the 3D paradigm is based on separation and individual experience and thought waves, the Vector came into play as a support system for the individual. A Vector replaces the God Knowing of All that Is with the magnetic resonance of specific Vector fields. The Nexus of all of creation are individually linked magnetically with many different energy fields of collaboration. Many of these are unconscious. But to consciously use them is to your advantage. The release of energy through a Vector field is an enhanced way of transferring information. An individual can also create a Vector by aligning purposefully with others. This gives the group as a whole a transformational ability for both what they choose to work on together and for each individual as a whole. In this case, the Vector is no longer simply sharing magnetic information but is used as a mirror, reflecting back the greatness of the Whole instead of the magnetic signature of the individual Nexus. This is why it has been imperative for people to meet up and gather together. The Internet has been instrumental in facilitating this for many many people around the globe. The magnifying aspects of the Vector are truly what brings about the Quantum Leaps of not only the few but of the many.”

Quantum Creation, part 5

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Quantum Creation, part 5

Welcome back to my Quantum creation exploration! At the end of the last post, part 4, the New was speaking about the I Am. (You can read parts 1, 2, and 3 here.) I knew at once that the I Am had great bearing on the One particle, in particular with the One particle as it created me, Esther. Nothing is in isolation in the Quantum, so I understood that every change I make to the One particle that creates me, I gift out to everything else. It was a blog post from Lisa Gawlas that motivated me to exploring the I Am aspect of Quantum creation. Here is a journal entry from the All about the I Am.

All: “The I Am is very powerful. The brain is the only organ in the human body that does not transfer soul understandings into the thought patterns that repeat. Instead it takes its cues from the human experience. This is now changing. You have experienced the power of thought. Now experience the power of becoming anything that you want and need. You are the New Growth of civilization. Watch it Shine.”

Esther: “When I am in the Quantum and “I Am” something, what happens to the Everything?”

A: “The Everything becomes what you are claiming.”

E: “So all expressions are instantly effected?”

A: “You are the All. It follows your lead. Every expression, as you call it, every world event, every moment takes the I Am and creates it NOW. What you influence is the dynamic of Change. All spirals are affected. Every building block is affected. What each life expression chooses to do with that shift is entirely up to them.”

So I began to work with the I Am. I was very excited about it for I could feel that the statement/belief was magnetic. But for a number of days it didn’t seem to be capturing any emotional resonance. Emotional resonance for me is the emotion that rises in your chest when you have hit the sweet spot. The Oh Yes That’s It moment. To back up a bit, emotion (Love) is the true creative force, the signature that connection has happened between you and what you are creating. The more love that you feel (quality not quantity), the greater the transformation of yourself. This is why Love is so important to accessing the Quantum. If you cannot truly love the Everything no matter how terrible some of the expressions of life seem to you, if you cannot love all life (which includes all actions created by the living) as an expression of life, then you limit your connection to the Everything. If you cannot truly love the Nothing as it is then you cannot enter the Quantum. Love is expansive, huge, and all-encompassing. Fear is limiting, small and isolating.

I returned to ask the All what I needed to do to get the emotional resonance. And I found out I was acting way too small! Hahahaha! I can I Am away all day about money or health or relationships or whatever but I am not reaching a Quantum level of creation with any of it. It can reprogram your brain’s thought patterns that the All mentions above; but the brain doesn’t have emotion and emotion is definitely needed to expand that thought into the One particle and share it out with the Universe. I asked for a better way and the All gave me this.

“I AM the Nexus of community, availability, progress and advancement; and in this space I AM Creation, I AM Love, I AM Peace and I AM Fulfilled.”

 There it was! Emotional resonance found! I felt creation, love and peace but mostly I felt fulfilled. All of my needs and desires naturally are drawn to me in a fulfilled state. The magnetics of the I Am resonate on this level like no other! Think Big! I had kept sliding down into thinking small, resonating small, creating small. Quantum work is HUGE!

