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Simultaneous Experiences



Do you ever have those days where you feel a bit crazed? A couple of days ago this happened to me. I felt incredibly busy and yet there wasn’t much to do. I got a lot done and yet somehow mysteriously, nothing. I was full of energy and ready to take a nap. I was nauseous and starving at the same time. And no I’m not pregnant, I’m quite positive because I started my period that day. I was totally surprised by its appearance and thought I was way early until I checked the calendar and I was literally perfectly on time. The next day, the same sort of things happened to my friend Melissa who is in the Power Trio with me. All day long she encountered multiple things that should have totally blown her schedule out of the water but instead everywhere she went she was on time and got everything she needed done. And then yesterday she texted Jennifer and I that she felt pissy and Hallmark sappy at the same time. Our days have started becoming what I call in my head, Yin and Yang days, clear opposite and obvious emotions, sensations and happenings going on at the same time. Jennifer, hit the nail on the head yesterday with this comment, “… this awareness could have much to do with just learning the multiplicity of simultaneous timelines…” So into meditations I went when I finally had time today.

Esther: “Is that what is happening? Is it an overlap experience or something else?”

Myself: “The overlapping experience or the ability to perceive that multiple realities can and are happening at once, is the next exploration that The Three have embarked on. This perception is a tiny token of what is really happening. You could not be aware of it all and be sane at this point in your evolution.”

E: “So what would you like us to learn about this?”

M: “The beginning of multidimensional travel is being aware of overlapping frequencies. To acknowledge and be aware of simultaneous experiences will bring more of them for you to experience. Keeping your balance and staying in the awareness will help you find your way through this expanding journey.”

E: “So we are feeling multiple experiences of ourselves in our current incarnations?”

M: “Yes, the perception currently has you experiencing things that are very close in vibrational frequency to your Now You. Like pages in a book, you are merely on both sides of one page at the moment. This is to acclimate you and is most easily noticed through the emotional sensors.”

E: “Yes, I noticed that! How do those that we live with and interact with perceive this?”

M: “They are unaware of a shift on the obvious face value of the situation. But on a Soul level, they are very much aware and it affects them too. This may cause stress for some and have no emotional effect for others.”

E: “Any advice for us?”

M: “Stay balanced as much as possible. This is causing a rewiring of the way that your brain perceives reality and can make it hard to focus on one specific feeling over the other. Know this is appropriate and do what you can to flow with the situation. This is not hard. It can be done. The challenge is in the unsettled and disorienting feeling this brings. Do not mistake this for being off-balance or think you need to ground. You are grounded or this would not be even possible. Your energy is braided with Mother Earth’s and is now being exposed to a tiny bit of what she experiences with just You! Now multiply that by the countless frequencies and life forms on this planet and you can sorta almost glimpse a tiny fraction of what the phrase, “All That Is” means. (Big Smile) Enjoy this exploration and expansion and find your way back to All of You.”

E: “Thank you!”

M: “Your welcome. Know that this is happening on a broad scale and will cause stress and confusion to many. Most will assume that they have suddenly lost the ability to focus or stay centered. This is not true. I ask them to pay attention! Notice that there is more going on than usual. This is being opened to you because you can focus and because you do know where your center is. This simultaneous experience of energies is not to cause you stress or discomfort but to get you to be more aware of processing multiple energetic signatures through that amazing body and brain of yours. Will the journey ever end? No. (Laughs) You will be expanding all the time but YOU can find the moments that you need to slow it ALL down and just breathe and BE. Rest is not taken away from you but it is your responsibility to seek it out and claim it. Love yourself as we love you. You are loved.”

The Color Code of Emotions

The Color Code of Emotions

In my quest to turn on my “emotional sensors” during meditation, I found myself seeing auras in one of my last attempts. I was informed by one of the ladies in my super powers group that I was seeing emotion. Say what? So I went into a meditation conversation with Myself to find out more about this.

Esther: “Am I allowed to ask about seeing the colored auras and their relation to emotion?”

Myself: “You may ask any questions you wish. We wanted you to do the non-written meditations to help you focus on the new info you would be receiving. There is a correlation between the colors you saw and emotion. The most prominent feature of this is the ability to spot the intention of a Being or action of a Being. Sometimes when you do not understand the meaning behind the act you can jump to conclusions and make suppositions and you would be wrong, based on not enough information.”

E: “So the color projects the root emotion of the Being/object in the moment?”

M: “Yes. Do not think that this won’t change for you. Always this will be evolving as you are better able to process and understand this information.”

E: “Can you tell me what the colors mean?”

M: “The difference in the colors is subtle.

Red is the color of forward action, interested passion, and purposeful creating.

