Hi everybody! This meditation continues my understanding of creation. Or more accurately that annoying thing called, waiting for something to happen. It also addresses a meditation that I had done the day prior that was spurred by Brenda Hoffman’s blog post titled Goodbye Fear Friend at lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com. I have to tell you, cutting the thread that she talks about was hard to do. Not in the cutting of but in the realization of what that meant. I needed to release all memory of how I got to where I am now, all the awesomeness and the ah-ha’s and the holy shit moments. That was big and I almost snatched it back reflexively. I had to consciously let it all go. I encourage you to read her post if you have not yet.
Esther: “Dear self, can you help me with expectation? It seems to be my biggest emotional trigger at the moment.”
myself: “Yes. The beginning of all energy exchange is based on expectation. This can be incredibly limiting and incredibly expansive. We have spoken of the Time being Now, of using your foresight to pull things into the Now. This leads to expectation. How can it not. You should expect the visible presence of what you have created. The problem lies in what your mind is able to expect and what is really there. You have a desire for everything to fall into place Now, for the uncertainty to end and the next chapter to begin. When this does not occur, you become sad and disappointed.”
E: “I am pushing again, aren’t I?”
m: “Yes, but only in one aspect of this. The train ride you are on has a scheduled stop. You are looking for that stop in every light pole that you pass.”
E: “Like a kid in a car on a long trip.”
m: (Laughing) “Yes. You have created an anxiety because each light pole is not the station. When we tell you that all is proceeding as planned, that all is created and entering your physical existence, you believe us.”
m: “What you don’t believe is that our time frame and yours are the same. We are not so aligned with other energies that we do not understand. We are you. We KNOW that you and your family are entering you new chapter. We know your timetable. We know your schedule. We know that all will be provided. We understand your concern around this and we hope to allay your anxiety over this. Here is what we see.
You will be living in a new home by May 1st.
You will find your encounter with this shift painless and easy.
You will NEVER miss this opportunity.
You will NEVER find yourself in lack again.
You are as gifted in the creation of your dreams as you are in exploring what you are made of.
You will arrive at the station on time.
You will be there to both meet the train and depart from it.”
E: “Thank you. I have foreseen these things and the Time is Now.
Anything else you would like to add today?”
m: “Yes, lets take a journey to the release of the thread yesterday. Do you understand the release of your memories of growth?”
E: “I think so. To retain them is to create the energy again.”
m: “Yes. To totally step into the new, the old must be released, especially your memories of leaving it. There will come a time when you will not even remember what it was like to just scrape by. It will seem like another lifetime, as if you and that Esther have nothing in common. This is good. It is a new era, a new lifetime while still living. This new energy must separate from the old in every way. Do not think that your growth and accomplishments are not honored. They are but now they too are old. The New needs a clean slate. Thank you for letting go. It is a bittersweet parting. But now you truly stand in your new Being.
These boots are made for walking, and that’s just what they’ll do.
And one of these days, these boots are gonna walk all over you.
You have stood on the shoulders of the old you. Now the boots have stepped off on their own journey. Your past is no longer relevant to the new you.
Are you ready boots? Start walkin!”