Let us talk about magnetics and the One particle. The One particle, moving infinitely fast, makes up my body, and everything else. You can say that it is literally everywhere at the same time. So it is with me always and is always moving. It is every possible vibrational experience in creation. The One particle is magnetic and obviously knows intimately the magnetics of everything else. Therefore, whatever I Am, I attract similar I Am’s to me. So what am I? What are we? We are the Nexus mentioned above. We are the thoughts and beliefs that we hold. This Nexus surrounds the One Particle as it continually zips around creating our personal physicality. We have all worked a long time to change who we are, how we think, what we believe, what we love and what we fear. This is all Nexus work. Every expansion of ourselves has immediate effects on the One Particle. This is why it takes so few of us to change the world! Here is an example of how the Nexus works.

When I focused on the Nexus mentioned in the italic sentence above, I saw the four elements listed come into the One particle. One came down from the top, one up from the bottom and one in from both right and left. Inside the particle, I once again saw a group of standing figures (not anywhere near as many as when I was experiencing the Everything); they each represented a timeline expression of Esther. Vibrations strongly emanated from all four elements and vibrated through all the expressions of me, scooting them all to a center spot where they all collapsed into each other until there was only one. That final figure also collapsed and disappeared into the Nothing. A blink of my eyes later and a new figure had appeared. This one was golden, which for me represents vibrating at the highest personal level possible at that moment. Then the one figure multiplied itself back out into a group of figures again, each retaining the gold symbolic color.

I asked what the four elements of my new and improved Nexus meant and was told the following. Community is the basis for human interaction. It is the strongest instigator of growth through interaction. Availability is the opening of all that you desire and flooding it to you. Progress is the development of the New in all that you do and say. And Advancement is the bringing of new ideas and innovations into the playground so that all the other factors continually have new ground to cover.

The Nexus operates for everyone in a different way. What did you agree to work on in this lifetime? What have you shifted and shifted? The nexus can remain the same your entire life or it can be constantly shifting. What is important to note, is that the nexus is a creational point for the individual, the creation of magnetic flow for your life expression. The ability to control your immediate environment is simple in the extreme. What you are doing with the Nexus is encountering a personal field that is infinitely adjustable. Your nexus work affects the magnetics of your immediate life expressions first; but remember that anything that you do for yourself is reflected outward onto the All.

 

Quantum Creation, part 4

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Quantum Creation, part 4

My journey into understanding Quantum Creating continued. You can read part 1, part 2 and part 3 here. For now I was curious as to what makes the New so powerful in the Quantum state. I could see that standing in my own ideas of what was possible was incredibly limiting. After all there is so much beyond my imagination and understanding. Believing in the Everything and the Nothing simultaneously, and loving them both, opens the paradox engine that is Creation. The New in the Quantum state had demonstrated how much more powerful it was then what I could ever choose on my own. But what is the New and what is its power? I asked the Quantum New straight out. What are you?

New: “I am the beginning of All That Is, as a reflection of sophisticated complex molecular understanding of the quantum atomic field. I am bursting forth in the minds of the many. All will know my name and wonder.”

It sounded like physical creation to me. The more I stared at the above statement the more I saw that every living thing was a personification of the Quantum. My body is a paradox, atomic structures with more space than solid creating a solid physical state. All life is Quantum. All life is an engine, it’s very own fuel source. I saw that to be able to understand the body fully, or any physical life for that matter, would bring about a greater understanding of how to harness pure energy.

All: “Do not think that the basic understanding of who you are will not affect EVERYTHING! This knowledge will be the leading cause of evolution for humanity. I love humanity. They are calling out for a New Path. The old is done, well-worn and partly corrupted. The New will bring hope to the hopeless and wealth to the poor. Humanity has walked into a broader range of choices last year. This year you are seeing the choices they chose play out. Out with the old, in with the new, can take many forms. It is a discerning soul that enables preferred choices to come forward. Lean into the New. Let it show you what is available. Then choose. There are always more options than what are in front of you.”

So I asked the New to tell me about its Power.

New: “I am creation. I am the ability to wipe away the old in a heartbeat. I am the everlasting reveal. I am You, should you choose it. I am particle. I am mass. I am physics.”