Orange is the color of Being full; content with one’s self, a color of radiant confidence.

Yellow is the color of Beginnings; it features the purity of finding your way with intent and benevolent interest.

Gold is the color of vibrating at the highest personal level possible at that moment.

Silver is the color of fusion of soul and physical incarnate, the two working as one.

Bronze is the color that denotes finding your way in a new meld of consciousness.

Copper is the color of Earth energy mixed with the human and the soul.

Green is the color of an open heart, not so much love as the openness to love everything for it’s own attributes.

Blue is the color of Mother energy, fertility and growth and the bringing of life.

Aqua is the color of the Sea, water energy mixed with living Beings in a state of union.

Violet is the color of enhancement, of growth and renewal.

White is the color of pure intent, intent with no agenda or expectations.

Black is the color of the unknown, of possibilities that are endless.

Brown is the color of the Earth energy, full of life and the wisdom therein.

Pink is the color of love, both personal and universal.

Grey symbolizes the mixing of endless possibilities with pure intent.

Sparkles mean that there is a multidimensional experience happening. These can be seen not only around a person, place or thing but also in conjunction with the actions of someone, such as after/before or during a specific interaction or speech.

Stripes are the representation of a multi-layered experience where things are being expressed on multiple levels and through multiple intentions.

Stars are the representation of a layered energy that needs to be decoded on more than one energetic level, often with sound being the primary carrier of information.

A Rainbow is the representation of a fullness and completeness in the given circumstances.”

E: “What about anger or sadness or shame or fear? Don’t they have a color?”

M: “The emotions you speak of are not so much a color as an absence of one. This doesn’t mean that if you are not seeing an aura that you must assume that one of those emotions are being experienced. Instead think of it as an equation. When you are in a state of peace and acceptance and love, you radiate that emotion outward. When you feel hate or anger, for example, you pull that emotion into yourself and hold it there. It does not radiate outward as part of your energy field. You still create with those emotions but you create from the heart center not from the energy field around you.”

E: “This is why your own emotions have such an effect on your physical health?”

M: “Yes. The holding of fear and anger close to yourself puts tremendous stress on your cells.”

E: “So, I will only be able to see emotions that are in the field and not those within the heart.”

M: “For all intents and purposes, right now you will be limited to the immediate field around the Being or object. This is in an attempt to narrow the field and give you a base line to start exploring/sensing emotions.”

E: “I thought I would feel the emotion?”

M: “Do not assume that you will not. You are merely learning the language for these experiences. More will follow. Your experience will broaden.”

E: “Do I use these color meanings in all my other meditations or is it just when I see an aura?”

M: “They will be applicable to all your meditation work. The more you pay attention the more you will see that the emotional code is embedded in all things.”

E: “Is this code a universal thing or meant for me in particular?”

M: “This code is for you but it has many universal meanings that others will recognize. Others may adapt it if they wish but understand that it is a primer, a jumping off point for further development.”

Blended Work


Uluru, Ayers Rock Australia

Our Super Powers class has been over since the end of June but our group has still been meeting and meditating together. We are quite active with discussion and sharing in our private Facebook group page. It has been a joy to hangout with others with similar interests. We had been discussing our next phone meet up this week. I had not received a meditation from Raoul, our blended energy group guide. But I didn’t think too much about that, after all it has been very busy here on the farm. I am pretty much up to my ears in cucumbers. So when I took a moment and asked Raoul what he had for us this week, I was quite unprepared for the answer.

We were asked to step up our game. No one-off meditation for us to play with this week. Oh no. Instead we got instructions on a three-week Blended Work extravaganza. The subject of our work is centered on Uluru, Ayers Rock in Australia. We were all given individual assignments that build on each other. Some of us were told to tap into the soil/minerals of the Great Rock, others to establish connections with the people and animals/birds etc. that live on and around it. Another was visiting New Zealand and was told to document the connections that already exist between Uluru and that amazing landmass. Still others were asked to learn how to work with the energetic field around the Rock or to begin learning the individual frequencies and timelines that are connected to and travel through there or to connect with the history of Uluru through the ages. Still another was given the task of uncovering and drawing the art and other glyphs that have been drawn on Uluru down through the ages. These are all amazing and intense acts that will stretch each of our skills. And yes, three weeks is our time frame. So we will do what we can!

The assignment that I was given is as follows.