Esther: “Are you the Everything?”

N: “No. I am creation happening. The Everything is all that IS. I am the cutting edge, the new birth, the sunrise, the dawn of a new age. I am creation and you are the creator. When you enter the paradox, when you collapse time and space, that is when I am available. It is within that space/no space that I thrive. It gives me literally UNLIMITED power. I am the unexpected, the lover and the power behind all long-lasting creations.”

E: “What are you capable of Now, that humanity and the Earth have not experienced before?”

N: “It is not what I am capable of, but what YOU are now capable of. Do you not see the power that lies before you? The Partnership of Dreams is yours to command.”

E: “Is the New only brought into the physical by a conscious creator?”

N: “To enter your realm, your life, your experience, You must call me forth. And yet just as with personal choice quantum creation, you can refine and choose a more specific frequency then what you can perceive. There can be New chosen out of fear and New chosen out of Love. One will bring you possibilities but they will be limiting. The other brings expansion and divergence from current grounded realities. I am in service to the Whole. In the Quantum you saw the explosion of light that represented the impact of All that I Am. You too are the All and the I Am. There is nothing that you cannot achieve with the I Am for it encompasses the All.”

Quantum Creation, part 3

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Quantum Creation, part 3

As my journey of understanding the Quantum continued to bloom; (part 1 and part 2) I could not wrap my mind around how I was supposed to create in an energetic space where I loved everything in it. I realized that removing my own personal desires brought into existence all created fields at once. But then what to do! Let me give you an example that I was walked through regarding my desire to teach one of my children to swim. This shows you the complexity and simplicity of quantum thinking. (Paradox again!)

All: “Let us begin with the belief that he should know how to swim. Love this belief and also recognize that this is not true. And love that belief too. You want him to enjoy water. Love that belief. He is afraid. Love that belief. He will never learn to swim. Love that belief. He will be an Olympic style swimmer. Love that belief. Now we take them all and realize that they are all the same energy, expressed differently. All are the One. The One is not held accountable to any of those outcomes because the One loves them all too. So then, as you just did, you consider the consequences of DIVERTING the All into a certain frequency, a frequency that has many expressions. From there it is a short walk to Becoming the diverted energy. By simply allowing it into being.”

There is no separating the personal creations from EVERYTHING else in the Quantum. Nothing is on a small-scale. Continuing with the example above. In order to divert the All into a frequency that would affect my son, this is how I would do it if I chose. I would create clean water for everyone and everything. I would create the love of water by all. I would bring joy to water everywhere so that everyone could experience it. This would not create a specific outcome for my kid, but it would alter EVERY available expression that he is living. It would clearly alter it for everything and everyone else. Think Big? It’s HUGE! One particle change (becoming the diverted energy) is like a snowball rolling down hill…only the hill is the Universe. It is rather mind blowing!

But I was still so unsure of what to do about the Neutrality of the All. Here is my journal entry where I got clarity on that.

Esther: “If the All is neutral, then where is the line between being neutral myself and creating what I want? I have become more and more neutral along my journey. Which really is neutral in judgment, so I love all. But obviously I do not choose or desire certain things. Should I be such a blatant creator, biased in my own desires of what I think is good for all?”

All: “You do not become a creator without making choices. What I think you are struggling with is the shouldering of the idea that your ability to create shifts the neutrality. As you point out, neutrality is loving everything. And you don’t want everything. And yet you have discovered that you cannot open up to grand outcomes if you do not accept grand failures as a distinct possibility. You do not desire the failure, but to not include it in the quantum soup would not be correct. Every time line, every moment, has an infinitely vast way of expressing. So to be the grand creator, you must be aware of them all and know that they all exist and know that none of them exist. Breathe into it. Explore the vastness. See it all before you. There is a neutrality to it all from me, but not from you. You are allowed, not only allowed but also encouraged to choose. To not choose out of fear but out of love. This is humanities biggest challenge, how to love everything for its very existence while choosing a benevolent path for it all. The person who chooses out of love reflects their choice onto all the possibilities available. The person, who chooses out of fear, narrows the creational field so significantly that all grand work in nearly lost. It is my job to be neutral, always. It is your job to embrace the love of all and use it to CHOOSE BIG.”

When the All spoke about reflecting the choice made in love, I got this very cool image. I was standing on a ridge looking down at the land below. Spread out before me, as far as the eye could see, were people standing shoulder to shoulder. Behind them the sun was rising. The people are symbolic of different expressions of life. We occupy the space of the entire universe when we are Quantum. When a choice is made out of love, a section of those figures lit up as if they were made of a mirrored finish. This bounced the light of the sun (Source, God, the All) onto every other figure there. The reflected light lit every figure; the closest one’s receiving a bright light, but even the farthest reaches were transformed into a different lighter shade. It was as if the light kept bouncing, each body reflecting it on and on. Later I discovered that instead of me choosing from what I know of, say if I asked for the greatest new possibility to come forward, the visual was different. Then the Sun left its spot on the horizon and emerged in the center of all the symbolic figures. It was so bright that it was a virtual white out in the center of the field. But most significantly all the figures became a shiny-mirrored surface. Everyone was glowing and reflecting! It was beautiful!

I wondered about choosing new unknown options. There is something slightly intimidating about that. As if I could create challenges that were strenuous for our evolving world. As if the populations of Earth aren’t facing current challenges that are strenuous enough! I was told that there are many reasons to seek the new. Problems can be solved with new ideas and understandings, hearts can be changed with new loves and new friendships, new beginnings and new endings bring surprising changes. There is always a need for the new on Earth currently. We can bring it in, change the particle to reflect it but not change the free will of those alive and living. This can never be controlled. How each life expression chooses to live out the new energy is always up to them. Just because it is new and unknown doesn’t mean that it can’t ease strains, smooth obstacles, and overcome huge quandaries. And while doing so create, by the free will of all involved, amazing and divergent outcomes that all reflect the love of the Quantum choice.

Quantum Creation, part 2

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Quantum Creation, part 2

So my first big question after experiencing the Quantum energy was, “How the hell do I do anything from that space?!” Hahaha! I just had the experience of creating Everything! It was all there in front of me, every timeline, every existence, every expression of life and every choice that life ever made and the understanding that none of it ever existed or ever will. That crazy paradox again! I not only firmly believed in both the Everything and the Nothing but also loved both. The first thing I wanted to know was, is personal creation even possible in the Quantum, or is it all Universal.

Through journaling with The All, I came to understand that from the Quantum we affect change on the personal level by creating change on the planetary level. And of course, planetary change affects Universal change. There is nothing that I can do that does not affect the All. So I was asked, “Why should you?” It was not about what I desire, it is about what I wish to achieve in the long-term. “Where will it lead me/us? What will I/we accomplish along the way? What is the reason for change?” I had also noticed from accessing the Quantum that the love that I had for Everything and for Nothing had spilled over into my everyday life. Suddenly it was so easy to love Donald Trump! What?!!!! OMG! Nothing was tripping my trigger. Instead it was total compassion that surfaced when I paid attention to the news. So why should I change anything? I loved it all! I still do!

For me, the ALL (Source, God, whatever you want to call it) is completely neutral. Exploring the Quantum space made that even more clear to me. It is neutral in that there is no preference. All is loved for the expression that it is. So why should I meddle with any of that? It totally felt weird and I could have stopped right there, with the knowledge that the Quantum space existed. But I knew that I had been shown it for a reason. So WHY??? I kept being told to “THINK BIG!” So I kept exploring. Because The All meant Really Big!