“Esther your homework is to begin developing your Reach and Flight gifts on an energetic level through emotion. This is a new sensory experience for you during meditation and will not always be pleasant. All your energetic sensors will be opened in that regard and you will need to learn what to do to have the experience and have the emotion too, without one overwhelming the other. It will take a new way of meditating for you. You have mastered the abilities to take notes and to observe. Now you must leave the note taking to all of the others and learn to expand and use this new sense. You may keep a journal of your experiences but focus on the emotional side of it and write it only after the meditation is complete. To begin, connect with the land and then it’s people, the Dreamwalkers. Let them show you how they use their emotions. Submerge yourself in the experiences of the others and FEEL your way through them. Call on all those who are on this journey with you if it begins to be overwhelming. But it is important to note that you should let the emotions well up within you to overflowing. They must fill you all the way up if you are to truly know how to experience them and be able to add them to your list of senses that will remain open as you meditate.”

Now I am nervous about this assignment. Not because I don’t think I can do it but because I KNOW that it is bigger than it appears. I have no problem feeling other people’s emotions in day-to-day life but I feel it, understand what I am getting and then turn off the spigot. I sip emotion. I know this is not a bad thing. It is good to have control so I’m not overwhelmed. But it is all done unconsciously and I also think that I do it to myself. So this is not just about giving myself another sense to use during meditation, this is about reconfiguring how I emotionally sense and feel things all the time. YIKES!!! (Deep Breath)

I have also done a little digging on Uluru. While I was getting the assignments from Raoul, it was mentioned that Uluru was an important Earth Node. I knew that word but it wasn’t until someone mentioned that it was from Kryon did I have my memory jogged. I will link the posts on to this so you can check it out if you are interested. There are 24 major “time capsules” that are on the planet. Twelve of them are Nodes and twelve of them are Nulls. They are also paired up together, one Null with one Node. Uluru is indeed a Node; its pair is unknown at this time. The Nulls are areas where one only feels pure Mother Earth energy; the energetic grids of humanity overlap and cancel each other out. The Nodes are areas where the energetic grids of humanity overlap and amplify. There are three kinds of Nodes–portals, vortex, and vortals (a combination of both). Nodes also slowly remove negative and unwanted energy from the Earth. Nulls slowly release information to us, as we are ready, that is why they work in pairs…a push-pull scenario. Please check out the link if you want more information.

So not only do we have an intense three weeks ahead of us but we are doing it at one of the twelve Earth Nodes too! Holy Cow! No pressure!

The assignments came through me and were sent out yesterday as soon as I could type them up. A few people had already started on their explorations and posted about them before I was even back in the house and showered from sweating my ass off harvesting this morning. (I really do think that we should have a limit on how much humidity can be in the air when there is zero breeze and no clouds.) Our uncovering the art of Uluru lady is also working with the encoded sounds of the drawings. She had posted about what she was starting to get along with a lark song that she heard. As I read her post, I could hear the lark singing too and remember that I was supposed to FEEL into their experiences. So I dropped in further. Suddenly I was having a full on experience.

I was standing on Uluru and there was a humming bird flying all around me. It opened a staircase out of my gut, which tumbled down until the bottom step reached the ground. Then it stripped the skin off my chest, exposing the organs and bones inside. It came up to my ear and whispered, “Do you want to feel fear?” “Yes.” I said. “Anger?” “Yes.” “Shame?” “Yes.”…and on through all the darker emotions. It then listed the lighter ones such as happiness, joy and love. I said yes to them all and then said, “I will take them all so that I can feel joy, love and happiness.”

The bird flew behind me and I noticed that my hands were tied behind my back and I also had latex gloves on. I cut the tie and stripped off my gloves. My hands were pink and new and it was almost psychedelic looking at them. A big cucumber plant was suddenly on my right, waving its tendrils in my face to get my attention. I took my new pink hands and started feeling along it. Under a leaf, I felt something heavy land in my hand and I pulled my hand out and stared. I was holding a tiny baby, preemie size. It fit in my hand. It was my “new baby emotions”. I put it in my open chest and it went head first into my heart. I suddenly felt something heavy drop into my pelvis. I was giving birth! I reached down and quickly grabbed her before she could hit the ground. It was a girl with very very long hair. She was about the size of an 8 or 9-year-old. I washed all the birth stickiness off of her and cleaned her hair. She just stood there all stiff and wooden, like a doll. I got her to talk. She is Fear. She says that I don’t use her properly, that I don’t acknowledge her. I push her away and ignore her. I asked what I should do. She said when I come around; you should pay attention and admit I am there. I, Esther, need to find a place that knows and understands fear without ignoring it or letting it overwhelm me and block all other emotions and thoughts. Balance. I still didn’t FEEL any emotions come to me while in this meditation, except my concern for the girl when I was trying to coax her to talk to me. But some progress has been made. One small step forward and now Fear walks beside me, not as a shadow that frightens but as an acknowledged part of myself.