I also had realized, with the help of my class I was taking, that the paradox was an engine. The collapse of Understanding, opens up an infinite amount of energy that can fuel anything. It was during this searching that I was gifted quite beautifully a video of Bashar speaking about how there is one subatomic particle. It moves infinitely fast, creating everything from geometric shapes. It moves so fast that where it crosses it’s own path, there appears (to scientific instruments) as if another particle is there. Everything is made up of this one particle. My mind bloomed. I saw the absolute paradox of this. And in that moment my image of the Nothing and the Everything completely changed. It became the Nothing surrounded by the hard physical shell of the Everything, the one particle. A totally paradoxical setup. A single point of Creation. The true God Particle. The All encapsulated in something so small that it is nearly impossible to fathom. A paradox engine. An engine that makes up ME! An engine that is shared by every other thing! It totally gave a new meaning to WE ARE ALL ONE. No longer was there a gazillion particles connecting us all like one giant mycelium mat, but we are literally The One. It was so cool that it blew my mind for days! I realized that is how we affect change in our world and the universe. Simply by changing the particle that makes up this fantastic creation of a human that is me, I gift that out to everything else! It really is SO AWESOME!

Quantum Creation, part 1

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Quantum Creation, part 1

I have been exploring Quantum Creation for a few months. I took a class with Soleira Green (you can find her on FaceBook), and with her leadership and the rest of the explorers in the class, I had soooo much open up for me in regards to how creation happens. It has literally given me a quantum leap (hahaha) in how I view creation, myself as a creator and the act of creation itself. I will try to explain to you all, as best I can, what I now know. This will be part one of a series.

First lets start with the question, “What is Quantum?” I could look up definitions for you out of both the dictionary and the spiritual lexicon…but I don’t think that is needed. I will tell you what I know so far. The Quantum for me is the holding place of all creation. It is every expression of life in every version ever. And it is nothing, blank, never has been and never will be. It is a Paradox. It is two complete opposites that seemingly cannot exist in the same space, existing in the same space. This creates a collapse of Understanding, which then opens you up to accessing the Quantum energy.

The Next question would be, “Why would you want to?” We have been working with our own personal creation energy for ages (far beyond just this lifetime). We have mastered it. Although it certainly doesn’t feel like it some days! But yes, we have graduated. And now we move on to learning to create on a much bigger scale. Let me type out the conversation from my journal about my first access to the Quantum.

 

Esther: “So explain how the belief in Nothing and the belief in Everything, together, is Quantum Consciousness?”

The All: “The need to control is eliminated from the picture. This opens up the flow of energy. This is not to say that you do not have emotional preference for anything, it is that you refrain from using that emotion to pidgin hole yourself. Love it all. Love some more intensely. Do NOT reject other options out of the love for the one.

Say you are looking at a series of doors and you love how one is painted so beautifully, that you do not even consider the other doors. You know they are there but they don’t interest you. You just narrowed the energy. When you love all the doors and appreciate the painted one for its glory, this gives you more of a view. Then as you look at all the doors, you see that the wall is beautiful too and you love it. This pulls your view farther out. Then you can see that there is something beyond the wall and that you can just go see what that is, without doors or walls or beginnings or ends.”

E: “So how do I create with this quantum-ness? I would think it would be wholly different than before?”

A: “Yes, the aspect of creating something specific is no longer even needed. Instead it is the creation of the whole.”

E: “Can you give me an example?”

A: “Let’s take world peace, frequently thrown out and definitely wanted. It is such a simple concept and yet seemingly complex in its achievement. So now, you would ignore all of that. To create world peace is not your goal. To love the concept and the people wishing it is extraordinary. But to create it requires the inclusion of NOT having it. You must love that it is not here, and love the thought that it could be and love the thought that IT IS. There are infinite possibilities. Now love that you cannot control ANY OF THEM. Drop all expectations. Drop all needs. Drop all desires, hopes, dreams, nightmares, fears, loves and hates. Now you are in the No-thing. You must believe in the Nothing as strongly as you believe in all the rest. You must love the Nothing.

Now combine them. It seems odd. The Nothing and the Everything occupying the same space. It is almost impossible to wrap your mind around.”

 

The image came to me of a black hole with swirling matter around the outside and a complete void in the middle. I settled myself into the energy. I loved my way through war and strife, peace and plenty. I saw battles rage and treaties signed and I loved them all. I also saw that the battlefields and peace accords never existed and never will and I loved them too. I saw the truth of the Nothing and the truth of the Everything and in that moment I could actually feel that I had created everything that had ever been and will ever be and that there was nothing to create.

 

It was a really cool experience, as you might imagine. And it led to many questions, which will lead us to part two.

 

 

Our personal energy fields and how I see them. (Or what is that big spinning donut and how do I eat it?)

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Today I will explain how I see the energy field around my body, which I am extrapolating to include the field around your body.  Why do things by half, anyway?  Hmmmmm?  Bare in mind that what I “see” is not with my physical eyes.  I also would like to say that how I see in meditation is akin to an allegory.  A story of symbols that unfolds for me to make sense of.  I have been working with my field at least once daily for the past three or four months…maybe even five.  How time flies!  It all started when I started working out every day.  After my cool down I would concentrate on my field and observe and interact with what I found there.  The first “structure” that I saw was a gridded torus that is around my body, just past my fingertips when outstretched.  Not quite as far away from me as the following illustration but l liked the gridded aspects of this pic.  Some days the ribbing that is vertical is much more pronounced than the horizontal aspects.  It also pretty much looks like a sphere unless I look straight up.

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I have been told in meditation that this is “the envelope that contains the letter that is you.”

The next aspect that I began to see is an infinity symbol that stretched out from my body.  It extended the length that my arms can reach out from my body.  In other words, I can trace the whole thing.  Here is the tricky part for the visual.  The energy is moving in a continual loop right?  But there is a very 3D aspect of it, like I’m looking at a cannoli shell. Only the center does not overlap it flows into its self and is much more narrow or pinched than our friend the cannoli.  But that curvature of the shell, that is being pointed out to me.

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This field is very much centered at my heart.  I call this the Heart Field.  The Heart Field is a fascinating structure, of which we (meaning I…and anyone else who is working with it) are only beginning to understand.  Here is a quote from my journal concerning its nature.

“The binary-ness of the heart is two-fold.  First it is the creator and the destroyer.  The constant cycle of conversion, conversion, conversion is the heart creating and destroying. We do not mean this in a violent way, only in the way of demonstrating that all life does consume life.  So too does your heart eat old thoughts, creations, attitudes and beliefs.  Do you not have a surge of energy when you have an Ah Ha moment?  That is the heart immediately converting the old into the new.  Second, there is a push-pull aspect to the heart which is very important.  The energy that you Accept (More about this very important concept/action later.) into the heart is the pull, from what you Accept you push out as part of who you are.”

So why do I see the Heart field as a giant cannoli?  Ah, good question my friends.  I see in symbols, remember?  So the sideways representation was emphasizing strongly the source of the field, the heart itself.  It really isn’t a half a donut or even a full (which I thought at one point).  I am seeing the looping structure of the engine of physical life…not the beating of the heart that keeps my body alive but the engine that controls the physical life that I see all around me.  I thought for a moment that the loop that I saw was a wave but this is not correct either.  Here is the best description from my journal.

“It is hard to describe something that is not in your sphere of reference, but we will try.  Take the understanding of a truck backing up.  Look at its wheels as it reverses.  The surface of the wheel is a finite controlled system that acts as an intermediary between the vehicle and the surface it rests upon.  So too does the energy which leaves the heart.  It is not a wave but a very physical interacting device that permeates your field.  The words to describe a physical act…for that is what it does, creates the physical…are hard to describe to you since you are seeing the energetic manifestation of it.  Do you understand? It is not energetic, it is physical but you are seeing an energetic representation of it so that you can understand it’s function.

The understanding that the physical is created, maintained and organized by your heart field, is crucial for life change.  What is not crucial is understanding exactly what that looks like.  Instead understand what that means to you.  Understand why you can see what you can see.”

So here is what I understand from the symbols being shown to me.  The Outer Field Torus is the energetic representation of our individualism.  This is not a thesis on how we are really all one.  That is a different energy field representation.  This is about YOU and how you create YOUR life.  So the envelope encloses the letter, our physical body.  The body contains the engine of creation, the heart.  Emotion is another way of understanding that engine.  Emotion is really the ultimate creation engine.  It alone of the chakras is the creator of the outward life that we experience.

The other chakras, not to be left out, I see as a double spiral.

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The spiral is also very much centered on the aspect of conversion.  As you actively seek more your chakra responds in kind, widening both what you have available to learn through that chakra and presenting all that you have learned out into your life.  They act differently than the heart in that they are not the engine, instead they are the driving force of expansion within your identity of self.  As you explore what you are capable of and what you choose to encounter and do, your chakras spiral with where you are in your journey. So the sine wave that represents each chakra, its speed and amplitude is based on each individuals level of self initiation and needs.  The entire chakra group is always interacting with each other, these are not closed systems.  You cannot segregate growth to one energy center.

So there you have it.  The playing field for physical creation….as I see it.  There is soooo much more yumminess to learn!  (She says while salivating!)

 

Expectation and Releasing my Accomplishments

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Expectation and Releasing my Accomplishments

Hi everybody! This meditation continues my understanding of creation. Or more accurately that annoying thing called, waiting for something to happen. It also addresses a meditation that I had done the day prior that was spurred by Brenda Hoffman’s blog post titled Goodbye Fear Friend at lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com. I have to tell you, cutting the thread that she talks about was hard to do. Not in the cutting of but in the realization of what that meant. I needed to release all memory of how I got to where I am now, all the awesomeness and the ah-ha’s and the holy shit moments. That was big and I almost snatched it back reflexively. I had to consciously let it all go.  I encourage you to read her post if you have not yet.

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Esther: “Dear self, can you help me with expectation? It seems to be my biggest emotional trigger at the moment.”

myself: “Yes. The beginning of all energy exchange is based on expectation. This can be incredibly limiting and incredibly expansive. We have spoken of the Time being Now, of using your foresight to pull things into the Now. This leads to expectation. How can it not. You should expect the visible presence of what you have created.  The problem lies in what your mind is able to expect and what is really there. You have a desire for everything to fall into place Now, for the uncertainty to end and the next chapter to begin. When this does not occur, you become sad and disappointed.”

E: “I am pushing again, aren’t I?”

m: “Yes, but only in one aspect of this. The train ride you are on has a scheduled stop. You are looking for that stop in every light pole that you pass.”

E: “Like a kid in a car on a long trip.”

m: (Laughing) “Yes. You have created an anxiety because each light pole is not the station. When we tell you that all is proceeding as planned, that all is created and entering your physical existence, you believe us.”

E: “Yes.”

m: “What you don’t believe is that our time frame and yours are the same. We are not so aligned with other energies that we do not understand. We are you. We KNOW that you and your family are entering you new chapter. We know your timetable. We know your schedule. We know that all will be provided. We understand your concern around this and we hope to allay your anxiety over this. Here is what we see.

You will be living in a new home by May 1st.

You will find your encounter with this shift painless and easy.

You will NEVER miss this opportunity.

You will NEVER find yourself in lack again.

You are as gifted in the creation of your dreams as you are in exploring what you are made of.

You will arrive at the station on time.

You will be there to both meet the train and depart from it.”

E: “Thank you. I have foreseen these things and the Time is Now.

Anything else you would like to add today?”

m: “Yes, lets take a journey to the release of the thread yesterday. Do you understand the release of your memories of growth?”

E: “I think so. To retain them is to create the energy again.”

m: “Yes. To totally step into the new, the old must be released, especially your memories of leaving it. There will come a time when you will not even remember what it was like to just scrape by. It will seem like another lifetime, as if you and that Esther have nothing in common. This is good. It is a new era, a new lifetime while still living. This new energy must separate from the old in every way. Do not think that your growth and accomplishments are not honored. They are but now they too are old. The New needs a clean slate. Thank you for letting go. It is a bittersweet parting. But now you truly stand in your new Being.

These boots are made for walking, and that’s just what they’ll do.

And one of these days, these boots are gonna walk all over you.

You have stood on the shoulders of the old you. Now the boots have stepped off on their own journey. Your past is no longer relevant to the new you.

Are you ready boots? Start walkin!